Love Never Lasts

Chapter #12 Gay

     I saw George's panicked look on his face as he threw himself off of the other boy. George wouldn't look at me. He buried his face into his hands. The other boy looked like he didn't know what to do. He stood up with his hands up like I was the police and said to me, "it's not what it looks like." "I'm pretty sure it is. George, are you gay?" I saw George nod his head. "Please don't hate me now." 

     It broke my heart that George thought i would hate him because of something like this. I climbed on to the bed and sat next to George. "George I would never hate you, I don't care if you gay and like guys I love you just the same." I gave him a hug from the side. 

     He finally looked up at me with teary eyes. "Oh my gosh eve! What happened to your face?!" Oh yeah I forgot about the bruises. George grabbed my face to trace the bruises. I flinched. "Does it hurt?" He asked me. 

     I grabbed his wrists and pulled his hands away from my face. "I'm fine. Some guy got a little too touchy." "What did he want from you?" "Uh- sex..." "he seriously wanted to have sex with you?" "He tried to take me home." "That's terrible." "It's fine, really don't worry.  Anyways back to this, how long has this been going on?" 

     "We've been dating for 3 months." "George, why didn't you tell me?" "I was scared you would hate me." "George, you're my little brother. I love you, I could never hate you." "Thanks Eve." "But how dare you have your first kiss before me! I still haven't kissed anyone." 

     "Not true." Sarah said, appearing in the door frame making me jump. "What do you mean by that?" I asked. "You kissed Charlie last night." "What?!" George, the other boy and I all said in sink. I sat up so fast it gave me a head rush. 

     "You finally did it, you kissed him?" The boy asked me. "Wait a minute, how do you know about this?" I asked. I looked over at George. "George, did you tell him about me and Charlie?" "I might have told him." 

     "Why would you tell him about my sad love life?" I cried. "Because it's funny, I'm sorry. Oh and by the way, this is Matthew or Matt for short." Matt waved and gave me an awkward smile. "It's nice to meet you Matt." I said getting off the bed to jester a hand shake. 

     Matt heisted but he shook my hand. I gripped his hand pulling him closer to me. I whisper in his ear. "You better be good to him. Don't you dare break his heart." Matt whispered back. "I won't I promise, I truly like him for who he is, he's amazing." "That's what I like to hear. You seem like a good kid." I said pulling away from him. 

     I walked over to the door frame where Sarah was standing. "So um I don't know what to do now. Do I like to tell them to keep the door open or something?" I asked Sarah. "Nah there'll be fine. Use production!" Sarah said, closing the door.

     "They look really cute together." Sarah told me. " I agree, but Matt better not break George's heart or he'll be hearing from me so fast." "A little overprotective." "George is like my best friend." I watched Sarah's jaw drop. "Bitch! What about me?!" "No no of course you're my best friend." "It's ok I'm just joking don't worry." 

     My phone buzzed. I knocked on Geogre's door. "I'm sorry to interrupt. Mom texted me she's coming home earlier around 6:00 pm." I told them. "Thank you eve." "Do mom and dad even know he's here?" I asked. "They don't. But Mom and Dad could care less." "They probably won't care unless they see you guys acting all close. George I love you, I don't care that you're gay, but I know Mom and Dad will. Be careful." "I know Mom and Dad would freak if they knew I was gay. Honestly I thought you would too eve." 

     "Well I didn't, I totally support you guys if guy ever need anything you can always come to me." "I know. Thanks." "You should probably leave before our mother gets home." I told Matt. "Yeah I will." "Anyways Eve, are you gonna tell us what happened with Charlie?" Geogre asked. "I don't know, I don't remember anything." I told him. "How can you not remember it was your first kiss with Charlie!!!" George practically screamed. "Well she was super hammered." Sarah told him. 

     "You were drunk?! Since when do you drink?" George asked, his voice getting even higher. "Well this dumb ass didn't know it was alcohol and kept drinking." "Damn. This party sounded fun." Matt said. "It was an ok party, a lot happened." Sarah told Matt. "Wait, Sarah, how do you know I kissed Charlie?" 

     "Because you came into my car hammered bragging about kissing Charlie, and the hickeys he let on your chest." "WHAT?!" I screamed. "Oh let me see!!!" George said excitedly. I looked down at my shirt and there they were. I had four hickeys on my upper chest. I felt myself burn up. 

     "The tea is getting spicy." Matt commented. "Oh my gosh was Charlie drunk? Will he regret kissing me? Did I force myself onto him? Oh my gosh!" I started freaking out. I hated that I couldn't remember anything from last night. I hated that I kissed him for the first time drunk. I hated myself for getting that drunk in the first place. I felt so stupid. 

     How could I face Charlie again after what I did? My head was spiraling in all different directions. I started to feel like I couldn't breathe. "Oh my god! Are you having a panic attack?!" Matt asked. Telling by his tone of voice he was freaking out a little. I was closest to Matt so he noticed first. Sarah grabbed my shoulders. "Just Breathe, you're ok. Everything's ok." My head was still spiraling. It was hard to focus on anything. I took a big breath in and out. In and out. In and out. In and out. 

     I finally calmed down. Now embarrassed by my little scene in front of everyone. I felt the power of their stares. I could also see the worry in all of their faces. "I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to cause a scene." I tried to stand up but Sarah stopped me. "Are you sure you should be standing? You might wanna take a minute." "Eve, don't worry about it. The important thing is that you're ok." George told me. "And you don't have anything to be embarrassed about if it happens we're all human. Also you don't have to be embarrassed in front of me, George talks about you all the time so I feel like I already know you." Matt told me.

     "Thank you guys a lot. I'm really ok I guess I just started to freak out a little." I stood up to go get some water. I suddenly felt really thirsty. "Ok not to be weird or anything but are you guys the type of gays who like more girl stuff?" Sarah asked them. "Um more like fashionable clothes, but not like skirts and all that you know." George answered her. "That was kinda personal." I told Sarah. 

    "I know. But we all go shopping and get you clothes you like. Not!!! The clothes your parents make you wear." Sarah said well, pulling out some of George's clothes. "Like look at these?! Boring!" Sarah threw the shirt and pants on the floor. "Let's go get some more fashionable clothing. oh and for you to Evelyn." "Wait, why me?" "Because I know you have a big overthinking head of yours and you think oh Charlie doesn't like me, well guess what he does and those hickeys are proof!!! So let's show Charlie how hot you can really be girl!" "Wow I don't know what got you so pumped? But I like it! I'm in!"