innocent lotus flower

Reality

          The reality of wei ying life is that he will never be happy or loved. He has just moved from one hell to another. The first week of wei ying's marriage had been bearable and even though his husband did not like him he was not cruel to him because of Madam LAN, everyone in the family respects her which is why Lan wangji at least during this time was gentle, and courteous towards Xiao zhan although he was a little cold. wei had thought that this marriage would be bearable if they lived like this until he was told that he and lan wangji  would move to another home in another city because of the lan enterprises,after the marriage lan wangji was finally given the position of the CEO of the group and would move to the capital in gusu. moving there with lan wangji had not really been that bad they were as roomates with no particular interest with one another and wei ying was content with his life but just one single mistake changed his life forever. The reality hits him in the face like a sledgehammer when he had accidentally trashed some old photos that he found among the stuff they moved he hadn't meant to trash it but he had taken it to the attic to store it, the day had been fine and he had decided to finally sort the excess things they brought from the old home, lan wangji had been busy and did not give any specific instruction about how to handle his stuff.
           wei ying  had been making dinner for the both of them when lan wangji  returns from work. He sees him go to the master bedroom which is lan wangji,s room they do not share the same room as they did in the lan  mansion, wei wuxian  is focused on cooking when he hears lan wangji  shout his name."wei wuxain " The shock causes him to drop the spoon he was using to stir the soup in the soup pot causing it to splash on him,he grips his hands hissing but also wondering what had made lan wangji angry , when he gets to him he stands outside the door because lan wangji had told him not to enter the room without his permission.
           "What are you standing outside there for do you need an invitation or a red carpet laid out for you before you come in "lan wangji says in a low voice
      The sound of lan wangjis voice makes wei ying look up but the thunderous look on lan wangji's face makes him scared and he flinches he murmurs to himself as he enters the room,wondering what made lan wangji so angry.
  lan wangji looks at wei ying   with narrowed eyes "Where is the box that I told you to keep that did not have a label on it " lan wangji  asks his voice deadly calm but chilling
"But you did not ask me to keep any box," wei ying says as his heart skips a beat wondering if he missed any such instruction but he is certain he did not.  
"What did you say," lan wangji says In a low voice that shows he is very angry.
wei ying is terrified and does not speak,his mind racing remembering the things he was taught in the jiang house ,never look your better in the eyes,only speak when spoken to and the most important one anything that happens was always his fault lan wangji  takes a deep breath" ok fine where is the box that is not labeled". wei ying breathed a sigh of relief thinking that it was ok.
" Oh I put it in the attic," he says in a low voice.
A look of pure rage appears on lan wangji's face and he surges forward and grips wei  ying chin tightly

   "You put it in the attic," he says dangerously do you know what was in there how dare you, it seems I need to teach you to respect my things " he grips wei ying hand tightly and drags him to the attic It is dusty dirty and dark but he finds the box that is full of his and Ning Xi photos. He turns back to see wei ying  cowering in a corner but the sight fills him with rage so he drags wei ying  to the middle of the room breaks the bulb in the attic and locks wei ying inside the attic, he smiles as he hears wei ying banging on the doors begging to be let out.
'you will get out tomorrow but you will spend the night in this place'
he thinks cruelly before taking the box to his room and arranging the photos in his room.  
   The smell of something burning hits him when he remembers that wei ying had been cooking he hurries to the kitchen to turn off the cooker only a little part of the food is burnt so he dishes food for himself and eats before going to sleep all the while ignoring the sound of pleas that wei ying makes.
     wei ying was claustrophobic although he hadn't been before ever since the summer when he was seven and Madam You would lock him in a closet as punishment he had developed a fear of small dark places one day he almost died when he had a panic attack after being locked in the closet so madam you had stopped locking him up in the closet but that did not mean she did not use it to threaten him. Now as he is locked in this dark attic he can't help but remember all those times he was locked when he was a child wei ying felt his chest constricting and it was getting harder to breathe he kept banging on the door even as he tried to breathe thinking
'am sorry please don't leave me here am scared mama papa save me'
before his world turns dark.
   lan wangji wakes up in the morning and gets ready for his day he is about to go to work when he sees the dirty dishes on the table this leads him to remember that he locked wei ying in the attic, he hurries to the attic he wasn't going to lock wei ying for the whole night since he knew he was claustrophobic and was just trying to scare him for a few hours when he gets into the attic he flashes his torchlight and see wei ying fainted on the floor, at first he is scared that he might be dead so when he sees wei ying chest moving up and down he breathes a sigh of relief and carries wei ying to his room before pouring a glass of water on his face to wake him up.
     " Tch such a weakling, hey you better dry the sheets it is wet because of you make sure to keep everywhere clean I might bring my friends over understand," lan wangji says before going to work not wanting to think about how pale wei wuxain  look or how he was trembling, he deserves it lan wangji  says to himself why should I feel guilty and so this routine of punishment continues for the next two years of their married life.