innocent lotus flower

Reality

          The reality of Xiao zhan life is that he will never be happy or loved her has just moved from one hell to another. The first week of Xiao Zhan's marriage had been bearable and even though his husband did not like him he was not cruel to him because of Madam Wang, everyone in the family respects her which is why Yibo at least during this time was gentle, and courteous towards Xiao zhan although he was a little cold. Xiao zhan had thought that this marriage would be bearable if they lived like this until he was told that he and Wang Yibo would move to another home in another city because of Wang Yibo's job.  The reality hits him in the face like a sledgehammer when he had accidentally trashed some old photos that he found among the stuff they moved he hadn't meant to trash it but he had taken it to the attic to store it the day had been fine and he had moved all the stuff inside the house, he did it all by himself because Wang yibo was busy.
           Xiao zhan had been making dinner for the both of them when Wang Yibo returns from work. He sees him go to the master bedroom which is Wang Yibo's room they do not share the same room as they did in the Wang mansion, Xiao zhan is focused on cooking when he hears Wang Yibo shout his name."XIAO ZHAN" The shock causes him to drop the spoon he was using to stir the soup he hurries to meet Wang Yibo when he gets to him he stands outside the door because Wang Yibo had told him not to enter the room without his permission.
           "What are you standing outside there for do you need an invitation or a red carpet laid out for you before you come in"Wang Yibo says in a low voice
      The sound of Wang Yibo's voice makes Xiao zhan look up but the thunderous look on Wang Yibo's face makes him scared and he flinches "am sorry" he murmurs as he enters the room.
  Wang Yibo looks at Xiao zhan with narrowed eyes "Where is the box that I told you to keep that did not have a label on it " Wang Yibo asks
"But you did not ask me to keep any box," Xiao zhan says trembling 
"What did you say," Wang Yibo says In a low voice that shows he is very angry.
Xiao zhan is terrified and does not speak Wang Yibo takes a deep breath ok fine where is the box that is not labeled. Xiao zhan breathed a sigh of relief thinking that it was ok.
" Oh I put it in the attic," he says in a low voice.
A look of pure rage appears on Wang Yibo's face and he surges forward and grips Xiao zhan chin tightly
   "You put it in the attic," he says dangerously do you know what was in there how dare you, it seems I need to teach you to respect my things " he grips Xiao zhan hand tightly and drags him to the attic It is dusty dirty and dark but he finds the box that is full of his and Cheng xiao photos. He turns back to see Xiao zhan cowering in a corner but the sight fills him with rage so he drags Xiao zhan to the middle of the room breaks the bulb in the attic and locks Xiao zhan inside the attic, he smiles as he hears Xiao zhan banging on the doors begging to be let out
'you will get out tomorrow but you will spend the night in this place'
he thinks cruelly before taking the box to his room and arranging the photos in his room.  
   The smell of something burning hits him when he remembers that Xiao zhan had been cooking he hurries to the kitchen to turn off the cooker only a little part of the food is burnt so he dishes food for himself and eats before going to sleep all the while ignoring the sound of pleas that Xiao zhan makes.
     Xiao zhan was claustrophobic although he hadn't been before ever since the summer when he was seven and Madam You would lock him in a closet as punishment he had developed a fear of small dark places one day he almost died when he had a panic attack after being locked in the closet so madam you had stopped locking him up in the closet but that did not mean she did not use it to threaten him. Now as he is locked in this dark attic he can't help but remember all those times he was locked when he was a child Xiao zhan felt his chest constricting and it was getting harder to breathe he kept banging on the door even as he tried to breathe thinking
'am sorry please don't leave me here am scared mama papa save me'
before his world turns dark.
   Wang Yibo wakes up in the morning and gets ready for his day he is about to go to work when he sees the dirty dishes on the table this leads him to remember that he locked Xiao zhan in the attic, he hurries to the attic he wasn't going to lock Xiao zhan for the whole night since he knew he was claustrophobic and was just trying to scare him for a few hours when he gets into the attic he flashes his torchlight and see Xiao zhan fainted on the floor, at first he is scared that he might be dead so when he sees Xiao zhan chest moving up and down he breathes a sigh of relief and carries Xiao zhan to his room before pouring a glass of water on his face to wake him up.
     " Tch such a weakling, hey you better dry the sheets it is wet because of you make sure to keep everywhere clean I might bring my friends over understand," Wang Yibo says before going to work not wanting to think about how pale Xiao zhan look or how he was trembling, he deserves it Wang yibo says to himself why should I feel guilty and so this routine of punishment continues for the next two years of their married life.