BL ONESHOTS

⁷¹⁰San x Ray⁰¹⁷

"I wanted to choose you other than someone else and I should have because I've loved you for more than I have ever loved another person. I have loved you since the day we were in high school, since we became best friends and right now the both of us are adults, and I've just realised that I do love you, I just don't love you that way anymore. I chose, my choice is made and it's because of him, that now i can finally love a person who can love me with all he has. I love him, but I will never forget my first love, and Mew, I know you still love Top, and it's okay, but keep yourself grounded and protect yourself in all you can do because it's all you need to do. I know you love him, and I know it's not going to stop. I know you also made your choice. You are going to give him a second chance, right? A chance to do better and a chance to be better, but please make sure you are 100% sure. I've moved on from you, and i know you can't move on from him. Be cau Mew."

Ray and Mew had a conversation together about love and life and moving on, because in some way Ray needed it and Mew needed his best friend back.

"I do love him, Ray. I've loved him since well, since he asked me to be his boyfriend and maybe I can get over him, it's just my heart chooses not to. I love him, Ray, and I'm sorry I could not love you, the same way I can with him. I'm glad you chose San, though. He is good for you, and I see now that he makes you smile brighter than I ever have. We are good now, you have your love, and soon I may have mine. We are adults, and this conversation right now is possibly the only adult thing we have done. I'm glad you have San because I've seen that he has helped you with the drinking habit you once had. I see you've changed a lot, but it's a good thing, he's good for you, Ray. I love you, my friend, and I will always need you here, I will keep myself grounded as much as I need, and I hope you do too. I am 100% sure about giving Top a second chance, but thank you for understanding, Ray."

Both Ray and Mew hugged it out and soon departed ways.

Mew went his way to reconcile with Top again, and Ray hopped in his car and just screamed so loud that anyone could hear. He thought that his love towards Mew was something he could only do because Mew is his first love and knowing that he had just now realised in his conversation with Mew that he actually moved on from that love to another. He had no longer loved Mew in a romantic way but still loved him nonetheless. The love towards Mew now was mearly friendship related.

A few days later and Ray had finally found San.

Ray had called San' number multiple times, but San never picked up. San had gone off the face of the earth because he had thought that Ray went to tell Mew his feelings, except the feelings Ray had been keeping were his feelings toward San and no one else. Ray knew that he needed to find San right away and finally tell his true feelings to the one that now holds his heart.

When Ray finally knew where San was, he drove in the rain all the way there to be able to see the one he loves most. Ray drove for hours to get to where San was, and by the time he got there, it was already dark and pretty much time to go to bed.

Ray knocked on the door and waited, soon San came to the door and opened the door to see who was here, and when he saw Ray standing there in the rain he wanted to close it but then grabbed Ray and brought him in and out of the rain, so Ray wouldn't get sicker than he was going to get.

"Why are you here?" Ray then took a deep breath in and then said.

"San, I love you, and i've realised that now because my life has become better with you in it. My life has been a roller coaster ride from me drinking till i black out, to being in love with my best friend who does not love me in a romanitc way and then meeting you, but meeting has never been a roller coaster ride for me because meeting you has been the best thing that has ever happen to me, because you helped me quit drinking, you helped me get into rehab and i'm seeing a shrink. I love you, San, and i only love you. You are my addiction now, and i'm not ever going to leave. I'm here to stay, i'm here with you till my last breath because you are all i need now. San, I love you. Please believe me."