Where Your Loyalties Lie - {Severus Snape x Reader}

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Feeling the urge to run up the stairs and start fighting against all of the bad guys, but not able to do so makes me feel desperate and extremely anxious. There are tears raising on my eyes as I try to fight against the spell that has been casted on me. No matter how much I try to move, my arms and legs, they keep still. Only things that I can move are my eyes. This can't be happening! "Go on, Draco... NOW!!" the woman dressed all black orders. It makes Draco feel more intense as he points at the wand towards the Greatest Wizard of all time. "No." familiar deep voice calls behind Draco and he quickly turns around to see none other than the Potions Master himself, entering the room with all of them. Everyone turn to look at him. My heart... The feeling of panic hits hard. Is he going to fight against the bad guys alone?! Is he crazy?!

My eyes shifts from him to Dumbledore. Bareilly can see both of them, but enough to see how the Headmaster takes a quick glance at me without anyone else's notice. Then, Dumbledore raise his blue eyes on his long time friend:"Severus...". The Potions Master had his own eyes lowered down on the wooden floor, seeing the panic in my eyes thru the small gap. When he hears Dumbledore's voice, he lift his black eyes on the man in front of him. There is a small pause before Headmaster pleads:"Please.". With expressionless look on Severus's face, he swing his wand towards the Headmaster:"Avada Kedavra.". A jet of bluish-green light shoots out from the end of Severus's wand and hits Dumbledore squarely in the chest. NO!!!

It was like all of the sound of the whole world stopped right and there. The only thing I could see at this point is how Dumbledore gets blasted against the railings behind him, and he fell slowly backwards, like a great rag doll, his body went over the railings and he was out of sight. My mind is screaming at this point. Next thing I could hear was the evil witch laugh echoing on top of the Astronomy Tower and how she casts a spell up in the grey sky. Severus grabs Draco and they are the first ones to leave the Tower. Soon, the rest of the Death Eaters follows them. Tears starts streaming down my eyes as I hear the sound of their footsteps walking down the spiral staircase. It got really quiet after that.

Some time passes. It's really hard to say how long I've been laying down here. I'm still trying to wrap my head around all of this. Is this really a nightmare? If so... When did I fall asleep? All I wish at this moment is that I'd wake up in Severus's warm arms and hug him tight, so all of this could go away. But no. It all feels too real. Then, I hear familiar sound when a cane stomps evenly spaced times onto the wooden floors, slowly coming this way. I try to move my eyes so I can see who's approaching me. It's Moody. He looks down to me with serious look on his face. Then, he casts a spell that breaks the Potions Master's spell. As soon as my body goes from being stiff to normal, I let out a gasp. "C'mon, up you go." he then hunched down to help me up.

Right away when I get on my feet, I hold onto him for a moment longer to keep my balance. My legs and hands are shaking even I try not to:"Alastor... The..- They killed Dumbledore. I co..- I couldn't do anything to stop it!". No answer. He just stares at me with his one eye while the other one keeps moving from one side to another. I wish he would tell me all of this was just a bad dream and I just happened to wake up from the Astronomy Tower like this. I couldn't bring myself to tell him that Severus was the one who..- I don't even wanna think about it. The tears starts running down my face and words gets stuck on my throat. Without a word, grudgingly Moody grabs behind my head and pulls me close to him. My chin rests on his right shoulder as he 'hugs' me. Don't know how to feel about this, but... I feel weak. Lost. Empty. My breath shudders and I break down completely.

After a while, Moody and I started to walk down the spiral staircase. He told me everything that he knew what happened after Dumbledore's body got found in the yard. It turned out that the Death Eaters had walk around the castle and wreck things along the way. For example, all of the windows were shattered into million pieces in the Great Hall. The furnitures were thrown around. People who tried to fight back were tossed to the side like nothing. No one could do anything to stop them. And then they just... Left. It felt so surreal to me as we both walked down to the front yard where people who still were in the castle had gathered around Dumbledore's dead body. He just laid there. Like he was sleeping. Minerva quickly notices me and wrap her arm around me, looking so worried:"There you are!".