ℒ 𝒐𝒓 𝙵 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐

Chapter nine:)

Warning! In this story it can be very sexual, mental health, eating disorders, self harm, really bad behavior and words.

"I don't know what to do anymore mom!"
"I know honey! I know!"
"He is everywhere I go! He can't leave me or Lando alone!"
"I know he hurt you because he cheated but maybe you guys should talked this out. After that he maybe leave you alone"
"But we can't! He want me back and he have tried to kiss me once! I told him I'm with Lando now! He doesn't care"
"I'm not glad to hear that honey. Maybe it's best if you come to Australia until the season start! He can't come close to you then"
"Yea maybe you right but what if you are wrong about it? What if he comes to Australia then when he founds out?"
"Yea I can't promise that he won't come but I can promise that he never goes through our door! He is never allowed to be in my house!"
"Thanks mom. I will think about it"
"Yes do that. No need to stress about it. But you know I love you right?"
"I love you too mom and take care of yourself"
"You too honey" and we hung up. I went back to the kitchen were Lando was making breakfast to us and gave him a kiss on shoulder.

"Everything okay with your mom?"

"Yea but she wants me to come home to Australia"

"What? Why?"

"Because she thinks I'm save there"

"Are you going to go?"

"No. I want to be with you if it's okay"

"Of course it is!" He smiled and turned around to give me a kiss. After that he turned around again to continue with the breakfast and I went to the living room to watch some tv. It was nothing fun or it was on French on the tv so I went in to Netflix and started a movie instead. Few minutes later Lando came with our breakfast and we started eating while watching the movie. We had woken up late but it didn't matter because we didn't have any plans for today. The idea was to stay home and just have a chill day. When the movie was over Lando took the dishes out to the kitchen and cleaned it before he came back and threw himself on top of me. Gave me a small kiss before he put his head on my shoulder while I put one arm around him. Then I started searching for the tv console to put a other movie on. 5 minutes in to the movie Lando fell asleep on my chest so I took my phone and started texting.

-Seb?
-Yes?
-Am I good enough for Lando?
-You are more than enough for him. He is very lucky because you gave him one more chance
-Maybe but I don't feel like enough...
-Why?
-Because of a thing but I can't tell you
-Is this about Fabio? If it is you have to tell me!
-No! It's not about him

Of course it is! Why do I lie to everyone! I can't keep doing this!

-Okay then. But I hope whatever it's bothering you is going to end up just fine:)

No! It's not going to be fine if I keep hiding it from everyone! If I keep lying to everyone!

-Yea maybe you are right
-I'm always right kid😎! But what are you guys up to?
-I'm watching a movie and Lando is sleeping on my chest
-Okay, sounds like you guys having a chill day today
-Yea, you can say that. But what are you doing then?
-Not much, Lewis just came back from his run and I was reading a really good book
-You guys sounds like a old married couple😂
-Yea maybe one day we are that😉
-You could actually marry him?
-Of course! I want to have him as my husband not just my boyfriend
-That's cute Seb! Maybe you should go for it
-No, one day maybe but not for a while
-Okay, I can understand that:) You have to be ready first also.
-Yes and right now I'm not. Can you see a future with Lando? Everyone can see he wants a future with you but the question is do you feel the same?
-If I'm going to be honest...
-Yes?
-Yea I can see a future with him as my husband. Everyday it becomes more clear that he is the only one I want. I really like him. One problem is that I can't say I love you to him because I can't trust him. I'm scared that he is going to leave me and go back to Carlos. They have more history together. Maybe deep down he loves Carlos more than he loves me. We don't know that! One day he maybe wakes up and choosing to leave me. We can't be sure that he will stay.
-This isn't about Lando. This is about something completely different. What have happened? Have you cheated?
-No! I haven't! Why would you even think that?!
-Sorry but it feels like something is bothering you. I don't ever think that you would cheat on Lando!
-Nothing is bothering me! Everything is completely fine Sebastian. I'm happy okay?!
-Okay chill. I didn't mean to offend you. I'm just a friend who is worried about his friends. I care about you Oscar. I don't want anything or anyone to break your beautiful heart. But if someone is hurting you, you have to tell me! Promise me that! It's for your own good!
-I promise Sebastian! I promise that I'm going to tell you if something happens
-Good but take care and see you soon😀
-You too Seb

Why can't I be honest with my own friends and family? Why do I have to keep lying to them. I can't keep doing this! They going to be so mad if they found out what Fabio have actually done and I have hide it from them. Maybe they don't want to talk with me anymore! Maybe Lando breaks up with me?