ℒ 𝒐𝒓 𝙵 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐

Chapter eighteen:)

Warning! In this story it can be very sexual, mental health, eating disorders, self harm, really bad behavior and words.

"Hi Zak"

"Hello Oscar, come in"

"Thank you, where is Lando"

"He wanted to have meeting alone with me and his manager. Hope you are okay with that. He said he really wanted to because he want to focus on the pre season and the season. I thought you knew. He is technically your man"

"Yea I know, I probably just forgot about it"

"Okay but the plan for today is that you going to be in the simulator for like two hours after that you going to be at the gym and train your neck and wrists. When you are done with that you came back here so we can talk about the car before you go home. So let's go so you can get changed before you start. Mark going to meet you outside of the simulator room"

"Is Webber here?"

"Yes, he came yesterday" he smiled as we left his office. I got changed and looked after Zak who had disappeared. When I finally saw him my heart jumped out of my chest because Lando was standing next to him with his manager. I tried to get eye contact with him but he never looked my way and I could feel how my heart breaks in to millions of pieces. I just wanted to go over there and just hug him because I had missed him since that night in Monaco.

"There you are! I thought you had got lost" Mark said so I tuned around to face him.

"Hey Mark" I smiled as we disappeared in to the simulator room to start the training. I jumped in to the simulator and the training was starting. So after two hours we were done and went to the McLaren gym to train my neck before I went back to Zak office. When everything was done and I left the McLaren to go home. I jumped in the car and was about to start the engine when I saw Lando leave the building and walked over to his parents car. I wanted to just honk at him so he would look at me but I didn't. I just watched him start the car and drove away from the building, from me. I sat there with my head on my steering wheel for hours. Every day felt more and more like Lando had broken up and tried to move on. Every day I fell more and more in to my thoughts. Sometimes I got so angry at myself that I punched my hand in the wall so many times so it started bleeding before I stopped. Everything was so much worse now and no one saw that. But now I finally had started the engine and drove off from the building to go home. When I got home, I jumped in the shower and after that I got dressed before I laid down on the couch.

"You are back late. Did you talk to Lando?"

"No I didn't. I just watched him from a distance"

"It's been over a week now. You guys have to talk"

"Easy for you to say! You and Frederik talked things through the same day you guys argue! And none of you have been raped and kept it in secret"

"Okay, true but doesn't mean that he can just ignore you for a week. You are like together now! Couple talks with each other!"

"Yea but he needed space from me"

"Come on Oscar. You sitting here and feel like shit when he is out there with Carlos"

"What do you mean with Carlos"

"Haven't you seen it?"

"What are you talking about Logan" I said while turning around to face him because he was standing beside the guest room door. He looked through his phone before he turned the screen to me. It was two picture of Carlos. First one when he was jumping in to Lando parents car and the second when him and Lando walked in to a hotel. It felt like I couldn't breathe and my heart was breaking in to millions and thousands of pieces.

Is this the end? Are we officially over? Is this his way to break up? Have he actually gone back to Carlos now? Is he staying with him tonight? Is he cheating on me? No this can't be right! He can't be serious?!

"Oscar are you okay? Oscar can you hear me? Hello? Please try to calm down! Oscar!" Logan said while trying to stay calm. He was hugging me tight while trying also to turn on the tv. He put a random movie on while hugging me tighter. We sat like that for the whole movie and not a single minute he let me go. So when the movie was over he had still not let go of me so I just cuddle in to his arms.

"Do you want me to force Freddy to come here tonight? He is in UK. He is doing something at the Mercedes" Logan said and I just nod on his chest. So he took his phone and started calling Frederik while having the other arm around me. After he was done talking on the phone, he put that arm around me and hugged me tighter. I sat in his arms even when Frederik showed up and put his arms also around while telling me that everything going to be okay. After like forever they let go of me and I could finally face them.

"Thank you"

"What?"

"Thank you for being so kind and amazing friends even if I have been keeping Fabio shit a secret. I was just so disgusted and mad at myself because I couldn't fight or stop him. I felt so fucking weak and I was scared that everyone would think that I was cheating on Lando. I would never do that!"

"Oh my god Oscar! We know that you would never ever cheat on Lando. Everyone knows that you guys love each other. We don't care that you never told us before. We get it. We just glad you are okay now and that you deep down will fight for your love to Lando"

"I can kill Lando if you want that problem to disappear. Him and Fabio. Pew pew! Dead"

"What no! Freddy! No one is killing Lando here! Everything going to be fine at the end"

"You sure about that Logan. I don't think so"

"For god sakes Frederik! Be a little bit positive here! You hurting him more!"

"Okay okay sorry. Everything going to be fine beautiful little cute Oscar. Everything going to be just fine pretty boy"

"Okay that's just creepy" Logan said and they started argue right in front of me. Watching them argue about stupid things made me start thinking about my own argue with Lando. That argue was not about some stupid things, that
was about serious things and Lando just tried to be a protective boyfriend. In that moment I realized that I was the one who fucked my relationship with Lando. But I just shake my head and took a deep breath.

"Who is hungry?" I said and both looked at me with a big smile on their faces. So I got up from the couch and walked in to the kitchen.

Look! Chicken! I think I'm going to give them chicken and potatoes with some roasted veggies. Maybe some good sauce too. I think Lando would have liked it