ℒ 𝒐𝒓 𝙵 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐

Chapter twenty:)

Warning! In this story it can be very sexual, mental health, eating disorders, self harm, really bad behavior and words.

"That's was a shit race"

"Yea, what happened?"

"I couldn't focus"

"Lando?"

"Who else?"

"I don't know? Fabio maybe"

"He is history"

"HAVE YOU KILLED HIM?"

"What? No!"

"Thank god! I don't want to know two murders"

"Who do you know that has killed someone?"

"No one but sometimes I wonder if my boyfriend have killed someone. His thoughts are scaring me sometimes"

"You choose to get together with him Logan"

"Yea I know and I don't regret it. Have you talked to Lando yet?"

"No, no time. He always avoids me. It feels like he have..." I said before Logan covered my mouth and turned me around to see that Carlos was on his way over to us. I was about to hit him when Logan grabbed my wrist to put it down while trying to calm me down without Carlos noticing it. Then Carlos ask if he could talk with me alone but Logan refused to leave my side. Probably because he was scared that I would punch Carlos in the face. They were arguing for about 20 minutes before finally Carlos made Logan leave my side. After Logan had left he grabbed my wrist and started walking over to the Ferrari hospitality. We got in to his room and he closed the door.

"Before you say anything or punch me, I have something to tell you. So can you please sit down" he said, just nod irritated and sat down on the couch. "Okay, you probably have seen the picture with me and Lando back in UK. But it's not what it looks like! I actually have feelings for someone else. I was to drunk and asked Lando if he could give me a ride back to the hotel. He just help me. Nothing happened! I promise you! He don't even know I'm talking to you about it. He is so mad at me and himself because he thinks he have ruined even more between you guys. He hates himself for saying yes to give me a ride. He had stopped talking to everyone! You need to talk with him Oscar! You need to do it now!"

"No! He ignores and avoids me all the time. He can even tell me what really happened that night. I'm done with this. I can't do this anymore" I said as I stormed out of the room and went straight to the McLaren hospitality to shower. After I had got dressed I picked up my phone and started writing.

-I'm breaking up with you! I'm done with this space. You won't even talk or look at me anymore. Feels like we already broken up. So let's continue with not talking with each other!

After I had sent it I put my phone in to my pocket and left the paddock. I searched up the closest bar and went straight in. Order something strong and took it all in one gulp. After that I ordered one more and started searching for a table. I sat down by a table and just took a few sip from the glass before a older woman came up to me.

"You look lonely" she smiled as she touched my shoulder. "I can probably fix that" she smiled again and sat down on my lap. I drank the rest of my drink then grabbed her ass and took her to the closest bathroom. We started kissing like crazy while I went under her dress. I could feel how she started to become more and more wet downstairs. So I opened her dress on the top and started kissing her throat. Then I moved down to her titts while she just kept smiling at me. Then with my hands I moved her dress so it was over her hips so I could see her underwear before I continued moving my fingers on her downstairs. She didn't stop smiling but instead she started moaning. So I bend down on my knees and put her legs on my shoulders before I grabbed her ass and started licking her. She grabbed my hair with one hand while the other was covering her mouth so she wouldn't moan to loud. Few minutes later she took out a condom over my face. So I stood up, put my pants down and put the condom on before my cock disappear inside of her. I was going fast and faster until she gave away a big moan under her hand. After that we started cleaning ourself and got dressed before we left the bathroom acting like nothing happened. We walked different ways and I went back to my hotel. When I almost was outside of my room I saw Logan and Daniel standing there knocking at my door like crazy.

"Jesus. No one is home. You can leave thank you"

"There you are! Are you okay?"

"Yes I am. So if you excuse me. I'm going to bed now. Bye" I said and where about to close the door when Daniel stopped me. "What the fuck Daniel. I said I'm going to bed!"

"You are drunk Oscar!"

"No, I just took two glasses so bye"

"Don't fucking close the door on me Oscar Jack Piastri!" Daniel said with anger in his voice. "Why the fuck did you just break up with Lando and right after you go out and drink with some random peoples! What is happening to you? I never thought that you could go so low that you break up with Lando through a text message! I thought you were better than that! You hurt Lando feelings!"

"What about my feelings you fucking ass?! What I have been through?! That my own fucking boyfriend. Oh I'm sorry ex boyfriend was ignoring me and avoiding me! He was hurting me. I couldn't even focus on the fucking race because I couldn't stop thinking about him. Me and Lando isn't meant for each other. God I should had just chosen to be with Alpine so no of this would have happened! Me and Lando are over. Love isn't my thing. I always mess things up or choose to be with someone who isn't good for me. I wish Lando never saved me from the train. This shit would have never happened then! God I hate myself! Just leave me fucking alone! I don't want you here!"

"Sorry to make you disappointed but we not leaving Oscar! Not when you are like this!"

"Logan is right, we are your friends. You can hate or like it but we are not going anywhere. We are not going to leave you"

"You can throw so much shit at us and we still not going to leave. I'm always going to be by your side" Logan said while trying to stay calm. Both him and Daniel started walking closer to me and when I felt Daniel hand on my shoulder, I breaks down on my knees in tears. Both of them put their arms around me and hugged me tightly while I let my pain out through my eyes.

What have I done? What have I become? Am I a monster now? What have I done?!