ℒ 𝒐𝒓 𝙵 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐

Chapter twenty six:)

Warning! In this story it can be very sexual, mental health, eating disorders, self harm, really bad behavior and words.

"Are you ready to come with me to the track?"

"I was born ready! Thank you by the way for this McLaren number four shirt and cap"

"You said you wanted something to show your support so I fixed it. But we really need to go now or Zak is not going to be happy that I'm late"

"Okay but let me just put a jacket and shoes on first then we can leave"

"Okay but hurry Valentino"

"I'm done now kid so no need to stress" Valentino smiled as we left his room to go to the elevator. Got down to the lobby and left the hotel to jump in the car Zak had fixed for me this weekend. I started the engine and we drove off to the track where I met a really stressful Andrea who was looking everywhere for me. So I walked up to him and we started talking about the free practice while we walked in to the McLaren hospitality. After a few minutes of talking with Andrea, he had finally calm down and I could finally go and show Valentino around because I had promised him. After showing him around in the hospitality and paddock I told him that Andrea said that Lando was in the garage and that Valentino could go there and surprise him. He just smiled and disappeared in to the garage and I in to the hospitality to get changed for the practice. After I had got changed I did a little warm up by myself before I just stood in the middle of my room looking at my phone.

-Me and dad are watching you from home! Hope the practice goes well. Love you❤️
-Love you too mom

I smiled as I went in to Instagram to just look through because I wanted to clear my head for the first practice. But after I had put down my phone and looked up I saw Lando standing in the doorway looking at me without saying a word. I turned around to look for my cap and water bottle because I needed to fill it with water. I could feel Lando eyes on me but I couldn't turn around to face him, not after what happened last week.

Why do I feel guilty? Me and Lando is not together! I haven't done anything wrong!

I continue searching for my cap that I couldn't find anywhere but then I realized I had forgot to take it with me from the hotel so it was still in my hotel room. I sighed and sat down on the floor with my head on my knees. My head was spinning around with the thoughts that i was never going to be able to get my focus back. That I was going to crash this weekend because I deserve it. I knew that I have been a completely different and the biggest idiot on earth from that day I broke up with Lando. Now he was standing here looking at me who had broke down in tears and completely forgotten about that he was standing there. I felt his hand on my shoulder but I just pushed it away.

"Go away. I don't need you anymore"

"Oscar please can we just talk?!"

"Didn't you here me! I said go away!"

"Why are you like this?! First you broke up with me and ignored me. And then you have fixed so one of my biggest idol are here and going to stand in my garage. And now, you act like a fucking idiot! Like what the fuck Oscar! What the fuck is wrong with you?!"

"I'm the one who is ignoring you!? YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS IGNORING ME FROM THE BEGINNING. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO DIDN'T WANT TO LISTEN TO ME! AND YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS MAD HERE!? LIKE WHAT THE FUCK! I TRIED SO MANY TIMES TO TALK WITH YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING BUT YOU NEVER ANSWERED!" I yelled at Lando and took a deep breath to stop the tears from coming. "You were hurting me every day. I couldn't deal with that anymore. I was losing my mind. I talked to Fabio to sorts everything out. I was so scared to do that but I wanted to make everything work between us. I wanted to tell you but you just avoid me. So I did the best thing for both of us. I ended everything between us. I wanted to fix so Rossi could come here because I feel so much guilty inside of me. It is destroying me" I cried because I couldn't stop the tears anymore. Lando came up and sat down in front of me. He took my hands and held them close to him. We sat there in silence and looking at each other. We both took a deep breath.

"Oscar I.."

"Please don't. You going to hate me but I have to tell you the truth. I did sleep with Fabio last weekend. It was mine and his goodbye for good" I said while closing my eyes. Lando was still holding my hands close to his heart but didn't say anything. So I took a deep breath again. "When I saw the picture with you and Carlos I thought your were cheating so I did the same"

"With Fabio" he said and I opened my eyes and met his. "I know now you didn't like it when I catch him almost raped you in Monaco. But I was just so hurt. I wasn't there and protected you. It felt like I had failed you. I was hating myself every day and still does. Then I don't blame you for thinking I was cheating on you. I was the one who didn't tell you the truth about those pictures. I'm so sorry"

"Instead Carlos did and it hurt me even more but then it was to late. I already did my stupid mistake because you was avoiding me and couldn't tell me the truth" I said and moved away from him so he needed to let go of my hands. I stood up, turned my back to him and didn't say anything. Before Lando could say anything Andrea came and said that we needed to be in the garage now. After that him and Lando left and I wiped away my tears and it was easier to breathe now. Like someone heavy on my shoulders was gone now. I took a few more deep breaths before I left my room and walked over to the garage. I put everything on and jumped in to the car.

I just need to focus one hour. I can't crash! I can do this. It's just practice so let's go!