ℒ 𝒐𝒓 𝙵 𝑫𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝑻𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒃𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒘𝒐

Chapter thirty one:)

Warning! In this story it can be very sexual, mental health, eating disorders, self harm, really bad behavior and words.

"Are you ready to go Aussie?"

"Yes I am Leclerc!"

"Good! Because they are waiting for us!"

"Yes I know but I didn't find my hoodie until now!"

"Isn't that Lando hoodie?"

"Yea"

"Okay, so you guys have talked?"

"No!"

"What?! Why?"

"I'm not ready yet" I lied as I tried to look at everything except Charles.

"Okay" Charles said while putting on his shoes. "Why do you have his hoodie then?"

"Because it's my favorite" I said and Charles just looked at me a little bit confused before we left the room to go and met up with Carlos, George, Alex and Max to play some Padel. So when we got there, we started making up two teams so I ended up with Alex and Carlos. We played for a hour before we took a break to drink some water. While I saw Charles and Max was talking Carlos came up to me with a smile.

"See that you came with Lando hoodie on you"

"Yea, I can't stop wearing it. It's my favorite"

"Okay" he laughed. "Can I ask you something?"

"Of course"

"Is Charles good in bed? I know that you guys have done it multiple times. I can also guess that you guys did it before you came here. Just look at your hair when you arrived" he smirked.

"I can definitely say that he is" I smiled and Carlos just laughed. We continue talking for a few minutes before Alex yelled that he wanted to start playing again so we did for like 2 more hours before everyone had enough for today. So we all started walking back to our hotels to get some good nights sleep before the race tomorrow. So I said goodbye to Charles and Carlos and went to my room to see Lando standing outside of my room door.

"How long have you been standing here?" I asked while I unlocked the door to let him in.

"For just a hour" he said in a whisper while looking at the hoodie I had on me.

"Why?"

"I really wanted to talk with you"

"Okay, I just need to get a shower first" I said grabbing some clothes and went to the bathroom. Took a quick shower and got dressed before leaving the bathroom. When I got out Lando was sitting on my bed. So I went up to him and sat down on the floor in front of him. I didn't want to be to close to him. He took a deep breath while staring at the floor under his feet.

"Can you be honest with me?"

"Yea"

"Is there something going on between you two? You and Charles"

"No we just friends"

"Okay" he said and stood up to leave but I grabbed his arm so he stopped.

"You stood by my door for a hour to just ask that question?"

"Yea" he answered without looking at me. I just let go of him even if I knew that he wasn't here to ask just that question.

"Okay" I said and went up to my bed to lay down. I picked up my phone and saw that Lando was still standing were I had stopped him. I went in to TikTok and looked at some videos before I saw Lando turn around and looked at me with tears in his eyes.

"I wasn't here to just ask you that"

"I know"

"Have you slept with him?" He ask so I put my phone down, jumped out of bed and walked up to him.

"Yea, a few times" I said with a low tone. I was almost whispering.

"So you like him?"

"Just as a friend"

"Is he better than me in the bed?"

"No. You are completely different. No one can compare to that" I said honesty. "But I think you need some rest. You need a good night sleep for the race tomorrow"

"I can't sleep"

"Why?"

"Because it feels so wrong and weird without you. I just miss having your arms around me. You lips against mine. I miss loving you deeply!" He cried. He tears were like a big waterfall from his eyes and he was shaking so much. So I help him sit down while trying to calm him down when it knocked on the door. I ran to see who it was and saw it was Max looking a little bit worried.

"Have you seen Lando? He doesn't answer anyone!" He said in panic. I just opened the door more so he could see Lando who was still crying on the bed. So Max ran up to him with his shoes still on. "There you are! Me, George and Alex have been so damn worried about you! Why haven't you answered?!"

"I don't know" Lando answer while throwing himself in to Max arms. He hugged him tightly and was talking calmly with him while I just stood there and stared at them because I didn't know what to do. After a few long minutes Lando had finally calm down and wiped his tears away. He was looking really tired at that moment and almost fell asleep in Max arms.

"Max"

"Yes?"

"Can you take him to his room and stay with him until he has fallen asleep. I think he really needs it"

"Of course" Max smiled and help Lando on his feet. I helped him get Lando shoes on so they could leave. After I had closed the door behind them I went straight to bed. But my thoughts was going crazy and I couldn't stop thinking about Lando and how much he was hurt. It was hurting me to see him so exhausted and that he was crying over me. The more the clock was ticking, the more I got worried about Lando.

I should have just let him stay here and sleep.

I took a deep breath, picked up my phone and sat up on the bed. Started searching for Carlos number and called but got no answer then I called Charles but got no answer from him either. So I started walking around in the room and felt really bad that I told Max to take Lando back to his room. I tried to call Pierre, George and Alex but they didn't pick up then after that I tried to call Daniel but his phone was off. So I give it one more try and called Lewis.

"Hello?"
"I think I have done a mistake!"
"Me and Seb is on our way" Lewis said before he just hung up and I fell down on the floor in to tears. I have finally realized how much I loved Lando and that I just wanted him back.

What have I done? I should have let him stay here! Why am I so stupid! I have hurt the person that I love the most!

Few minutes later Lewis knocked on the door so I ran to it and opened then I just threw myself in to Lewis arms. He carried me in to the room, Sebastian closed the door and we all three went up to the bed. They helped me calm down before asking me what had happened and I started telling them everything. After I was done, I broke down in tears again and both of them hugged me tightly.

"Oh my sweet kid. Everything going to be okay. I can promise you that. You just have to take a few deep breaths first" Lewis said with a calm voice and gave me a soft kiss on the head. After sitting there in silence in their arms I could finally turn off the thoughts and breath slowly.

Why can I just be honest to myself? Everything would be fine now. I would be in Lando arms while feeling his lips against mine. Why can't I just fix this?