over the centuries

25

Panic rose up with bile as I sat on the front steps of the councilman house. I snuggled up to one of the bushes, the guard watching me shift and shuffle, he didn't say anything. I wondered absently if he was human or vampire, now knowing the employed some of the living.
"When will you be here?" I asked mentally to michel
"In just a few hours" He said "I'm almost there"
I sat on my step, watching the night sky in the cool breeze, the wind tussling my long brown hair, I waited. I didn't know how I felt about having a psychic guide, I guessed I would figure it out as time went on. Seeing how big of a nuisance it was. The guard behind me shifted and shuffled on his feet, I peered behind me and he was staring down at me with such a look of contempt I quickly looked away. Feeling ashamed for what I had just endured, the violation to my very soul. Being thrown out like garbage after being proven unuseful to the council.
"Tell me something about yourself" I said to michel closing my eyes and inhaling a lung full of the nights breeze. It smelled of fresh cut grass, on the pristine lawn in front of me.
"I've fought in fifty wars or more." He said
"A battlesman" I teased
"I prefer warrior" He said "as cheesy as that may sound"
"Your gouda" I said back mentally and he let out a small chuckle.
"So I'm not insane" I said happily
"No your not" He said again his words laced with relief "as soon as I get close enough I want to scan your mind"
"Ok" I agreed
I sat and waited in silence for the rest of the time. A black car finally pulling up, I spied Michel in the back seat, the window slowly rolling down. I leaped up from my spot and ran over, quickly hopping into the car. I threw myself into his arms and he hugged me back, letting me lean my body on him for comfort. He was beautiful in the moonlight, his perfectly chisled face the thing of God's, I'd never before thought he was so beautiful as in that moment. He was protection, he was safety, he was my anchor in this crazy new world.
"Soulmate" my voice that wasn't my voice said again into my mind.
"I'm going to scan you now" he said kissing my head.
I prepared myself for the pressure on my mind, the feeling snaking around until it touched all of my brain. Michel grunted when he was through, the sound causing my anxiety to heighten.
"Everything should be... fine" He said after a pause "your still so weak its incredible. You cant see any visions now, only hear the universe guide. You shouldn't go mad" He said letting out a sigh.
We drove through the gates then, the guards easily letting us through.
"I could hear my body say it was too weak. Maybe that means even if another ritual is performed it won't harm me anymore." I said hopefully.
"Another ritual won't effect you." He said, his grip tightening on me "your full potentials been unlocked so to speak. You'll never go insane."
We both took a deap breath together then, I snuggled into him deeper, letting his large body engulf my anxieties away.
"Your ok now" he said "you'll always be ok now"
We drove on in silence, Elise and Roy giving us privacy as we made our way back to the airport.
"Where are we going?" I asked
"I thought you wanted to see the dessert?" Michel asked
"Yeah but there's no longer any reason to be on the run." I said
"Jacob's still out there" Michel said eyes darkening
"And now your a psychic again." Elise added
"Too weak to be useful but he may not know that." Michel said
"So well lay low until the vampire ball. Let the rumors spread as far as it can go before then. I'll have my friends tell everyone they know too." Michel said
"The cats already out of the bag" Elise agreed
"Remind me to reset tomas for that" Michel growled.
"It'll be a group effort" Elise says happily.
I laugh at the two. The sibling banter just the thing I needed to lighten my mood, I smile into michels chest, still holding onto him.
The future is possibilities with destiny the voice hissed 
Michel looked down at me, feeling his head move to my ear he whispered "try asking the voice a question" He said "reach for the tendril of power in your self"
I reached inwards but all I could feel was the tug in my ribs, michel shook his head ontop of mine.
"Reach in your mind" He said
I followed his instructions, searching for some kind of feeling, but all I felt was a headache. The surface of my mind reeling with pressure.
"Search deeper" Michel commanded
Again I obeyed searching for my tendril of power, a light flashed beneath my eyes as I felt a tug in my mind, I grabbed hold for dear life.
"Now ask it a question" Michel said
"Whats the winning numbers of the power ball" I asked mentally
22 34 56 41 83 19 the voice hissed
Michel gave me an incredulous look, snaking his head around to look me in the eyes. I leaned back, breaking our embrace.
"What?" I asked
He let out a soft chuckle "of course that's the first thing you ask the universe."
"A girls gotta pay her bills" I said definsevly
"Maybe stick with a smaller lottery" He said with a smile.
"I can win the PowerBall once" I say in a lilth voice.
He laughs again. "Win your lottery after we get back home" He says
"Ok" I agree happy he wasn't going to keep me from it by some weird moral.
Coming up on the airport now, we made our way inside, going through the lines of the airport, and quickly getting our tickets. How this was starting to feel like my new norm, terminals and airlines. I was glad there was an end in sight to the hectic ride.
We got on the plane, wearing my little mask to sleep in, I dozed off into the night.

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I looked down at my porcelain skin, shinning bright in the day light. When was the last time I'd seen the sun? I knew he wasn't paying attention to me, my last spatz draining him of the last of his mental energy.
Clothe your self in beauty untold
"Live new life in a worthy triumpth" I sang songed into the great quit of the house.
"Seize your skin, the beauty within" I continued to sing in my sing song voice.
I was everything, I was everywhere and everyone twirling and twirling into my madness. I could feel them, their lives and there happiness seaping into me like an endless well. Twirling and twirling inside my little empty room. Only stopping to open the window. That glorious sun that I would claim. The great void and the cosmos my own.
"Dying only to be reborn again. All of its majesty mine." I continued to sing.
I was more. I was power. I was eternal. I moved away from the window and continued to dance the song of the universe.
Jump now the voice commanded
I smiled to myself and continued to dance, feeling the joys and the happiness of the world.
"Birdy ow birdy jump to fly out to the nights sky. Only why you continue to cry. So I can sing you a lullaby."  I sing
I stop my twirling to go to the window, reaching my foot up to the air it finds perch on the window seal, then the next and im pushing myself up and out.
"Now I'll fly with you. Into the sky. Ow birds hear my cry. Seize all my new life." I sing and dance on the rooftop not minding my steps. I have wings that sore on the horizon. I can fly into the night. I am Everything.
"What are you doing?" A voice growls into my mind, but he's just one of many.
I continue my dance, parading around the rooftop, filled to the brink with so much love and adoration. I've seen my next life. It calls to me in the endless void. Happiness. Bliss.
Jump he universe calls it is your destiny
I go to the edge then. Arms spread wide I prepare to take flight.
"See the most dangerous thing is to love" I sing, and jump.
"Noooo!" The voice calls angrily, so much rage and hurt.
I am free. I am eternal.
I colide with the ground, and then I wake up.
"Michel!" I yell out, desperately searching for him. He was sitting beside me, he looked down at me with so much concern, and rage. Why was there rage?
"Whatt happened? What was that?" I ask scared. Scared of the madness I felt, the me that wasn't me.
"You dreamed of your past life" He said, his face softening, he kissed my forehead gently.
"I was mad" I cry out still scared.
With an ow so gentle look he says "I know. I've told you"
"I thought I couldn't see visions" I breathed
"I didn't check your subconsious." He admits "but don't worry it shouldn't effect your mind. It's still just a whisper of the power you once had."
I relaxed back into my seat. The dream lifting and disappearing from my memories, my anxiety eased. I peered out the window then, and watched the clouds roll by on that endless night. I've heard them say over and over I was crazy and I have excepted that, but to feel it, to be it, now I understood a little more where Michel and the others were coming from. I continued to lean into the window as we made our way, willing my sleepiness away, I didn't want to dream again.
"Sleep" Michel commanded "there only dreams"
"But that one felt too real. I never want to feel that madness again." I said with a shiver
"You'll never be that mad. It's only a dream" He said "I'll watch over you"
"Promise?" I asked
"Promise" He said