Basically Together

IMPORTANT A/N::

PLEASE READ RANT BELOW!

To the people that are still reading this story::

I know, it's been a while, and this isn't even a chapter. So, to whoever may be reading this, I apologize greatly for that.

Anyways, now for what I wanted to say.

Thank you so much to all the people that are showing their 'enjoyment' towards this story by commenting or voting, or even just coming back to read each new chapter updated. I seriously appreciate that. When I actually made the very first chapter to this, I was quite confident that if I were to made a complete story on Wattpad, more and more people would begin to come back and read every new update I made. I mean, I do realize that it does take a while for a story you've just newly created to reach those first 100 views. But when I saw that number take what seemed like an eternity to reach, I started to lose every ounce of confidence I originally once had in this story. What's said next may sound stupid and overdramatic to some people that are actually taking the time to read this (doubt anybody truly is), but if you are still reading this, then I thank you.

But, honestly, I am just not happy with what other people think I have "accomplished" with this story. My friends that read my story all always saying things like "Tara, when are you going to update your story? It's been so long," and "You're story is so good, make another chapter!"

I really thought that once I posted the first chapter of this story, I could continue updating with ease. But I guess I was wrong.

Every time I updated a new chapter I would think; someday, maybe I actually will meet every writer's goal of 1 million reads. Just maybe.

Yet again, I misjudged myself on that one.

Recently, I've just lost the inspiration I used to have in trying to keep up with Basically Together. I originally created the plot of this story with the help of one of my best friends, Lexi (lex_forever_). I felt so happy when I began updating chapters on Wattpad, thinking that I could actually write a story without being judged at places like school, where a bunch of people that wouldn't be afraid to break you down are at. But I've been dealing with so much lately, I just can't handle anything properly anymore. I can't even finish a new chapter halfway without thinking to myself: wow, why am I even bothering? This book and I are truly failures.

I've tried writing chapter 21 for a little over 3 1/2 months now, but I just can't continue trying to type something down without either getting writer's block, or just from crying.

I can't deal with what's going on anymore with my life outside of Wattpad, and I know my friends have started to notice that. But just writing this up now makes the tears form for some reason. Why? I don't know.

At first, I was truly proud of myself for making it this far in the story, I thought I'd only make it to like 3 chapters before giving up. But people that actually commented and voted and read those chapters proved me wrong. At least they did at first. Now, I'll barely even get 1 comment or 1 vote when updating. I've made it to 3.34k reads so far, which, don't get me wrong, is a pretty high amount (at least to me). But unfortunately, not enough.

Sorry for this rant, but I've thought about this for a while, and I've wanted to update this announcement for so long. And now I am.

I still want to try and make new chapters, I really do. But with all these 'outside' problems getting thrown into my life left and right, and without all the inspiration and support I once had from myself and others, I just feel like this story isn't what others would call an "accomplishment," or even a "good" story.

Not even my friends know the half of what I'm dealing with (well, maybe they know like 3/4, but still). I'm going through so much right now, I can barely control myself without crying and screaming constantly in frustration.

Wattpad was, and still is, my escape. But even reading other people's stories make me self-conscious about this story, and how it will never be as good enough as the ones I read that were created by such talented writers.

I'm going to end this rant here. To the people that still read up to this point, thank you so, so much for caring enough to see what's been going on and why I haven't made a chapter in I don't even know how long. I realize it's 3am, and I doubt anyone will be up, but I woke up and couldn't fall back asleep without thinking about this.

Okay, now I'm actually going to end this rant. This is boring whoever is actually still reading this. But if you actually would want me to continue this story, just please vote and even comment on this announcement, it could maybe bring a smile to my face. I need to know if my story is still worth writing.

Thanks,
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