Amber's POV:
Jess' nails dug into my skin as she pulled me down the her old bedroom; I remember when we used to have sleepovers and spend all hours of the day in this room. She locked it and shoved her hands in the pockets of her dark jeans. "What is the matter with you? You can't hide anything from me."
I ignored her question and looked around the room that hadn't changed. Her bed was still there and her walls were still a vibrant purple color; the only thing that was different was the things for her daughters scattered around the floor. I was shocked at how much time could change and nothing here has; like time was stopped and when we stood in here, we were two sixteen year old girls talking about boys again.
"Well?" She got impatient and crossed her arms across her Fox shirt. She let her hair grow out since the last time I saw her and she styled it today so it would be curly. Her make-up was perfect, as it always was, and she had huge hoops hanging from her ears.
"I did something." I played with my wedding ring, turning it around my finger. It started to get real warm in her room so I slipped off my cardigan and laid it on her bed, exposing my floral tank top. "Something I swore I wouldn't tell anyone, but I have to tell you everything."
"Oh my god, you didn't get an abortion, did you?" I looked at her, my lip starting to curl up. Her face was frozen in shock; she sincerely thought I got an abortion.
"Do you even know me?" I teased at her with a laugh. "I could never do that, and you know that!" I muttered between laughing with her. I hated that we lived so far away from each other; as kids, we spent every day together.
"Okay, well if you didn't do that, then what did you do?"
"Niall kissed me before we came here." Her eyebrows raised a little and her brown eyes gazed at me. "And I let him do it. I didn't fight it."
"What?" She screamed as she could. Her voice softened a little after I shushed her. "You let him do that?"
"I couldn't help it! I missed him! You don't understand what it's like to be in my situation." I plopped down on her bed and slammed my forehead into my hands. "I can't believe I cheated on Liam." A single tear fell from my eye, but Jess didn't let that tear get very far.
"You're right; I don't understand what you're going through, and I'm sorry for yelling like that. It's okay to miss him, Amber. But Liam is a great guy and he loves you." She rubbed my back as I sat there, trying to find the words to say.
"I know he is, and what happened with Niall and I will never happen again. But just the fact that I did it once makes me hate myself."
"Shut up! Don't even say that." She hit me and I expressed how much that hurt. "If Liam loves you, and Lilli does too, than that's all the matters, right? And this new baby loves you too. Look on the bright side, no one will ever find out. It'll be okay." She was right and I hated it when she was right.
"Thanks, Love." I reached out and gave her a long, tight squeeze. I needed my best friend again; this arrangement really sucked. We sat there, wrapped in each other's arms for a little bit until she pulled away. We stared at the wall, forgetting we had to go back out into the kitchen. Before we walked out of her room, she murmurred to me.
"But seriously, you're a filthy whore." I let out one, soft chuckle under my breath, knowing her sense of humor.
"I know. And you're a dirty skank." I lightly slapped her in the face, missing her cheek and hitting her lip. "Well I'm a failure at everything."
"Tell me about it." We both laughed and decided it was time to emerge from our cave. We acted like nothing was wrong when our husbands asked us about our secret meeting in her room.
"You sure you're alright, Love?" Liam's hand rested on my shoulder and twisted his face a little.
"Yeah, of course." I walked out to the living room and played with Jess and our girls. Some things Liam knew about me, but he'd never know me as well as Jess did.
