ARE YOU WORTH IT (intersex)

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I just laid there staring up at the ceiling

I couldn't sleep last night. I've been processing the information that has been given to me. I'm not so much concerned about what she is but more concerned about who she is. She's a mystery and I'm curious. I don't think her being intersex changes anything, it changes other things of course but it doesn't change the way I see her. It was never what was between her legs or under her shirt but more so of who she is and how she carried herself. It's funny to think that I've always been into guys, but I've also secretly been into girls too, but never long enough for me to pursue them in that way.

I honestly thought this feeling would pass over but I think her being intersex has only sparked my curiosity more.

I haven't been in for class yet which is very unusual for me to do because I care about my grades more than anything in this world but I need my space to think, To process this without the pressure of you being around or having access to me. I want to proceed by giving in but somehow I feel as if I'd be falling right into your trap. For some reason I feel she does this to everyone, to all the other young and naive girls

I may be young but I'm not naive. Not like the rest of them. I'd be making the wrong decision choosing to proceed further with you. My mind wandered to cash who has been nothing but nice to me. She's a flirt but I can do flirts, what I can't do is manipulation.

I threw my cover to the side after pondering what I should do. I snatched the packet off the table and stormed out of my apartment.

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The whole way there I thought about what I'll say and how I should say it but when I walked into the office her eyes snatched every bit of courage I had.

Her voice was muffled as my heart began to race a little. She snapped her fingers taking me from my thoughts

"Sorry I-" before I could finish my sentence she stood tall gradually trying to make her way towards me But I put my hand up stopping her. "Do you only want me because I'm a virgin?" I bluntly asked.

I watched her eyebrows narrow together "you must've forgotten that I was going to fuck you long before I knew you were a virgin."

I cleared my throat by her bluntness but she's right if anything my virginity is what drove her away in the first place.

"So then what changed your mind about me?"

She remained silent, seeming to have no answer come to mind. I waited though, even though I knew she couldn't answer the question I waited hoping to hear the words but they never came. I nodded my head pulling out the packet she gave me yesterday. "since you can't find a reason as to why you changed your mind. I can't find a reason to proceed" I let the paper drop on the floor before turning around to head for the door. As I opened the door to leave I felt a tug on my shirt being pulled back into the room.

Her right hand wrapped itself around my waist while the other pressed against the door closing it shut.  "You wanna know what changed my mind?" She pulled me in a little more while staring deep into my eyes. "That shit you just tried to pull is what changed my mind. I don't do well with disobedience stephanie. " she slid her hand that was on the door down to the handle locking it.  "You're stubborn and I wanna punish you for it." She snatched me from off the ground lifting me on top of her, i gasped wrapping my arms and legs around her for support. I could feel her unbuckling her pants under me but I didn't stop her and I didn't want to even knowing what she said was a major red flag. The insatiable Throbbing between my legs was more severe than my urge to resist her. Hypnotized by every word she said, I've been convinced that I needed to be punished. She pressed my back up against the wall while she fully undid herself pulling herself through her boxers. I looked down, curious to see and let's just say I wasn't disappointed.  I uncontrollably bit my lip at the sight of her. I looked up at her staring back at me doing that head tilt thing that drives me fucking crazy.  She turned my head to the side, Planting soft kisses on my neck which I didn't realize would feel this good. I felt my legs tightening around her trying to control the throbbing sensation that was getting more intense. She stepped back taking me with her, she eventually set me down on her desk where I got major flashbacks to the time she rejected me and told me to leave.

She paused before proceeding. Seeming to fully take in this moment. She's looking down at me, her eyes are telling me exactly what she wants to do to me But she seems to not know where to start, surprisingly I choose to take the lead and pull her in with my legs. For the first time ever I saw a slight grin appear on her face at my attempt to try and lead. She began undoing the button up shirt where underneath she wore nothing. I felt my eyes widened at the site of her breast. They looked good, better than I imagined actually.

She pulled a condom from her pocket, ripping it off with her teeth. She placed it on her tip pulling it back until it was completely on. I waited for her to pull down my pants but she did the complete opposite. She pulled me towards her by my legs causing me to fall back on the table. She took my legs and placed them on her shoulders finally pulling down my pants just enough to have me exposed. She pulled me by my thighs where the tip touched the surface of my clit. She took full control, slowly doing circles around the surface.  I extended my arm gripping the edge of the desk. I could hear her breathing get heavy right along with mine. I let out a soft moan to the repetitive circles she did. after a moment I began to hear wet noises and they only got louder. I tried to glance down at her just for a moment but my eyes couldn't look for long before they began to roll back. I gripped the desk harder feeling myself tensing up. Before I came she slowly slid her way inside of me. I jerked my body forward at how uncomfortable it felt at first. But she placed her thumb on my clit doing that circle thing that feels fucking amazing. I looked down at her stroking herself in and out of me. A sight that will forever be engraved in my head

Everytime she pulled out I gripped her ass to pull her back in. Eventually the rhythm of her strokes began to sync with my attempts to keep her inside of me. She fell forward holding my legs open with her hands as she drilled my insides. I couldn't hold my moans in anymore as much as I tried; they just kept slipping out.

"You- you feel so good inside of me" I say letting out a high pitched moan as she started to fuck me harder. I threw my hands over my mouth, shocked by the sound that just came from it.

The noises began echoing the room. I tried to keep it together but I honestly couldn't. I pulled her down to me digging my nails into her back To prevent myself from screaming I took her ear into my teeth, Nibbling on it which seemed to drive her over the edge.

"Fuckkk Stephanie" she moans into my ear which caused me to cum for the second time. She slowed down her pace giving me slow strokes which left me twitching uncontrollably. Feeling overwhelmed by how good this feels, I couldn't stop the tears from falling. After a moment of slow strokes she held me tight as she let out a deep grunt in my ear.

"Fuckkk" she mumbled.

She laid on me for a few seconds before slowly pulling herself out of me.

She reached down, pulling up her pants. She hasn't locked eyes with me yet and I'm glad she hasn't because I didn't want her to see the tears on my face. I quickly threw my hands over my eyes trying to wipe the tears before she could see.
I felt butterflies in the pit of my stomach just thinking about what just happened. It was so overwhelmingly good I'm still trying to process it.
I've always heard of great sex that cab cause you to tear up but I never knew it was a real thing.

She turned around and finally locked eyes with me I instantly felt a rush of emotions that I didn't show.

"I have a bathroom you can use to get cleaned up." The tone in her voice threw me off. Did she not enjoy it as much as I did? The giddy butterfly feeling began to fade and an anxious feeling took over.

Chapter 13 drops tomorrow. Come back to remind me.

Xoxo