ARE YOU WORTH IT (intersex)

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I sat staring at the non-disclosure agreement. Wondering why she even had one in the first place does she give this to all her so called victims? A nda Already prepped and prepared for the next unexpected victim? I walked into the kitchen that was a couple feet away from my bed. Studio apartments can be a hassle sometimes, only because there's never any space, no matter how much I move things around it still feels cluttered. I grabbed my tea, and read over the pages. most of the lines read; keep anything unusual I see to myself if told there would be consequences? What kind of consequences? All of my curiosity ended when I came to the end of the page.

sign here if you read and agree to the terms and conditions.

That's it? Just keep my mouth shut? That's easy speaking as though I barely talk to anyone as it is. I quickly pulled a pin out of the junk drawer and signed my name.

Stephanie caine

I moved the paper to the side picking up my tea going back into my living room/bedroom taking a seat on the love seat. I looked down at the lively city through my floor to ceiling window. Why is it that New York is most alive at night? I watched humans interact with one another. Guys and girls and two girls? I watched as they moved like it was only them on that side walk. leaned on the wall practically sucking each other's face. I wanted to turn away but I just sat there compelled by curiosity. Just like I did earlier when I saw... I turned away from the window as my mind drifted somewhere else. it's something I literally can not stop thinking about it. i never seen anyone fuck someone the way she fucked that girl in that room. Not even on pornhub, not that i would know what a good fuck looked like anyways. I literally have no experience whatsoever so my opinion on sex isn't valid, who knows the girl could have had the worst time of her life. Who am I kidding? Those grunts and moans told me otherwise.

The next day came sooner than expected. It was early and i kept myself up all night replaying everything that happened yesterday. i dragged myself out of bed throwing on anything. my hair was tangled so as a mixed girl with hair like a white girl I threw a splash of water on it until my tangled curls dropped making it easier to comb out. I looked at the time realizing I have to put a step to it otherwise I'll miss the train. I hurried and threw on some shoes and left.

It wasn't till i arrived at campus, when i saw HER. Her dark hair was as long as mine but instead of wearing her hair down today she had it pinned up showing her sharp jawline, she was unique standing out from her peers. She wore a black tailored suit showing just how slim her figure was. She pulled her coffee cup up and took a sip. It looks like she's been up all night, right along with me. Her light bags says it all. She peered through the hall catching my eyes that didn't shift away. She pulled her cup down licking her lips, taking the cream residue off her top lip. I turned away as I felt my face begin to heat up a little. As much as I wanted to avoid her I couldn't, I owe her something. I reached into my bag sorting through all the papers looking for the one that was written in bold lettering. It took me two seconds realizing I never grabbed it off the counter. Shit. I felt her presence before I could even turn around.

"Do You have something for me, Miss Caine?" shit shit shit. I couldn't process any words so I just turned around and nodded with a smile.

I followed behind her as she led the way to her office. Trailing her I could smell the faint cologne. She smells so good. She turned her head to the side looking over her shoulder at me, narrowing her eyebrows together. It's like she knows I'm thinking about her. I gave a slight smile causing her to quickly turn around.

unlocking the door with her office keys. She opened the door signaling for me to go in first. I did but slowly... I heard the door slam behind me causing me to jump a little. I'm nervous, how do i tell her i forgot to bring the paper. It's clear she has trust issues otherwise she wouldn't have had me sign the damn thing in the first place. She walked past me leaving behind her scent that lingered in my nose. She sat down at her desk pulling up her glasses as she accessed her computer. Looking over papers.

She paused to look at me. "Sit"

"ok..." I sat down in the chair. Tapping my hands on my knees, While tapping my feet together and shifting around in my chair. At this point I was just doing anything to give some noise to this awkward silence.

She put some papers in her drawer then extended her arm out toward me. I swallowed the lump. Her eyebrows raised and the look of disappointment followed. She gave a slight sigh and stood up from her seat coming around the table. She leaned back against the desk looking down at me.

"I told you-"

"I signed it.." I said cutting her off before she could go into a heated rant. Her eyebrows raised.

"Well where is it?"

"at home" her brows dropped and she sat in silence staring at me. A few seconds went by and she pushed herself off the desk with her hands and grabbed her jacket.

"Well we can just go grab it then. No biggie, Lets go" she walked towards the door

I stood up from my seat. "But I have class" the comment caused a look of irritation on her face, as if  me having class was such an inconvenience, like i was somehow disrupting her day.

"Don't worry about that. This is more important, now let's go." the fuck? so her trying to cover up fucking some girl is more important than my grades?

"It's not my fault you got caught" I mumbled under my breath. She paused, closing the door back.

"What the hell did you just say to me?"

"You heard me" a vein appeared like it was taking every muscle in her body not to cuss me out, i don't blame her though i have a smart mouth, and i'm stubborn. Those two don't mix well.

I stepped back as she slowly walked towards me with her head cocked to the side. All the way till I bumped into her desk leaving me with nowhere to go. Let's just say I regret it, okay?. I should have kept my fat ass mouth closed.

She finally made her way to me, corning me in. I looked up at her as she looked down at me. Something dark was filling her eyes, something sinister. She leaned down a little, putting both her hands on the counter top around me. I leaned back as far as I could without hurting my back. The only thing to do was get on the desk so I did. I slid on top to give me and her body some distance. But her face was still so close. She looked down at my legs, to which I crossed one over the other. Pulling down my skirt a little, This act caused her nose to flare, inhaling deep then exhaling. I felt her breathe on my face, peppermint is what filled my nose. Something deep down inside of me, conivined myself that in any moment she will flip me around and fuck me, like she did that girl. But she didn't. She reached past me grabbing a pack of papers.

"sign." I looked down at more copies of the nda forms. I knew it. How many more people had to sign this shit? Without a fight I grabbed the pin and signed my name.

"Happy now?" I said with an attitude.

"Thrilled"... I scoffed and squinted my eyes at her. Her eyes were fixing me a look.

"Tell me something" I let out in a low tone to where only she could hear me. Her brow raised, seeming curious about my next sentence. "How many students do you fuck to have to need so many nda forms?"

Her head tilted to the side "more than you can count on your fingers." a chill ran down my spin and i swallowed the lump in my throat.

I leaned forward "So basically...you're just a whore" I whispered in her ear, I pulled back to look at her face and For a quick second her eyes softened like she'd never heard anyone call her that. I could tell she's used to people begging and kissing her ass. and I will not be doing that. I pushed her back and got off the table

"I signed your stupid nda now can I leave?" She stood tall, stiff like a deer in headlights gesturing her arm to the door. Giving me the clear to leave. She didn't even look at me, And with that I know I hit a nerve.