ARE YOU WORTH IT (intersex)

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"They do exist!" I shouted

She leans back on the couch with a smile "Steph, is this you somehow telling me that you have genitals?"

"What? No-" I burst into laughter "i mean if I had one would that stop your flirting"

She leans up in confusion "what do you mean? I don't flirt"

I could feel my face clench up "cash... you've literally been flirting with me since I met you. Besides You literally flirt with everyone"

"If I were really flirting with you, you would already have been in bed with me"

I jerk back a little taken back by the cockiness but more so from the look that's filling her eyes. Her eyelids have dropped and have been low for the past hour, I think the wine has officially kicked in because I could feel my cheeks heating up.

"Should I be offended by how easy you think it is to have me" I question

She leaned in a little "as much as I'm offended by your assumption that I'm just some big flirt"

I set the cup down feeling the loss of control over my own body "that's because you are" I practically whispered onto her lips but there was still a gravitational pull keeping them from connecting.

"Let's say you're right, would that change anything?" She questions. I think she's worried I might somehow let this affect our friendship or even damage it but the truth is I don't know if it will, I can't promise her anything the only thing is to test the theory

"As long as you don't let it" I finally say before her lips desperately connected mine. I felt an instant shock run up my spine causing my back to arch a little. I unfolded my legs falling back onto the couch. She gently leaned over me, opening my legs with her knees. Her tongue circled my tongue, taking it in with her lips. It's a different level of kissing I've never quite experienced. I followed her lead, taking in her bottom lip through my teeth after she took mine. I felt her hand undoing my pants while the other laid above my head. She pulled back to look at me sliding her cold hands down my pants. I watched her eyes widen and her mouth parted at the touch. My mouth opened at her hand placement. A gasp left my lips, and my hand flew to her arm.

"I can stop if you wan-"

"Shhh" I put my free hand over her lips. "Please. don't stop," I mumble. She took my hand from her mouth pinning it above my head. She leaned back in for what I thought was a kiss but she turned my head to the side planting a gentle wet kiss on my neck, then a more aggressive one before taking my neck with her mouth sucking softly. A moan escaped my lips feeling my body beginning to shift under her.

"I like the way you beg" she whispers into my ears causing my eyes to roll back. I could feel her finger enter shortly after. "And the way you moan" she takes my ear with her teeth. Another moan left my mouth involuntarily. I could feel the smile appearing on her face next to me.

"What the hell?" I heard a unfamiliar voice that. I could feel her hands exciting and her rise up.

"What the fuck? How did you even get in here?" Cash yelled back

I rose up trying to clear the blurry silhouette of a woman.

"The front door you fucking asshole"

"Um I'm so confused right now.. who is this cash?" I asked. Cash stood up scratching the back of her head looking very dumbfounded

"Who am I? You gotta be fucking kidding me. Who the fuck are you."

"Steph, I'm sorry but you have to go" she said all while refusing to give me the decency to look me in the eyes. I have no idea what the fuck is going on but the tension between them told me one thing and it's that they're somehow dealing with each other. I button up my pants standing up. cash still avoided looking at me and I avoided looking at the angry woman who stood waiting for me to leave.
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~Cash POV~

I watched Steph slowly take the walk of shame out of the house.

"School and counseling cash!"

"Please mom, my sex life doesn't have shit to do with being a fucking drug addicted"

"Do you not remember the last time you relapsed"

"doesn't even matter. Why the hell are you here."

She walked into the opened room setting her purse down.

"you've been consistent" she says

"And You couldn't have just texted that?"

I watched her reach into an envelope pulling out a stack of papers "me and dad decided to give you access to all your accounts and businesses." She took a deep breath extending the paper towards me.

I froze up unsure of what to think or say.

"We want you to come home, back to London." She waved her hand before I could get a word out "I don't need an answer right away, I'll be in town for a week so I'll give you some time to think about it."

No words were able to form. She took her purse from the counter replacing it with the stack of papers. I could hear her heels reaching through the long hall. After I heard the front door shut. I ran towards the papers having a look for myself. I schemed through them. She was serious about everything. the documents, the money, the accounts, the businesses all ready to be signed over to me. I swallowed a lump of shame pulling out my phone. Calling the recent contact that was at the top of my list.

After a couple rings I heard the soft breathing over the phone "Meet at our spot in an hour" I said into the phone before hanging up.

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I saw the black tinted car finally pull into the garage. I entered without hesitation.

"You know we don't ever meet in public, it's to risky" she says

"I'm here to say I'm done"

"Because your mommy is back?" She questions

"How'd you-"

"Cash honey, I know everything. I have eyes everywhere, you're watching someone for me. You really don't think I have someone watching you?"she put the car in park turning in her seat to face me.

"Now do you have something for me?"

I sat stiff in my seat feeling uncomfortable wondering how much she actually knew. If she's been watching me then she's clearly seen everything.

I can't lie.

"They slept together, she made her sign Ndas-"

"Did she mention how she came?" She cuts me off desperately

"she came inside of her" there was a long pause of silence. "Why does that matter" I question, confused as to why that mattered the most. I looked at her but she didn't seem to fully be there. She looks vacant. Soulless. I snapped my fingers trying to get her attention. Her eyes took a long blink like her soul was somehow entering back into her body. She reached in the back pulling forth a bag. She pulled a bottle of pills out along with the powdery substance in a clear bag.

"Here. And you're going to decline that offer from your mom or I can just write it in your weekly check ups how you relapsed." I slowly took the pills from her hands realizing my thirst for the addiction was stronger than my ability to refuse her. I flinched to her arm on my shoulder "And we no longer meet here, if there is more information we talk about it at your NA meetings Okay?" I nodded my head stepping out of the door.

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