My Life In Two

A Force So Strong Simply Can't Be Overlooked

Looking in the mirror, I straightened out my tan sweater and dark jeans and took a deep breath. Ricky and I were about to go pick up Spencer and I am so nervous to see him knowing we need to have some conversations. I decided I am going back home with Ricky and I'm hoping Spencer will understand and forgive me. My biggest fear is destroying the band and their friendship. The rest of the band already knows Ricky and I want to be together again, and are very supportive of my decision and Ricky has no animosity towards Spencer, but is suspicious of our relationship being toxic.

My heart was pounding, seeing Spencer again and him being a free man made me happy but also chilled me to the bone. Him and I had secrets and neither of us innocent, and that will haunt me for the rest of my life especially knowing I have to take this to the grave with me.

Ricky nodded towards the gates as we were leaning against the car waiting. "Spencer!" I yelled out and ran to him as he embraced me into a twirled hug. "I missed you." He made eye contact with me and went in for a kiss, but I deflected it by moving me cheek in instead of
my lips, earning a look from Spencer. He seemed to be shocked we came back to LA. "Welcome home, man." Ricky pulled Spencer into a hug.

The car ride home was quiet. Uncomfortable, at least for me. After a about a half hour we arrived back at Spencer's and Ricky helped him carry his stuff in the house. "Hey, do you mind giving us a bit?" I asked just above a whisper to Ricky. He nodded and gave me a kiss on the tip of my nose and said he would be back later.

It was just Spencer and I in the house. "Where is it?" He asked and I played coy. "Damnit J, you know exactly what I'm talking about!" He barked. "I had eyes on the outside J, I know you have it." I rolled my eyes not wanting to put up with his shit. I took a step closer to him. "And I'd let you have it why?" I challenged him some more. Jail really sparked something in him..something that terrified me.

"If you don't give it back, I will pin this on you."He whispered in my ear lingering over it. "You don't have the fucking balls, Charnas. If I'm going down, so are you."

Spencer started dialing those three numbers on his phone and pressed call. Before he could speak I lunged at him and threw his phone against the wall, shattering it. "I WILL NOT go down for this Spencer! YOU did this to me!" I screamed in his face and all he did was smirk. "You shouldn't have come back, baby girl. I told Ricky to take you back to PA, not to come back and fucking get me. I'm a dangerous man. I told you to go so this wouldn't be your ending." He scolded.

"Fuck you Spencer!" I've had it. Through all the shit he's pulled nothing can erase how twisted he has made me. He is not the only monster, he created me whether I like it or not. I pulled out the murder weapon I had hidden in my doc martins and Spencer put his hands up in defense.

"Baby girl's got some balls after all." God all I wanted to do is wipe the fucking smug smirk off his face but I also wanted to end this in peace with him and go live my life with Ricky.

"You've ruined my life! Is this what you did to Nadia? You made her love you and lured her in? Except she never got the chance to be your little monster did she, you snapped before, didn't you?" I eyed him closely, knowing his games and secrets.

He slowly clapped, "Bravo. You finally got it. What can I say? The bitch wouldn't cooperate. But you? You fell right into my lap, literally."

I grinned my teeth, fuming. "You're the devil."

"Thank you." I had it. I cannot take it anymore.

I blacked out.

I had slashed his throat.

Blood was everywhere.

He bled out. I had killed Spencer Charnas, fucking devil himself and it felt good.

I heard police sirens and I knew I didn't have long, I needed to get out. I sent a text to Ricky:

I'm sorry. I love you. Please tell everyone I'm sorry.

I took the memory card and smashed my phone, picking up the murder weapon and leaving everything behind.

My life is now back in one, me myself and I on the run.

Breaking News tonight: Frontman of the metalcore band Ice Nine Kills and the man acquitted of murder, Spencer Charnas has been found dead in his own home hours after being released after trial. Ex-girlfriend Jacee is prime suspect right now. Jacee is on the run and is armed and dangerous. If you know anything about this case please dial 911 and do not approach.

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Thank you to everyone who has enjoyed this story and has been so patient with me. I hope this has been a decent ending and you all enjoyed. If you would like to read more I am working on my store White Noise // Noah Sebastian and will be following up with a sequel to that one.

Until then,
lmorgs07