My Life In Two

They save the truth for a rainy day

TW: sexual abuse, violence and sex.

  I didn't know what my first hunt would feel like, but it's like I've saved up a lifetime of energy for this. Every humane thought had left my mind, and I was completely focused on my task, thanks to Spencer's tactical training.

  Don was my late aunts murder and ex husband. Growing up, he was an amazing uncle. I basically grew up at their house because of how close my cousin Cici and I are. CiCi is now 28 and living in Maui. She had always wanted the simple life after what Don had took from us. When I was 18, things were really bad at home for Cici. Something changed within Don. I had stopped coming around as much because of the band and focusing on my dreams. Come to find out Don had attempted..inappropriate actions..with Cici and my Aunt Mary had caught him. Don threatened Mary that if she told anyone or called the cops that she would kill her. Cici was so scared she kept this from me for a very long time. Before I had even found out at 25 years old, Don had killed Mary two years after filing for divorce. Cici chalked it up to me as he was visiting and they died in a house fire while she was in Maui, until I heard the real story. I had thought he disappeared for good, but I always had my back turned in case I ever saw that prick again.

  Spencer and Ricky had found out about this one night when we were sharing stories. The same night he told me about Nadia's murder. I have no idea where he found Don but this was my turn to get revenge, and revenge was what I was going to get.

  After a few seconds longer I started taking off into the wooded area. Spencer had not explained the whole task to me beforehand, but had me memorize the park map with the wooded areas to keep me safe from retaliation. As much as I wanted to yell and scream at Don, I knew I had to be silent to catch him, I did not want to give away my location. I figured since we were in the woods my weapon of choice would be a bow and arrow. I crept around the woods a little longer knowing Don was running out of area. I found him once and shot him in the shoulder, but he kept moving. I was getting close enough to hear his footsteps crinkling on the ground below him and follow his blood trail. In the distance I could see a shadowy figure running, so I took my shot.

Bullseye.

  I got him in the leg right where I aimed to slow him down. "Good job, baby." Spencer walked over to a now out of breath and bloody Don to help prop him up on a tree. He was losing blood fast. Spencer backed out so I could finish up and get my final words in. I walked over to him and crouched down in front of him, still with my bow and arrow in my right hand. "Oh, Don. I'd say it's great to see you again, but honestly you can go fuck yourself. You'll have plenty of time to do that where you're going."

  "Jace -" Don began to speak but Spencer silenced him with duck tape for him mouth and ran a knife blade down his cheek. "Let the woman speak or I will slice. you up." Spencer warned, jabbing the knife softly into his cheek between words. I rolled my eyes and stood up slowly. "You don't get to speak about what you took from me. There are no words. It's been a pleasure, Don." I backed up and aimed the bow and arrow right where I wanted it.

Bullseye.

  Before I could take one step, I passed out. The adrenaline was finally draining, after all I still am human. When I woke up I was on the floor of the concession stand lying into Spencer's chest. "Hey there." My eyes fluttered open to the sound of his voice. "You did great." He kissed the top of my head. I felt so on top of the world getting the job done, getting revenge, but the human within me is a scared little girl who just committed her first murder. 

  "Hey, look at me." I turned so I could meet his beautiful but devilish eyes, he cupped my cheek and put our foreheads together. "You did amazing. I don't go around killing just innocent people and I wanted you to see that tonight. I wanted to get that sick bastard the minute you told me about him. I've been looking for him ever since, I couldn't stop, knowing what he took from you. I wanted this to be your first. I know it's a scary one, your first, we are still human after all..sort of." I was stunned, not knowing what to say. How does this man manage to comfort me so well after I literally just murdered someone?

  He picked me up from the floor to carry me into the large restroom. He sat me down on the sink and started cleaning me up. I was caught in a daze until he backed away quickly to grab my new clothes. He lifted my shirt from over my head, his eyes..well..were not on mine anymore and he gave me a childish grin. He leaned over and started leaving trails of kisses down my neck onto my shoulder. I lifted up my chin and leaned back against the cold glass mirror, causing a slight gasp to leave my lips that Spencer definitely enjoyed. Spencer crashed his lips on to mine, bruising them immediately. He was rough but with a hint of passion. He unclasped my bra in one try, leaving my lips to trail kisses down my naked chest. "Spenc.." This was no time for teasing. I wanted this now, and we needed to still clean up so we could get back to the bus. "Spence we're running out of..fuck." I was thinking too hard that I didn't even realize he was already on it. Before I knew it, he had two fingers inside of me, already on cloud nine. He stopped as soon as I was about to climax. Before I could react he picked me up off of the sink and turned me around, forcing me to look in the mirror as he slammed into me as hard and fast as he could. His mouth came down to my ear and he spoke with authority. "You like that baby girl?" I fucking lost it and started moaning like a lunatic knowing I was getting closer. "F..fu..fuck." He stopped. "I'm not going to finish this until you answer me."  Teasing me between my legs until I could muster up the voice to answer him. "Yes sir." I looked in the mirror to see him stand back up again and I braced myself. He smirked, satisfied. He slammed into me hard and fast not wasting one second of time. "Spence..I'm gonna cum.." I could barely get out my thought before both of us reached our highs. "God you're so hot." He kissed me and grabbed our gear so we could finish cleaning up our mess and get back to the bus.

  We retraced our footsteps and made sure we had every trace of evidence cleaned up. One thing that Spencer intentionally left behind was a mask. It was black and gray and had some sort of face on it. The 'Silence' mask as he called it. I shrugged and left that question for another day, we needed to go. Spencer and I ran hand in hand back to the bus, making sure no one was out in public to witness us. "Spence you go to bed I'll be on the bus in a few." I shooed him away, wanting to catch my breath for a minute. Besides, if I get caught by another band member I can just say I needed to get some air. I knew Spencer was going to argue with me but I shot him a look to say he better not. He nodded and hopped on the bus as I sat in the grass smoking a cigarette. Who..or what really is Spencer? And what am I becoming?

I shook the thought and headed back on the bus. "Hey..?" I said shocked not expecting Ricky to be up. How long was I outside? "Where've you been?" He asked eating a bowl of cereal and watching whatever was on tv. It was 5 am. "Okay, mom, I can't take a midnight walk?" I rolled my eyes and flashed him a smile. "Are okay? You smell like cigarettes, sex and death." I rolled my eyes even though he caught me off guard. "Rock and roll, baby." I joked making my way back to the bunks but Ricky's hand stopped me. "Are you sure you're okay. You look pale and look like you've seen a ghost." He was not going to let this one go. "Please, sit." I sat down and nearly choked on the fresh bowl of cereal I had in front of me.

Breaking news in these early hours. What you are about to see is extremely graphic, viewer discretion is advised. Coming to you live from Kitts park in downtown, lawn workers who had an early start this morning, found a body lying upon a tree. Investigation is just beginning however, Chief says he believes the man is around his 50's and was shot with a bow in arrow, one time in the shoulder and one time in the heart. This mask was left behind, but so far no leads. More information coming to you as the investigation picks up.

"Someone had a bad morning, am I right." Ricky nudges me trying to crack a stupid joke. "Wait isn't that park not too far away from us....Jace..Jacee?" "Oh uh..yeah sorry I'm just ready tired. Poor dude, and yeah that isn't too far away. I'm gonna go get some sleep, bye Rick." On my way out I squeezed his shoulder and he went to grab my hand for a second, knowing he didn't want to let go I picked up my pace. Ricky's touch brought back the person I use to be, and that was to be pushed for a rainy day because I have bigger problems right now. I was not going to cause a scene. I spent the next couple of hours not thinking about anything but running everything through my mind, making sure we picked up every piece of evidence.

  I woke up again to see the whole band hanging out in the common area in front of the tv chatting about the show tomorrow. We were about to take off to our next destination, thank god. As we were getting to wrap up and get going, there was a knock on the door. Fuck. It's the sheriff. Spencer and I were standing next to each other peaking out the window as Patrick went to greet the officer, he gave me a light hand squeeze. Patrick entered the bus with the sheriff right behind him. "Guys this is sheriff Cal, he just wants to ask a few questions before we get out of here regarding the murder that took place last night."