CRUEL INTENTIONS

Chapter 28

Few months later

Carvida wiped her tears thinking of Lucius. She exhaled softly and leaned against the headboard before caressing her tummy. She was 4 months pregnant now and that too with twins. She had felt both happiness and sadness when she got to know that she was pregnant. She was not ready yet for a child let alone two but she could not do an abortion and the babies inside her could be the only thing left to her to remember Lucius if he fails to return to her though...She did not want to think about that possibilitiy. Besides she loved them even if they were not born yet. She was also financially stable considering that Lucius had apparently left a huge sum of money for her at the bank. Henceforth she had all facilities and resources needed for her babies'well being. But she missed Lucius.. Terribly.

She could not believe it's been months now since she last saw him and kissed him. Her mind raced with thoughts about him 24/7. She always wondered how he was doing.. If he was eating well.. If he was being tortured.. What was he doing? Where was he? She had thousands of questions in her mind yet no answers were given to her.

She tried to find Lucius. She even searched for his company and went there but Lucius was nowhere to be found. Her heart had already vanished inside her. Lucius took it with him the very day he left. Now all she felt was a huge emptiness and a hole just where her heart was. She had never realised how much she was attached to him and how she loved him until he was gone.

She missed his letters, his blue roses, his messages, his smirks, his eyes. Oh his beautiful eyes that she loved so very much. She was slowly breaking apart with each day and each month spent without him but for the sake of her babies...She tried not to stress. However it was easier said than done... Everytime she closed her eyes, she dreamed of different horrible things happening to Lucius and it scared her. It scared her to death because she had no fucking idea where or how he was?

It was pure torture to her soul and the guilt. God the guilt she felt in the depths of her soul. It was her fault Lucius was a slave now to Aziel. She blamed herself for his misery every single day and wished she could go back in time and change everything but life was life... She could do nothing about what happened in her past except taking good care of herself and her babies for Lucius'sake. And hoping he would return soon.

She had not lost hope. Not yet. Maybe she never will lose hope because she feared that the day she would let go of the last beacon of hope in her. Her whole demeanor would crumble down more then it already was. She was pregnant and staying strong for her babies was what she would do.

Exhaling heavily, she pulled out the last letter Lucius left for her from her drawer and opened it once again :

My little flower,

Please don't cry while I'm gone and don't you dare blame yourself and be sad for what happened. None of it was your fault okay and I know if you were in my place. You would have done so too my beautiful little flower. You're strong, you're independent, and you're a force to be reckoned with. I want you to know that I'm forever proud of you for never giving up and backing down till today.

You are not mine for nothing. You are extremely strong and powerful. You accepted hours of torture for me and still survived. That shows how much of a strong warrior you are. And now it's my turn to sacrifice myself for you. I will accept everything Aziel will do to me but I vow to you my baby. I'll return. It will take long for sure but no matter what, my love. Don't give up. Don't cry. And don't stop waiting for me.

I know it's easier said than done. But you are very strong and fierce. So hold on for me okay and take very good care of yourself, don't overwork and eat on time.

Remember also that even if we are apart physically. We are always together through our memories, through our love. And I will never stop loving you my precious baby.

Our love is something that no time will ever be able to change. We are something that no one can ever change. We are us. And that is forever. Our love is a love like none other, my little flower. One that is fierce, never ending and powerful.

I'll return to you. You have my word. I'll even crawl home to you if needed but I'm never letting go of you. Never.

So until I return, take care of yourself
I love you little flower

-Lucius

She smiled softly, her eyes glistening with more tears. The amount of time she had read this letter was immeasurable. She took comfort in all his letters but this one was the longest and it was the most precious one to her for each words reminded her constantly that she was loved and Lucius would never give up on her.

She closed her eyes and placed the letter on her lap allowing each words to touch her soul and heal her broken self. "Come back to me soon Lucius.. Come on you are going to be a dad" She whispered to herself hoping somehow Lucius would feel her calling to him.