MY ONLY LOVE [제이크 enhypen ff]

Chapter 15

Its been few days later, and I was sitting in „my room" what actually belonged to Niki, who shared now a room with Jake and sunghoon.

It was 3am and I was still awake, because I couldn't sleep, I just had to much in my mind....

I was once again deep in my thoughts, remembering the old times I had with my friends, family and Jake...

Even tho I'm being with him here, it's not the same. Day for day I'm falling more for him and there is nothing to do, to change it.

I don't want to fall for him more, how should I handle these feelings? I am just destroying myself.

Handle a love, what is just coming from one side and not from both?

After 8 years of feeling this shit every day, I still couldn't stop being so deep in love...

I started to cry hard after all of this overthinking, what was entering my mind.

I thought about the mixed signals he always gave me and those eye contacts we had.

I thought about everything, just to realize

I'm never getting back, what I gave.

„Nabi...why are crying?"

I heard a deep but still soft voice, calling my name, bringing me back to my senses.

I followed the voice and saw a black shadow standing in front of me.

Because the room was so dark that I couldn't see, who this person was.

„Why are you crying nabi?"

„W-who a-are y-you..."

I said with my trembling voice, having a hard time to speak.

„it's me niki, now tell me why are you crying?"

„I-I'm not" I said and wiped my tears away

„Nabi I'm not dumb tell me"

„I told you I wasn't! No go and sleep we have 3 am, why are you even awake, damn"

„I was asking you something, give me a damn answer!" Niki said and raised his voice, at me.

„It's n-nothing serious... I was just missing my family"

„You're lying"

„N-no I'm not! Damn leave me alone Niki I'm tired!"

„it's because of Jake, am I right?" He asked me, with a clam voice

„Jake? Why would I cry because of him? Seriously"

„I know everything nabi... I know who you are and what kind of relationship you had with Jake"

„Huh?... w-what do you mean?"

„Jake told me everything about you, before we even debut..."

„I'm so confused... Niki" I said to Niki, being in shocked...

But Niki just came close to me and sat next to me.

„nabi, listen okay?"

He waited for me to answer, but I just sat there quietly, still trying to process what Niki just said.

„everything is not like you think it is... Jake he is..."

„h-he is what?" I asked him while the tears where flowing like crazy.

„Jake is thinking about you in a completely different way, nabi... he didn't wanted to leave you ever alone"

„What do you mean Niki!! Tell me you're making me confused! Come to the damn point" I said and screamed

„Don't scream nabi! You're waking everyone up!!"

Niki said and raised his voice, but I didn't listen to him.

„EXPLAIN IT TO ME!! PLS I BEGING YOU NIKI!! TELL ME SO I CAN UNDERSTAND"

„I will, but pls stay quiet!!"

Niki said panicking a bit, he didn't wanted that the other members wake up and find everything out.

„NO TELL ME NOW!! TELL ME NIKI WHAT DO YOU MEAN WITH THAT?!! THEN WHY DID HE LEFT ME ALONE? HE KNEW DAMN WELL I FELT FOR HIM!!"

I cried so hard, i don't know why I just overreacted so badly.

I was so depressed, just wanted to scream my lungs out, but i didn't thought about the problems that I just created.

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„What's wrong why are you screaming nabi!!" Jay came storming into my room, turning the lights on.

„tf is going on here!??" Jungwon said

„damn I wanted to sleep.." Heeseung said

And now all members stayed in front of me and Niki.

„n-nabi why are you crying?" Jay asked me

I looked at all members with my teary red eyes, but when I saw Jake, staging behind his members looking at me worriedly, I completely broke down.

I stood up and pushed them all out of my way and run out of their apartment...

„NABI STOP"

I'm sorry....