Our Journey

Truth

|The Carters House|

Lori. Baby wake up!
wake up Liam
Lori tried to shake Liam awake, for the last few weeks he's been having vivid dreams about the hospital situation. He hasn't been sleeping well at night and Lori has noticed he's been away from home a lot. Some nights Liam doesn't sleep in the room with her and some nights he doesn't sleep at all she was beginning to worry about him.

Liam. What happened!
Liam quickly sat up panting trying to catch his breath. His body was clammy from sweating and his heart was racing.. Lori sat up with him and rubbed up and down his back she was trying to get him to calm down. Once Liam finally came out of shock he shook his head realizing it was just another dream. He couldn't stop the recurring dreams or the feelings he thought he subsided

Lori. Baby what's going on, you have been having these problems for few weeks now what are you running from? what has you so stressed out that you can't find peace in our bed anymore...

Lori was trying to look at Liam but he was avoiding eye contact with her. His mind wouldn't let him rest and seeing Lori worry about him while he worried constantly about another woman made him feel like shit of a husband

Look at me baby she said turning his head towards her Liam's face was was covered worry that he tried hiding from her. He really did feel bad for Lori and how the truth could hurt her

Lori.I know me being bedridden has changed a lot of things for us but I'm still your wife and I want you to talk to me about what's bothering you. We aren't starting our day like this. So I'm going to sit here until you say something

Liam. Where are the kids are they okay
He asked anxiously
He forgot the kids spent the night..

Lori. Baby yes they're fine... I promise you they are okay. They're still in our guest room sleeping,  you know they wake up around 9 and it's not even 7
Now please talk to me about what's bothering you so I can help you through this. You've been so distant lately I feel like I'm losing you,
she said tearing up and her voice weakened.
Did I do something wrong?
You're never home anymore and even when you're here you're not really here here...
Your phone rings and you disappear just to answer it. so what is it....
Look baby I know I can't do the things I used to do and this baby weight has me insecure so I guess I just want to know.... She paused before asking
Are you having an affair just tell me please, is there someone else, are these dreams because you're hiding something from me please whatever it is I have to know she practically pleaded with him to tell her something..., anything..

Liam pulled Lori into a hug she was beginning to breakdown and he didn't want to see her like that. She had been worried about him and their marriage and it was taking a toll on her obviously...

Liam. I'm so sorry baby I didn't mean scare you. I don't know why I keep having these weird dreams.
I know I'm under a lot of stress and what happened to Jaxson was traumatic maybe it's because of that...
But it has nothing to do with us he said wiping off her cheeks

Lori. That can't be all it is, she cried..
You had these nightmares back when we lost the baby, then they came back because you were scared we would lose Jaxson but I know it's something more, something that you're hiding from, something that's hurting you. But baby we are one if it's hurting you can't you tell it's hurting me too.
Just be honest that's all I'll accept

Liam. It's because of the hospital and I'm just afraid to lose someone I love. My whole life has been surrounded in loss I can't do another loss and I thought we were going to lose Jaxson. When he collapsed and I had to carry his limp body to the car
I don't think I can ever recover from that