Our Journey

Flaws

After leaving Liam's house Fatima pulled out the driveway and drove down the road. She didn't get far because she was unable to see once the tears began to burn her eyes leaving her vision completely blurred. She pulled over on the side of the street to avoid a accident. She sat in the car wiping her eyes as quickly as the tears fell. She did not expect her conversation with Liam would be so bad. She had high hopes she would go there and things would be good but things felt worse than ever...

Fatima. It's all your fault.. she said to no one but herself making herself cry even harder than before
..He's going to hate me,
She said as her chest tightened at the thought of losing the best thing that's ever happened to her
Her tears showed no signs of stopping

The guilt she felt was overbearing because everything was her fault, she's caused pain to so many people.
Isaiah, Lori, Liam Zac even her own daughter she was the common denominator.
'Tornado Tima' those words flooded her heart and mind, a constant reminder that she ruins everything good in her life...
She laid her head back against the headrest in hopes of absorbing her tears so she could begin her route home...

After the door slammed Liam instantly felt bad, he was ashamed of himself for treating her like that. He wanted to run after her and apologize because he didn't want the conversation to go like that. He isn't sure what came over him but maybe he was a little jealous once he saw the ring. He just couldn't figure out why he still loved her so much. Why she had a way of making him feel worthless, insignificant in her life when he's been nothing but great to her..
A part of him wanted to hate her but how could he, they've been through so much together which made it hard to walk away. He mostly hated all the different sides of him she was able to bring out without even trying. How after all these years she is still the only girl to drive him crazy. He wanted to go after her but he knew Fatima and he knew she needed space.

He sat on the couch thinking of all the fucked up things he said to her and he was angry with himself for bringing up Jojo's paternity, he knew that was a low blow... Fatima noticed early on that Jojo had certain characteristics that didn't match her or Isaiah creating uncertainty that maybe he wasn't her biological father after all. Isaiah never mentioned any doubts but deep down Fatima knew, she just kept it to herself for the sake of everyone involved, she truly thought the truth would do more harm than good...
Fatima only told Liam about her doubts. She confided in him about the possibility of another guy but she never told anyone else. Liam offered help with finding Jojo's biological father but Fatima declined his offer. She told Liam she was happy with their life together. She didn't plan on finding him and that her doubts should stay between them. Liam agreed not to say anything he had Fatima and Journey he was complete. Liam was her best friend, her confidant, she always thought her secrets were safe with him, and she also felt safe with him. They were like a family, yeah she had flaws..enough for the both of them but to him she could do no wrong he loved her through her imperfections, her mistakes he never judged her and for that she loved him she will always love him

The truth was, Fatima would spend countless nights stalking Zacs page but couldn't bring herself to reach out to him.  She would type out a message and reread it over and over and quickly delete it.
At the time, Zac's social media was full of his accomplishments, properties he owned, his girlfriend and a lot of travel. She didn't know where Jojo would fit into his life. She didn't know if a one night stand would be worth reaching out to him and ruining his life so she continued to keep the secret to herself...

Scanning through his page she couldn't deny their uncanny resemblance. It was no doubt Jojo belonged to him. Down to the same cherry red birthmark on the sides of their necks being a dead giveaway. Fatima tried to avoid the truth because she didn't want to hurt anyone so she just kept her mouth shut  she was also scared he would reject Jojo and that was something she could'nt risk finding out the hard way.