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18: Cutting The Lines

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Nakaka-tawa pala mabuhay sa mundong ito.

I was invited by Reia, sa kanila daw ako mag-new year not coming from her, from her mother. I am glad that someone invited me and made my new year kind of interesting.

But before that, there's something more. I left in Astrid, Asteria, and Gaia's group iyong apat na manunulat. It's just a small fight, pero sawa na kasi akong umintindi sa takbo ng buhay ko. No one knows how tragic my life is these days, no wonder my mood. . . Are ruining me. . . The group are ruined in time we are writing a novel, as a novelist and writer it's normal to guide them, and tell the truth right? So why did it end up like this?

Asteria:
iniba namin ni astrid yung convo nila ng fam ng character
parang ang casual kasi ng dating

Napa-tunganga na lang ako sa chat niya sa gc, nag-aantay ako ng update tapos may iniba na pala sila sa takbo?

I was expecting that they would just add more details but to my shock... Pinalitan.

Avery:
I don't find wrong with that, but it sounds too boring kasi if ganoon tbh okay siya pero I found it too mature masyado... pero it's up to you all, you can add that scene sana kung nasa loob kasi kung masyadong seryoso ang bungad maaring ma-bored ang reader, so i add some spice to the story, it's not "that casual" it's the flow
i have some writers who help me to review our current chapter, some of them say "masyadong mabilis" and medyo boring basahin sa una, so i think we should put something exciting kasi novel din siya

I am honest because I want them to know what criticism is like how the storyline or the dialogue will impact the reader.

Asteria:
yon din naisip ko

Naiisip mo ba talaga?

Asteria:
parang may kulang pa

Kung may kulang add details, not deleting my part! I never did that to your works, kung may kulang sa kwento dinadagdagan ko! So why the hell deleting my part without telling me properly, like you and Astrid are having a conversation through direct message, at ako itong nag-aantay? I thought.

Asteria:
pero their conversation when they went home is too casual

It's not casual, it's the art of the story - the flow of it, the feelings. And I don't understand, why you were changing the feelings of the book. The words that are written by my heart?

Avery:
we have so many ideas, ang main problem dito wala kayong alam kung paano buuhin kaya sinisimulan.

I said what I said, ang daming idea kung paano tatakbo ang story pero hindi nila alam paano bubuuin ang salita. Sabihin na natin nakakapag-sulat sila, but as a writer, I feel bored with how the words contract in the chapter - that's why I disagree with it. I feel empty, let's say it's their lifestyle - but not now.

Asteria:
okay yung idea mo, its just that there are too many grammatical errors kaya inaayos ko rin. like i let u do sa tagalog ko

Ha, grammatical error? Natawa na lang ako bigla sa nabasa ko, I don't agree with that. Sabihin na nating hindi maganda ang pagkaka-constract but I don't find my works to have a grammatical errors, dahil dumadaan yan mula sa mga writers na kakilala ko na novel writer din.

I scroll down reading her new messages.

Asteria:
pero their conversation when they went home is too casual

It's not casual, but that's how my imagination works. Damn.

Asteria:
its not just the "bond" of the family that is missing

"Yes, it's missing! GOSH! I don't feel any feeling, hindi ko maramdaman dahil parang nag-kwekwento lang ng walang emosyon ang karakter! Bakit hindi niyo maintindihan?!" Napa-sigaw na ako sa kwarto ko dahil sa inis na hindi nila ma-gets ang feedback ko.

Asteria:
the flow of the story mabilis talaga
nag add lang ako ng mga scenes na mag papahaba ng whole chap para hindi ganon kabilis

"This is funny," I whispered to myself.

You are saying may kulang, but you completely deleted my lines and my dialogue that I did not do to you, I just put details. Funny, huh? Is this how philosophers write a word in novels? Formal and boring.

Asteria:
also their bond, they were like a typical fam na nag babangayan

Yes, mayaman. Oo na mayaman na, but we are fictional and you don't ask me properly about it! Wala nga akong copy ng gawa ko.

Asteria:
not bcs u write novels more than we do, wala na kaming alam?

I smiled bitterly, "I have been writing novels. Napuntahan ko na ang nararamdaman niyo, but I never wrote a novel that is boring to read."

And to the fact that you don't understand my point, they are clueless... And they are not aware that I was trying to improve it, pero ang nangyayari nasasaktan ako kasi hindi nila mabuksan ang isip nila.

Wala silang alam. . . They have so many ideas but they can not write them. They are clueless about it they have ideas of it - hindi lang nila alam paano sisimulan. Pero alam kong may ideya sila, ang kaso hindi nila alam pa ano isusulat kasi nablablanko sila, I understand. Pero sa point na tinatama ko o tina-try ko sa kanila ituro ang naituro sa akin ng mga nagsusulat ay ang malas, mukhang minamasama. And I am tired of explaining myself. Lalo na alam ko ang ugali nilang pride. I am not lowering myself lalo na tinutulungan ko lang sila, I was guiding them.

Asteria:
it's not only the bond of the fam na nakakapag bigay ng excitement sa reader

Natawa ako ng taimtim, "It's the one of the important thing. . . Edi sana sinabi mo sa akin noong una na worst ang family niya."

Ilang minuto lang ako nanonood sa usapan nila, oo nag-siseen ako. I on my read receipts kaya hindi nila makikita kung nag-siseen ako.

Opening it means, I was ignoring you - it was on since the day I felt alone. Mga taong mahahalaga lang ang makakakita kung nag-siseen ako.

Avery:
i leave.

I immediately click the leaving button and sigh.

I realize. . . It was so easy to bond with, but it was easy for me to cut my connection too - easy to cut the lines because I am so done to understand people again and again.

You left the group.

One-click and bang.

I am so tired of fixing issues - to explain my point.

I AM SO FUCKING DONE WITH MY LIFE.