a 21st century lover

Sunshower

Sunshower - October 4, 2023

 Cloudy skies hide away all that is pure and naive. Everything becomes a cool grey and there is not a single ray shining from the heavens seen. Here we stand in the middle of the storm of nothing but grey and thunder. With the hope of rain that will never come, we sit in silence, unable to look at one another. Our heads are weighed down by the guilt and lies we tell ourselves. Lies that love can once more blossom between us. It was never like this. We used to be like the azure, clear sky, and the bright, yellow sun. The very definition of a love that is pure and good. A scene that could never be spoiled. Yet, it did spoil as the clouds came blowing in. Whatever did happen turned our paradise upside down. Once a haven, now looks like the gates to endless purgatory. It's only us here. Us and the clouds.

Boom. There goes the first thunder. With its deafening shock, we jolt to meet eyes, only to avert them at the next second. Silence continues to swallow us entirely and we cannot escape this bubble prison. I look up to the sky and still see nothing but pitch grey and not a single drop falls onto the Earth. Then, like the thunder, I break the silence with nothing but a simple "sorry". Like the thunder, it shook everything around us. Like the thunder, it swiftly left us, leaving us back into silence. Then, it came. A drop was shed and fell onto my hand. But, it came neither from the clouds nor did it come from heaven. It was you who shed a single salty tear. I can see your throat welling up and choking. Your eyes tightly shut, hoping to hold back the stream of tears. Hands clenched over your lap. I didn't need to look up to realize that you were breaking down before me. And I didn't need you to look up at me for me to comfort your aching heart. I wrap around you like a warm embrace as if the sun had broken through the wall of grey clouds. And so it did.

Boom. There goes another thunder. But, instead of leaving us in a grim and dead land, the sun had once more been reborn, breaking through the castle walls. And with the sun and its everlasting glory and warmth, then came the rain. The rain that washes away our fears and thoughts. Your smile breaks free from your constraints and the laughter begins. Your grip loosens. Your eyes opening its floodgates. It's ok to cry it out. I may be going away for a while but will be for the better. I cannot stay back with you and hold you from being able to love again. I have served my time and given you all I can. Now, you must find the love that will give you the sun and clear skies again. I won't be forgotten and will look after you now that we parted ways. Stand up. I'm here whenever you need me. Lift your hand off this tombstone of mine and let every tear fall now in front of me. Wipe the mud from my grave off your knees. Leave the flowers and tell me goodbye. I am happy now. It's your turn, now. Watch the sun shine through the clouds and watch the rain fall. This sunshower of mine is my final gift to you. Goodbye, my love...