a 21st century lover

Au Revoir

Au Revoir - January 3, 2024

Forsake me. Forsake me. Do as your predecessors have done. Be the one you so boldly claimed you would never be. Push me aside when I needed you the most. Oh, what is the use of this? In these end of days, I motion to wave hello or even a season greeting, yet all that I'm met with is silence and its deafening sounds. The dawn shines a new tomorrow, and the crowds cheer with the company of their companions whom they hold the most dear. I celebrate alongside my fellows but am still aware of that presence. Or I say an absence to be exact where you would have stood by me, basking in the warmth of a glorious and fruitful year to come; however, I pray that love would not have abandoned me as you did in the past. I eat my twelve grapes underneath the table, wishing for better in the coming days, months, and year. I put my pasts behind me. I find comfort in the words of those who have stood by me in the darkest of days. I am hopeful once more. Still, the yearning to know you and your presence by me sits and wallows. Stirring and stirring, the thoughts churn and bubble. But all must flow in this heart of mine. Let my sorrows and aches as well as my hopes of you drown and be taken away. Bury the past for the possibility that I may find someone who will never break my spirit. Despite the pain and begrudging that I felt for you, I hope my one will have your sweet smiles, innocent and kind nature, love for all things beautiful, goofy and silly humor, and all the more that made me appreciate and feel what I felt from you. She may not be you, but you will also not be her. She will make me feel something different from you and will not turn away when it matters most. Au revoir, mon ancien amour... bienvenue, ma chérie.