a 21st century lover

New Name

New Name - April 27, 2024 

Oh, it has been such an eventful life. How the love seems to come and go through the door. Days when I become elated and fly higher the suns, moons, and rain. Days when I wake up 6 feet under my countless graves. I have been reborn and killed. I have been embraced and isolated. I have been loved and abandoned. Take note of that as you will. Why do I still go on with life if this cycle has yet to reach its conclusion? Well, it is quite simple. I may suffer each time I believe that I think I can love. I may cry and break my own heart. But, that's only a part of it. I learn as I go. There is good with the bad that comes away. Every time I feel dead and defeated, I become someone anew. I find my people who care and bring me out of my grave. Then, I am given a new chance at life. It may be tiring. Some days, I feel as if it has been a futile effort. But, I cannot afford to give up so easily. Love is sacred and unyielding. If I loved someone who couldn't love me the same, it was never love. It is an endeavor. A trial and error. Learn what it is that I want to become. Grow with every life I am given. And so, I am someone different. I am never the one you knew. I am better. I am smarter. I am more loving. And with every new me, then, came my new name.

It is never an easy life living as I had. In this day and age, all of the odds are against us. The ones who dream more than superficial love and love someone's soul. The lover-boys and lover-girls whose love overflows. A natural kind of love is what we seek. In the end, a natural kind of love we will find and nurture and treasure.

I still have a long path ahead of me. A road of nothing but traps and painful memories awaiting me. Still, I walk it in hopes of the end. The end that gave me everything that I ever hoped for. The one I would pray to shooting stars and God for. The love of my life that would make all of it worth it. The person who I can call my one and only. Until I meet them, I will continue to take on new names and write my love stories forevermore.

- Thank You -

It has almost been a full year of writing these stories. What I originally intended for this collection of stories was just to keep myself busy and show the ups and downs in my love life. Sometimes, it was my way of coping and fantasizing about what it would be like to love someone again. Still, for those who read my stories, I would like to extend my sincerest gratitude to everyone for reading. You all give me the motivation and purpose to write what it is that I write. Though many of my stories aren't the love stories you'd hope to see, I feel comfort in knowing that you connected and resonated with my writing. Nothing has brought me more joy than knowing that my words have made you feel deep and powerful emotions. And as we come to a close to this collection, this is not the end. I am pleased to announce the coming sequel, "New Name". Again, thank you all for being my audience.