Ymir's Necklace: The Secret You Hold | Levi x Reader

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LEVI'S POV

That day Levi had spent all evening by your side. He had spent his hours watching you paint in his tent, as his eyes locked onto your figure for hours. He couldn't get enough of just observing you. Even though he couldn't help but drift off and wonder about Annie and Reiner every now and then. In true, he felt helpless - if he had improved his mobility faster by that time, he would've been on his horse, on his way to haunt them, he thought to himself.

But time was a terrible thing. That much he knew. He despised having to wait, having never learned patience or tolerance throughout his life. Yet, being around you grounded him; in your presence calmness would just persevere - even if worry continued to stay on the back of his mind. Even if the image of yourself being gone was still ringing in his consciousness. It silently haunted him.

Later that evening, he had prepared some tea for the two of you, and while he observed the way your hair fell onto your shoulders, and the delicate posture of your hand holding your paintbrush, he silently asked himself: would things ever be normal in his life? Would he ever find himself owning a tea shop, just like he always dreamed of? Chaos seemed to be the one thing that remained a constant in his life, fully corrupting every bit of happiness he had ever experienced. He wondered if he would ever end up happy. If that was even a possibility for him somehow.

While he sipped on the warm cinnamon flavored tea, he noticed you paused your painting process, gently placing your coated paintbrush onto the table, to look at him. A serene look in your eye, he noted. Yet, there was a hint of palpable sadness that Levi couldn't help but notice. He knew that look all too well... losing people never gets easier, he understood that.

He then wished he could take that feeling away from you and destroy it somehow - it angered him, knowing that there was nothing he could do or say to make you stop grieving Jelena.

Yet, despite this sadness, a gentle smirk formed on your lips - genuine, soft and expectant. Something about your demeanor made Levi feel even more magnetized to you. He knew well then that he didn't wish to be parted from you ever again, but so much fear ignited from within him, that he couldn't tolerate the anxiety of not being around you: he found himself longing for you, even in your presence.

It was undecipherable, intrinsicate and just purely maddening to him. Just how little he understood his own feelings for you, despite how much they dictated his every breathing moment.

He fixed his gaze onto yours - a cold and still expression on his face. As if he still, after everything that had happened between you two, was trying to hold back a bit. Levi asked himself if you'd notice what he was feeling - he had never felt this vulnerable and transparent with anyone before. Not even with his closest comrades who knew him deeply.

That last thought sent him down a melancholic, yet nostalgic lane of memories he thought he had long forgotten: he remembered Hange's smile and her strange demeanor, that odd excitement she felt around every single titan she'd encountered. He also recalled how that light began to slowly dim around the last years of her life.

Levi then found himself thinking about Erwin - his unstoppable quest for the discovery of truth, his inability to stop himself from moving forward. That tenacity he shared with his former commander. And how he had given up on his dreams to save his soldiers, all while sacrificing himself.