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LEVI'S POV

Levi slowly pulled away from you. His relaxed, satisfied gaze quickly turning into one of concern. He soon realized what he had done as he pulled out of you gently, his eyes refusing to meet yours in shame.

'Fuck...I'm sorry', he breathed out.

Levi felt embarrassed and ashamed of himself for giving you no warning and finishing inside you. In true, he had completely lost himself in intensity of the moment.

'Hey, hey...it's okay', you whispered as you grabbed him by his shoulders.

You tried to look into his eyes, but he continued to look away in embarassement. He then took a deep breath and looked into your eyes. There was such softeness to you as you gazed at him.

'What if? Fuck- I'm sorry...', he sighed as he found himself properly lost for words. Levi looked away abruptly.

You slowly grabbed him by the back of his neck, your other hand softly placed itself against his chin as you pulled his face up, so as to meet his eyes again. Levi reluctantly met your eyes again, his lips softly parte as he remained in silence.

'If it happens...it happens. I know it's not...the best timing. Shit's about to fucking explode, so it seems. But if it happens...there's no one else in this world I'd rather do this with...', the sound of your voice was incredibly sweet, filled with empathy and love.

And hat's when Levi realized that you were not concerned or scared at all, and that he had been deeply worrying you wouldn't want to have a child. He then began to think about himself as a father, and how much he truly desired it deep down.

And Levi was certain that there was nobody in the world he would rather do it with other than you, as well. Fuck, he had truly fallen for you.

'I...would really like that, actually', he said softly.

Levi's hand was cupping your cheek as he planted a soft kiss onto your lips.

'I'm apologize for not being able to control myself, though', he sighed as you chuckled. It truly relieved him to know that you were not pissed at him or worried.

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After you two took a bath together, Levi found himself in bed with you. You were wearing one of his long sleeved t-shirts and just your underwear. There was nothing he admired more thab the sight of you and the way you wore his clothes.

Levi longed for the smell of your hair and soft skin against his. Everything about sleeping with you completely relaxed him. Although, there was still a hint of worry in the back of his mind as his body tangled up with yours.

The possibility of you being pregnant with his child made him overthink and spiral into dark thoughts and worries: his fear of losing you increased to the point he could feel his own heart sink in panic as he held you.

And somehow, you noticed.

'Levi... are you okay?', you whispered as you held him by his waist, your body facing his as you looked up at him.

He then ran his fingers through your hair and shoulders, his breaths more labored. Your body felt warm to his touch and that seemed to somewhat calm him down a bit. You then placed your hand onto his chest and realized just how hard his heart was beating.

'I'm fine', he sighed in his monotone, low voice.

Levi wouldn't dare to tell you the truth since he didn't want to risk upsetting you as well. He had become very acquainted with bottleing up his feeling, throughout his whole life really. But you saw straight through his walls.

How beautifully disarming, he thought to himself.

'I don't believe that...', you said as you ran your fingers through the back of his neck, slowly caressing his undercut and strokes of his dark hair with your fingers. Levu felt himself swallow hard as he tried to put his thoughts into words.

God, was this new to him.

'I'm...scared. I can't fucking lose you...', he took a deep breath, now looking into your eyes through the darkness.

Levi could detect every single one of your face's details: the way your lips slightly curved down as you heard his voice shake, your eyelashes and the sweet way they decorated your gaze as you looked at him so intentely. God, it seemed as if you truly saw him

There was so much love in your eyes, so much care. Levi couldn't help himself from feeling lucky. Even if your current situation felt quite helpless. Even if losing you was a strong possibility.

'Everything is going to be okay, I promise', you whispered.

You you brushed your lips against his slowly, and Lehi felt his skin burn to your touch. He silently wonder if you knew how much power you had over him. Ane the question pondered inside his head as shivers began running down his spine.

'You can't promise that', he sighed as he pressed his lips onto yours desperately.

Your passionate kiss completely took over him and his sensations. Levi felt your breathing against his skin as you released a deep, quiet hum against his lips. And as he pulled away, he looked into your eyes once again.

He felt helpless.

Vulnerable.

Terrified.

'I will always be with you, Levi. I promise you that', there was a hint of sadness in your voice as you whispered those words.

And somehow, Levi knew exactly what you meant, and he couldn't help but feel sorrow settle on his chest.

That night, he held onto you tighter than ever before, although he barely got any sleep.

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