Admiring From Afar (BkDk)

11 - 'Daydreams'

"When it comes to it
Really the truth is
Oh no, he doesn't want me"

Deku POV
"What the hell is going on with you?" He asks rather bluntly.

"What do you mean Kacchan?" I ask in a rather confused tone.

"Do you like my sister or some shit? Why were you so close to her." He glares at me as I flush red.

"What are you talking about- I mean she's pretty and all and I guess she's nice but—"

"Do you like her or not nerd?" He says more sternly this time as I gulp. He crosses his arms as he stares me down.

"Y-Yeah." I answer somewhat honestly. I mean, I had a crush on Kacchan for the longest time but after he rejected me, I moved on. And Aku and I have gotten close recently, really close. I guess I have developed feelings for her.

"What?" He mutters out in surprise.

"Was there something else?" I ask him rather awkwardly as I scratch the back of my neck.

"N-No." He answers quickly as he lets me leave the room. I wonder why he's acting so strange.

Bakugou POV
Shit, shit, shit, SHIT!!

He isn't supposed to like her, especially not like that! Wait, why do I even care? It's not like it's important to me who that nerd dates. But it is at the same time. I don't understand these feelings. I rejected him years ago when he had feelings for me. But, I guess...he moved on. To my sister of all people, ugh. I can't even imagine.

He's not supposed to date her, he's supposed to leave her alone. Why can't he go back to being obsessed with me. He used to follow me around everywhere. Do I...miss him? Am I jealous of them being close, no, there's no way.

I scoff at myself before I head back downstairs. I see the two of them sitting on the couch again talking. It makes my blood boil. Why did he have to fall for her of all people.

I should be the one that he likes, not her. I can't stand this feeling. I'm better than her in every way...so why her? I can't believe this. This is all so absurd.

We all sit down at the table for dinner as it remains silent in the room. Deku is next to my stupid fucking sister and I'm for some reason next to her. Across the table is auntie next to old hag who's next to my old man.

I see my idiot sister flirting with Deku as I hold back the urge to choke her. I can't believe my eyes.

"So, do you guys know what class or teacher you're going to be with at UA?" Auntie asks, brining my attention away from the two next to me.

"Not yet, but hopefully soon." The nerd says with a smile.

"I don't think we find out til before the first day to be honest." I say as I roll my eyes.

"Katauki, behave." Old hag says sternly as I stick my tongue out at her. I hear the nerd laugh as I smile to myself.

"Do you think you guys will be in the same class again?" The old man chimes in.

"I hope so." My sister says as I scoff at her antics.

"Well, are you kids excited?" Auntie asks and the other two smile and nod.

"What about you Katsuki?" Auntie asks. My eyes widen as I realized she's talking to me and I quickly answer her.

"Yeah, I guess." I say in a quiet tone as she smiles at me.

"I even heard All Might is teaching at UA this year! I'm so excited." The nerd says happily. It's been awhile since I've seen him this excited and cheerful. I guess that's partly my fault though. I should've reached out to him sooner.

After dinner I pull the nerd up to my room again. He seems confused as I sit down on my bed with a sigh. He hesitantly sits next to me as the room falls silent. I can still hear all the extras chattering downstairs even through the closed door. I hear him gulp nervously as I slowly take my hand in his.

"How are you doing?" I ask him softly. He seems taken aback by my sudden shift and takes a few minutes to answer my question.

"Fine...I guess." He mumbles out as he stares at our hands.

"Are you still...hurting...yourself." I whisper to him.

"Sometimes." He says honestly.

"I don't know if I should slap you or hug you." I mutter under my breath. He laughs a little bit from my comment as I stare into his eyes.

"You sure you're okay nerd?" I ask him once more. He looks up at me as we make eye contact and he smiles.

"I'm sure." He finally says. I wish he would talk to me when he's feeling like this. I know that bitch can't do anything to comfort him. Hell, I doubt she even knows.

"Does my sister know about your problem." I ask him. He hesitates a moment before answering.

"No." He whispers very quietly.

"I'm assuming auntie doesn't either then." I respond as I stare at his face that looks like it's ready for tears.

"Cmere you idiot." I mutter as I roll my eyes and hug him. He seems surprised before he finally hugs me back. I see him smile from the corner of my eye as I hold him tightly.

"Thank you." He whispers into my ear as I smile to myself.

"Will you promise to try to stop hurting yourself. Or at least tell someone who can fucking help you. It's not healthy dumbass." I say quietly and he nods.

"I promise." We release from the embrace as we both walk downstairs to see everyone else.

"What were you boys doing?" Old hag asks with a raised brow as I roll my eyes.

"Looking at All Might figurines, fuck off." I yell at her and she frowns.

"Don't be such a brat Katsuki." She yells back as I repeat her words in a mocking tone.

Eventually, the nerd and auntie had to go home. We said our goodbyes and my stupid sister insisted on giving him a hug for at least five minutes. I glared at her as the nerd just smiled and stood there in her embrace. Just the sight of them makes me want to vomit.

"Bye Kacchan, I'll see you later." He says to me with a smile and a wave.

"See you later nerd."