Admiring From Afar (BkDk)

39 - 'Brooklyn'

"But we wouldn't ever leave a sister behind
If you're looking, if you're looking for the girl of your dreams
She's in Brooklyn with me, she's in Brooklyn with me"

Katsuki POV
"Aku is...bipolar?" I question.

"The doctor...the doctor said that I'm on the spectrum for it. They won't even give me the diagnosis since I'm not eighteen yet." She sobs out. "I don't even know if that's better or worse." My heart clenched at her words.

I then felt a hand squeeze mine tightly. I look over to see Izuku giving me a soft smile. I smile back at him but it fades quickly.

"I'm sorry sis." I whisper out. She continues to hug our mother as she cries. Auntie excused herself before we came down so it's just us.

"It's ok Kat." She says softly, she seems scared. I don't blame her. Hell, I'm scared for her.

Eventually, the tears slow and I end up sitting on the couch with my sister while my parents are having a more private discussion.

"I guess my diagnosis, or whatever it was, would explain my past behaviors." She said, wiping her tears.

"What do you mean?" I ask. I know she's done some shit, but is it because of her possibly being bipolar.

"Well it would explain me jumping from guy to guy." I cringed at her statement but also felt sorry for her. That must've been really hard for her to say let alone realize.

"I know I could've controlled it better, it just seemed easier to give in." She whispered out.

"You do seem to be doing better since they prescribed you those meds." I speak up.

"Yeah, I guess that only means I really could be bipolar." She sniffles a bit as I frown. I move over to the couch she's sitting on and wrap an arm around her. She welcomes my embrace as I hug her tightly. She cries as I hold her and I say nothing more.

"I know I can't blame bipolar on everything, hell I can't even blame it for half the shitty things I did. That was just me being me I guess." She sobs out. I gritted my teeth as I didn't know what to say, so I say nothing. I let her let it all out.

"It made me push everyone away, everyone I cared about. Everyone I was supposed to care about." She must've had these feelings built up for a while now.

These things don't just happen over night.

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A few week have gone since Aku got diagnosed. She's been trying to go out more. She says she has to take back her life, that being mentally ill won't stop her. Honestly, I'm just glad she's not as depressed as my parents are at the moment. They've barely said a word about the diagnosis since it happened. Almost like they're trying to pretend it didn't even happen. Which makes it worse.

I'm just scared Aku is going to get hurt.

"Katsuki I'm home." Aku calls out as she walks in the door. Our parents have both been working a lot recently so we've been home. They left their business trip early to come see her after the incident so they're a bit behind. And they're trying to catch up before we go back to school.

"Hey sis, what's up." I say, not bothering to look up from my phone while I walk down the stairs.

"Well, I want you to meet Lanel." She says. I look up to see a boy standing next to her. I glare at him as he gulps.

"Kat, don't scare him!" She lectures and I roll my eyes.

"Why the hell not?" I say with another glare.

"Oh my god, I can't let you meet anyone." She groans as she quickly ushers the boy into the house. I pull her aside before she gets too far.

"Hey, how'd you meet this guy." I ask, a bit worried to be honest.

"He's in general studies at U.A. and we met at a party a while ago. Just haven't had the chance to meet up until recently." She says with a smile.

"God fucking damn it." She raises a brow at my words. "You like this guy don't you." I say to her and she looks to the floor.

"I don't trust him." I say as I cross my arms.

"You're not the boss of me 'Suki." She says with a glare.

"Are you even ready to be in a relationship after everything?" I ask in a more quiet tone. She scoffs before responding.

"Of fucking course I am. Plus, it's not like we're dating even." She says with a red face and I roll my eyes.

"He's not allowed up to your room." I say sternly.

"Oh come on! Izuku is always in your room and you two are dating." She grumbles.

"Yeah because I've known Izuku my whole fucking life. You barely know this guy." I say seriously and she pouts.

"I've known him for months now 'Suki." She groans. "Stop acting like my big brother and just let me do as I please." Aku says with a begging smile. I scoff at her antics.

"No."

"Please?"

"No."

"This one time."

"Not happening."

"Catch me if you can!" She exclaims. I raise a brow and then I watch her bolt off. She grabs the boy by the sleeve and drags him upstairs with her. I hear them both laughing from all the way down here as a scowl rests on my face. I rush after them up the stairs.

"I still don't that trust him!" I yell as I go to the stairs.

"Whatever 'Suki!" Aku yells back.

"You get one hour before I'm coming in there and dragging him out!" I growl.

"Stop being annoying, let me have my friend over."

"Don't want to."

"You're seriously pissing me off."

"And?"

"Oh my godddd." She finally opens the door and I see the two bean bags out in front of her small TV. She's got some video game on and two controllers set on the console table.

"Thought so."

"Happy now?"

"No."

"Whatever, we're playing now." She goes to close the door but I stop her.

"Door stays open."

"Fine." She grumbles. "You can go now."

"Whatever."