Admiring From Afar (BkDk)

18 - 'Body Better'

"Loving you was easy, that's why it hurts now
The worst way to love somebody is to
Watch them love somebody else and it work out"

Deku POV
I feel overwhelmed. It's been a week since I've been going out with Aku and Kacchan is avoiding me like the plague. It's so confusing to be honest. I sit in bed with my girlfriend as my brain is spinning. I let out a deep sigh before leaning my head against wall in defeat.

"You wanna go shopping?" Aku asks as she sits down next to me on her bed.

"Maybe." I whisper out in response, still trying to figure out why Kacchan is so pissed.

"Whatcha thinking about." She mutters in my ear, shifting closer to me.

"Kacchan is mad at me and I don't know why." Aku lets out a sigh as she puts her head on my shoulder.

"You think too much." She said with a slight eye roll.

"What do you mean?" I asked, still confused.

"He just acts that way toward everyone, I would've thought you would know that by now." She whispers into my ear.

"I'm gonna talk to him." I declare before standing up to leave the room.

"Wait-" She calls after me so I pause at the door.

"Yes?" I say with a sigh as I turn around.

"Why do you care what he thinks of you. He's treated you like shit our entire childhood." Aku pleads as she grabs my hand in hers.

"I don't know, I just do." I say gruffly as I pull my hand away.

"You're just gonna leave me like this?" My girlfriend mutters through a cry as I take a deep breath.

"What?" I ask softly.

"You're gonna go talk to that asshole instead of going shopping with me? What kind of boyfriend are you!" She cries out.

"He's your brother, why don't you care?" I scoff as I walk out of the room and head for Kacchan's. I knock on his door and it echoes through the hallway.

Was I wrong to ignore her like that? It felt wrong. God, what did I get myself into. I let out a sigh as I stand in front of the wooden door. I guess I'll apologize after I figure out why Kacchan's ignoring me.

"What do you want extra- Deku?" He cuts himself off when he sees me.

"Hi?" I respond awkwardly. He seems annoyed as he grabs my arm and drags me into his dorm room. I yelp as I'm thrown and the door slams. "Eek!"

"Fucking calm down nerd, it's just me." He says in an annoyed tone. I gulp as I begin to regret my decision to talk to him.

"Why are you ignoring me?" I say bluntly, trying not to waste any time.

"Why do you care? I've been ignoring you our whole lives dumbass." He scoffs at me.

"Yeah but not like this." He glares at me after my comment.

"The hell does that mean?" He questions as I sigh.

"You've been ignoring me ever since I started dating your sister. But not in your usual way. You aren't insulting me, you're just avoiding me." I explain as he seems to be getting more and more annoyed with me.

"Whatever." He grumbles.

"It's not whatever. I care about you Kacchan! Why won't you let me in." I plead as he grits his teeth.

"Because it's none of your damn business nerd!" He shouts at me, something he hasn't done since middle school. My mouth opens but nothing comes out as I feel tears threaten my eyes.

"You mean nothing to me so why would I care about you. Just get the hell out and leave me the fuck alone!" After that the tears fully streamed down my face. I ran toward the door and closed it with a slam as I ran down the hallway into my dorm room.

I lock the door and fall onto my bed sobbing. Why did hearing that from him hurt so much. I know he's said worse to me so why does it matter to me?

I guess just hearing how he doesn't even care about me after all these years cut a hole in my heart.

After all I've done for him...I can't believe he would do this. I mean, I guess I can. This is exactly how he acted in middle school.

I guess he really didn't change at all.

It was foolish to think that he would, especially for me. Oh well, I guess we're back to where we were before UA.

Nothing.

Bakugou POV
Shit, shit, SHIT!

Why the hell did I say that? How could I be so fucking stupid. I sit down on my bed with my hands in my hair as I feel like breaking down. I just pushed away the person that means the most to me. What kind of a person am I?

I haven't yelled at him like that since middle school. Now he'll probably never want to talk to me again.

Fucking hell.

Screw it, I need help and I need it now. I quickly call up my squad and they all come rushing over to my dorm room. The door is quickly kicked in by Pinkie as she looks around for me.

"Bakubabe!" She yells as she tackles me in a hug.

"Ah hell, what was that for?" I groan as I sit up on the floor as the group sits around me.

"You texted us that it was an emergency, we thought you got hurt or something!" She exclaimed as she sits down next to me, composing herself.

"I fucked up." I finally admitted as they all looked at me in shock.

"Did you just admit to doing something...wrong?" Shitty hair looked at me funny.

"Are you Toga or something?" Dunce face yelled as I rolled my eyes.

"I yelled at Izuku and told him he meant nothing to me and that I don't care about him." I explained as they all looked sympathetic.

"Oh don't give me that shit, just give me advice or something dumbasses." I grumbled.

"What happened when you told him?" Pinkie asked as I sighed.

"He started to fucking cry- well...sob." I admit shamefully as Raccoon Eyes gave me a side hug.

"It's okay bakubabe, we will help you." She said softly as I smiled at her.

"Thank you extras"

"Anytime dude!" Shitty hair exclaimed as I rolled my eyes with a grin still on my face.

Maybe I can fix this after all.