Admiring From Afar (BkDk)

19 - 'Watch'

"Have a golden star, this one's for free
'Cause you broke my heart and my self esteem
For a girl who's a remix of me
But I guess you got everything you want
And I just watch"

(The next day at school)
Bakugou POV
I walk into the classroom and immediately spot the nerd. When I look at him he instantly looks away and avoids my gaze. I gulp nervously as I go to my seat in front of him. Just then my sister enters the room and heads toward him. She glares at me with a sinister smile before kissing Deku in front of me. I growled under my breath as I turned back around to face the front.

Fucking bitch.

I know that I should know better. But I don't think I think I want to witness them anymore. Like I ever did. God, why can't I just be happy for them. I clench my teeth as I stare at the wall in vain.

Everything is a shit show right now if I'm being honest.

I need to apologize to the nerd as soon as possible. Otherwise he may hate me forever. I quickly pass him a note after class starts saying to meet me at my dorm after class. He quickly passes it back with an agreeing response. I smile to myself as I let out a sigh.

Aizawa finally walks into the classroom as all eyes are on him. He sits down at his desk as he glares at all of us. The room is silent as we wait for him to say something.

"Get your practice uniforms on and head to the field." He announces. The room erupts with chaos as everyone rushes out of the room and toward the locker rooms. When I get there, I can't help but stare at the nerd. He seems so closed off today. Did what I said really affect him that much?

My eyes are glued to him as I watch him put on his uniform. I blush when I see his bare skin. Just thinking of how it would've been if I hadn't rejected him all those years ago. Maybe then he would be with me.

He's so beautiful.

I shake my head to rid myself of those thoughts. I turn my attention back to myself as I get changed as well. I notice that he's moving slower than usual though, he seems distracted.

We finally make it out to the field with the rest of the class. Deku immediately stands next to Aku as I growl. The two of them have become inseparable since they started dating and it's pissing me off. All I can do is watch them from afar and act like I wouldn't break their relationship in a heartbeat if given the chance. How annoying.

"Alright class, team up in pairs of two and begin sparring. Without quirks though." A few groans are heard from around the field.

"You're not always gonna be able to rely on your quirk, having good hand to hand combat skills is also important." Sensei explains.

"Bakubabe!" Pinkie yells as she rushes over to me. I roll my eyes at her excitement.

"Want to partner up? I know you usually work with Midoriya but it seems she's with your sister." She whispered the last sentence.

"Whatever." I hesitantly agreed to her request. We begin to throw some punches at each other.

"Always keep your damn hands at your face dumbass." I scoff at her terrible skill.

"Why-" Before she can ask I punch her in the face. She groans as she clutches her nose in pain.

"Got it..." She whispered as she held her hands protectively in front of her face. This time when I try to throw a punch she easily blocks it.

"Take that Bakubae!" She yells excitedly. While she's distracted I punch her in the gut as she cries out.

"You bitch." She yells as a single tear falls. I laugh at her as she gives a look of defeat.

"Cmon, get up." I mock her as she bites her lip and stands.

"You're a meanie sometimes." She mutters as I laugh again.

"What the fuck ever." I scoff as she grumbles.

"Now dodge this." Raccoon eyes screams as she lands a punch to my face. I back up a step as I groan in slight pain. I glare at her as she gulps in fear.

"Now wait a moment-"

"DIEEEEE!" I yell as I charge her, knocking her to the ground in a single punch.

"...tough love huh?" She mumbles before passing out on the grass. I scoff at the easy defeat as I look over to the nerd. He's letting her win. Dumbass. My eyes become glued to him as talking soon fills my ears.

"Now Bakugou, why is your partner on the ground?" The caterpillar asked with a sigh.

"She underestimated me." I mutter in annoyance.

"I see." He pauses for a moment. "Carry her to recovery girl...now." He says with a glare. I roll my eyes as I pick up the stupid extra and carry her to the nurse's office. I can't help but feel eyes on me as I walk away.

"So, you punched her so hard she fainted?" Recovery girl asks with a not so surprised face. I shrug my shoulders as she sighs.

"This is the fourth time this week." She mutters as she looks over her chart.

"Just go back to class." She scolds me as I leave the room. I start to head back to the classroom as I hear some whispers in the hallway. I ignore them as I arrive at my class and see it full of the extras. After making it inside, I sit down at my seat and lean back in my chair.

"Dude, is Mina okay?" Shitty hair asks with concern laced in his voice as I roll my eyes.

"Of course she's fucking okay. I know how to injure someone without killing them dumbass." I mock him as he clenches his teeth.

"I'm going to visit her." He declares and I close my eyes.

"Do what you wish." I say simply.

The bell then rings dismissing us for the day. I immediately head to my dorm room to meet up with Deku. I need to sort this out once and for all.

After all, how many times do I have to apologize before I finally grow up and stop hurting him?