book of poems

A World Without Her

I feel the grief.
I feel the sadness.
I wish she would come back.
The girl who lit up my world
The girl who made sure he was okay.
The girl who could take his burden.
I'm not that girl but I wish I was. 
For I hate seeing him like this

I hate seeing him like this.
The person who I look up to
The person who became my wall
The person who became my compass
The person who became my brother
The person who became my family
The person who became all this and so much more

My brother and mentor all rolled into one.
My family and my friend all rolled into one.
I don't want to see him hurt.
I don't want to see him suffer.
For he is the family I never had
The family I want to protect.
The family I want to help.

So, I wish she returns.
The girl who kept him sane
The girl who kept him human
The girl who became his everything
The girl he hoped to marry.
The girl he gave his entire heart to

She's gone now so he's broken.
She's gone now so I’m lost.
For I love my brother but he's not her
He can never be her.
No one can be her.
For she was one of a kind
The diamond in the rough
The angel in an evil world
The solution in a world of pain

She was the heart.
She was the spark.
She was everything.
She was it all, so we lost everything.
He needs her so do I.

Life without her is hurt.
Life without her is bland.
Life without her is empty.
Life without her isn't life.

He has a hole in his chest.
I have a hole in my life.
Without her we are both empty

I may not feel his entire pain but the pain I do is enough.
I may never understand the exact amount but the pain I do is enough.
He lost his future; I lost my happiness.
All because we lost her.
Our diamond, Our medicine
Our angel, Our light

Now all we have is each other.
For no one else understands.
For no one else knows.
No one ever will
How could they?
For to them she is just a girl
A girl they feel we're too attached to.