Clear Blindness

Chapter 9

   Some things are unavoidable but I'm well aware my child will not be used as some sort of weapon for another's doing, especially if that someone is the Alpha King. Hell will rise over on earth before I or anyone else let's that happen while I'm still alive. Even in death will I protect the vulnerable infant living inside my womb.

What the Alpha King had said has clouded my thoughts for the longest time now. He's going to try to use my baby as a weapon. As a fucking weapon! And if I'm weak enough then I wouldn't have the strength to fight back. Somehow I knew the good and bad beings in me wouldn't allow such a act to become true.

I could feel that I wasn't alone as my mind filled with two more very familiar voices.

'Let someone try to take the baby,' the soft voice of the good being said in the back of my mind.

'We'll simply rip their hearts out and feed it to them,' the dark being snarled sweetly. Yes, the dark part of me is pure evil but the baby means something to them both.

Definitely not going to happen.

'But, why would he want to use a baby to wreck destruction when he could easily accomplish it himself?' I ask all of them.

'To gain more power?' Bruce suggested.

The two voices ceased talking, only listening to the conversation.

I shake my head, eyebrows drawing together in a deep frown. 'No,' I paused, 'it's something. . .more. I have no idea what, though. Sucks 'cause I could feel it at the tip of my tongue. The lines are all connected yet I just can't see the picture. It's like trying to see through mud.'

'Things will clear out once we leave.'

If we ever leave, I thought bitterly.

No, I could not give up on our freedom. I wouldn't let myself. Mentally rolling my eyes, I push those horrible thoughts away and huff out a breath in frustration. I grab a hair band and put my waist length hair up in a pony tail.

Sadly, as I look in the mirror, I was expecting Vincent to come out of nowhere and wrap his big arms around me, to kiss me and tell me he loves me although he used to think he wasn't capable of love. A deep pain shot through my heart a few moments later when I realized where I was.

Sometimes loneliness really sucks ass. It could drive a person through a lot of stuff, or it could make a person be independent and realize who's there for them and who's not.

'You know, it wouldn't hurt to talk to me every now and then about how you feel.'

I laugh while wiping away the tears I hardly noticed were there. Bruce peered through his cage to gaze into my eyes, a wolfish grin covering his big furry face.

"Oh shut up, you know I talk to you," I said in fake annoyance.

"Yeah, right! I feel abandoned," he muttered out loud.

He was teasing, of course, but still, it did seem like we were abandoned by no one in particular. It wasn't anybody's fault, it was ours.

"Me too, Bruce," I voice my thoughts half joking half serious.

He stays quiet for about a minute till I hear him sigh softly. "Feels like whatever we say brings us back to our current situation, huh?"

I nod once, holding in more tears. "Yep."

Words couldn't describe how useless I felt. I have lots of responsibilities to my pack that I can't even assist to. My pack could be in danger and I wouldn't be able to help them 'cause I made a bad decision to avenge the murdered people from my pack.