I'm right here

Numb

"You and Jon have been acting weird lately, always disappearing on me, staying secretive, what's going on?" She can't know. "It's nothing, we are fine." We sit on my bed in my room doin our homework. "Hey you two brought you guys a snack." Jon joins us on the bed. He looks at me with a worried look. "You don't look too good. I think this is a side effect from being away from Jaime for too long like this. You need him." I shake my head. "No I don't. I don't need that bastard." I spat out. "I never heard you use that kind of language before." I look away from them. "Come on, eat." I pick up a cookie and take a small bite. "There, happy?" Jon and Selene look at each other. "Blake, you look sick, maybe you should lay down and-" "I'm fine!" I snap. "Sorry, sorry. I'm..." I trail off with a sigh. I can't cry no more, I cried too much to the point no more tears would fall now all I feel is numb at this point. I was sad, angry and now numb. "It's ok, we're just worried about you. I miss you Blake, Jon and I both do." She takes my hand and pulls back. "You're really hot." I don't respond or react Jon gets up. "Hey, Selene can you come back another time? I'm going to take my sister to Doctor fate." Selene nods. "I will see you later, Blake." I don't answer. She leaves closing the door and Jon locks it. He begins stripping out his clothes and crawl in the bed towards me. He kiss my cheek then my neck, I don't move. "You can't numb yourself from the pain." He lays me down. "I already did. I can't help it, I have no more energy." He strips my clothes off of me. "I hate seeing you like this." I look away. He gently grabs my face turning it and press his lips against mine as he slowly enters me. He moans moving at a slow gentle pace, I close my eyes feeling my temperature drop. "How do you feel?" He asks me every time. "I'm ok." My mind drifts off to Jaime, I wonder what he's doing right now.

-Jaime-

"Ah! Dammit!" I'm training with Dick and he's being a complete asshole. He won't let me use my suite to fight. He says I need to learn how to fight without my suite. I can't stop thinking about Blake, I wonder how she is doing. Is she thinking about me? Fuck I miss her. "Come on Jaime focus!" He pulls his staff out and hits me straight across the face, blood spew out my mouth. "What the fuck Dick!" He rest a hand on his hip. "Get up Jaime, we're not done." I wipe the blood off my mouth. "You're pissed at me, is that it? You're pissed off because I hurt Blake, twice, and now she hates me, she fucking hates me!" He sneers. "You think? Jon told me everything." Dick gets ready to hit me but is stopped by Jon. "My turn." His eyes are red ready to shoot off his heat vision. Dick smirks. "You are so fucked." He gets ready to throw the punch. "Wait, I lied!" His fist stops inches away from my face. He drops his fist and his go back to normal. "What?" I quickly get up off the ground. "I fucking lied about everything except for the fact that I did have sex with Traci once and that was during the cycle. Everything else was a lie from the cheating to everything that I hate about her. I don't hate her, I don't hate everything about her, I love her, I love everything about her, even the little things. She's everything to me. All those things I said about her hurt me. It hurt me a lot. I'm sorry for hurting your sister, twice." My eyes widen when his heat vision flys right past me inches to my face leaving a cut on my face. His eyes dart back to me. "Why the fuck would you say all those things if it was a lie?" Dick crossed his arms raising a brow waiting for an answer. "Because, she tried to hurt me and it worked." Jon and Dick look at each other then back at me. "Well, you hurt her first. That doesn't give you a right to hurt her again. Dammit Jaime, she was hurt! What did you expect?" I huff looking at Jon. "She told me Jon." Jon looks at me confused. "What?" I roll my eyes. "Don't play dumb with me, she told me what's been going on between you and her." The color in his face drains. "What? I told her not to tell anyone." Dick looks between us. "What is going on? Told you what? What did she say?" Jon runs a hand down his face. "Blake and I have been having sex for the past few weeks now." Dicks jaw drops. "I only did it to help with her cycles, plus, it's not like we're blood related. It's all Jaime's fault anyway." Dick's jaw still stays dropped. "Dick, you're going to catch flies in your mouth." Jon tells him. "Does your parents, or girlfriend know?" He shakes his head. "Shit! Did you like it?" Jon shrugs. "It felt good but, I'm not falling in love with her if that's what you mean. I only saw it as a job as her big brother to help her nothing more nothing less." I run a hand through my hair. "How is she?" Jon shakes his head. "Jaime you hurt her really bad. She's... something is wrong with her. She's not crying, she's not sad or angry she just lay there, numb." I hold back the tears. "There's another thing that you should know." I nod. "What is it?" I was nervous to ask but I needed to know. "Jaime, she's sick, really sick. She's pale, weak, and... cold except when her cycle starts." What have I done to her?