Addiction ||BWWM|| Book.2

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝟭𝟴

𝙄 𝙈 𝘼 𝙉 𝙄

I was the first awake today so I took it upon myself to decide to go and cook breakfast for my sleepy rockstar but there was a problem. The problem ? Said rockstar had such a grip on me that I couldn't go anywhere. I couldn't go pee if I wanted to because he probably would've squeezed it out of me by now. I tried pulling his arms away and no budge. I tried waking him, nothing. I was seconds away from ripping my own torso off and letting him have it.

"Jake ? Jake ? Babe ?" I tapped him repeatedly. He inhaled, rolled his hips against me and fell back asleep. I groaned. The strained groan took up a lot of my breath and I soon realized that his grip was tightening around me. "Jake, baby get up" I whimpered, nearly gasping for air.

Deja vu. This happened once a long time ago when he used to have nightmares because of his birth mother. Is that what's going on with him ?

I didn't move too much at first because I didn't want to scare him awake but once my chest started tightening and it felt like he was crushing my rib cage I had no choice. I pushed against his chest hoping I could fling myself away and in the act I accidentally scratched his arm with my nail.

I stopped immediately because I felt my nail sink into his skin and scrape him. I can almost say I felt the pain of it myself and that phantom pain flooded my muscles. In that same frame, he let me go and his eyes shot open and his chest heaved ridiculously high. He broke out into a sweat quicker than I've ever seen and I went straight into panic mode. For a second he looked at me with embarrassment before he noticed what had just happened.

His eyes softened and flooded with tears waiting to be released.

"Jake, baby-"

"Stop" He shuddered.

"What's-" I reached out to wipe the tears about to fall from his icy eyes but he flinched away from it.

"Mani don't !- Please- please Love, don't touch me" His hand blocked mine away from touching him.

"Jake ?" I wanted to cry myself, he doesn't even want me to touch him. What's wrong with him ? Why isn't he telling me anything ?

"Give me a minute" He got out of bed and went straight into the bathroom.

I sighed shakily and fell back onto the bed. My hands were shaking like crazy and my heart pounded so hard that my chest cavity may be sore after this. Fuck. Maybe I should've just stayed asleep or let him squeeze me to death.

I respected his wishes and let him have his privacy. In the mean time I went to make breakfast like I said I would. I gave Vito food and water and in return he gave me a little company before running upstairs. My guess ? He knows something's wrong with Jake and wants to comfort him. Thank God for animals. Jake has the cutest tea maker so I used it to make us both some tea. I went to deliver his but I heard the shower on, showering is good. In lots of cases I probably would need to worry but Jake would never put me in the position of being scared of what he could be doing behind closed doors.

Am I worried anyway ? Damn right. I just wanna know what's wrong with him. I wanna help. I left his tea on the nightstand and went to use a different bathroom to shower. By the time I got out, something felt off. I called out to Jake. No answer. None.

I walked through every hall or door I could find and he was gone. Finally, I did the smartest thing I could've done at the moment and checked for his keys. He's gone. He left me here !? What kind of shit is this ? It's 9 AM ! Where the hell is he going at 9 AM !? I had calls to make. His phone was on silent and 'do not disturb' so he's obviously avoiding me but why ? I'm not angry at him. He beat himself up really bad about it when this happened the first time so I know he's mad at himself.