Like A Villain - I Love Noah Sebastian-

16. We Can't Restart

About a week went by and I was still feeling great about everything. Noah and I were both relatively busy but we talked every day on the phone just updating each other on what was going on out in our daily activities. Half way through the week we made time and met up for breakfast. Afterward, we went for a walk in the park. Noah was very affectionate toward me and it felt very natural like it used to be. He was slowly breaking down my walls again.

Today we both had the day off and he slept over my place the night before. Since we let our apartment go that we used to live in together, he would just crash with Folio at his flat. Noah never managed to settle down anywhere considering they were often on the road.

It was a nice night together.  We weren't intimate or anything. We only slept. He held me for most of the night and it was really nice after going so long without sleeping next to anyone.

Noah was still taking his time with me and trying to gain trust back which I really appreciated. Of course I missed him in various ways, but I really wanted us to do things right this time.

We were both awake but I had my head on his chest as we talked about things. Noah entangled his fingers with mine and we rested our hands next to my head.

"Eve...I have to tell you something." He had been quiet for a little while and I could tell he had been in deep thought.

"Okay...what is it?" I asked and sat up next to him in the bed crossing my legs. I could sense the seriousness in his voice and it was already making me slightly worried. I wanted to give him my full attention.

He took a breath and sat up a little as well.

He took my hand back in his and caressed the back of my hand with his thumb, giving me subtle goosebumps. The suspense was killing me.

"So...I got a text this morning from our tour manager..." I could tell by his expression that he didn't like the news. It made me weary.

"....what is it..." I asked hesitantly.

"We have to leave in a week to do a tour...with...with Moriah..."

My heart started thumping but I kept my face calm.

"...with Poppy?" I had to clarify.

He nodded and looked away knowing this was not going to be anything good for us. We were doing so well at repairing our relationship and I was making decent progress on putting her out of my memory. Hearing her name and knowing they would be away together was igniting a slow-burning fire in me all over again.

I kept my voice quiet trying not to get instantly anxious.

"....for how many days..." I was afraid of the answer.

"A month...." He responded flatly. He wasn't happy about this either. He was searching my face for a sign of anything...he was being fragile with me like he was holding a time bomb.

"Oh..." was all I could manage to utter. Noah was going to be away for a month with a girl he basically cheated on me with. Fucking fantastic.

"I know it's not ideal Eve. And I'm so sorry. I tried to get out of it but it's impossible. They said everything is paid for and we would owe them thousands if we back out. If it were just me I wouldn't care but it would be unfair to put the guys in that situation." He hung his head hating this entire situation. He didn't want this to ruin everything we've been working on.

"I mean...it's your job, Noah. I don't know what else I can do other than just deal with it." We just looked at each other.

I was going to have to just try and trust him. What could I do? I certainly wasn't tagging along with them this time. Noah and I were taking it slow and if I even attempted to go with them, I might attack the bitch in a random fit of rage...I'm not a violent person...but having her in my face every day would be a real test for me. She knew he was in a relationship and continued to do what she did too.

I felt sick.

He breathed in through his noise and exhaled.

"Listen...I want to do everything I can to make you feel better about this...I can FaceTime you every chance I get so you can see what I'm doing and I'll share my loca- "

"Noah we've already talked about this. I'm not keeping a leash on you. This is up to you. Either you want to earn my trust back, or you change your mind and want to be with her...I just ask that you don't make me look stupid."

He frowned.

"Eve....I've already told you that I don't want her. Ever. It was a drunken, stupid, one-time bad decision. I mean that..."

I just looked away knowing he probably meant it now...but the reality of the situation is he's a man...and men are sometimes weak and society just gives them a tap on the wrist for being that way.
I knew him and her  would be together on the road and a month was a long time.Noah really liked sex when we were together, so I can only imagine what might happen when emotions are running high.

"Listen, Noah...maybe we should just call this like how it is. We never officially said we were back together...so...maybe we should just let thi-"

"Stop." He actually looked agitated with me.

"What the hell are you trying to say Eve...that you wanna fuck around with other guys and just let me fuck other girls? What the hell are we even doing then? I've told you, I want you. Unless you want to fuck around while I'm gone, I can handle a month and not fuck this up again. I don't even want to look at anyone else, okay? I fucking mean that..."

I bit my lip and nodded knowing he meant it but whether or not he would stick by that would be up to him.

"Look, I'm not leaving for another week. If you'll have me, I want to spend time with you before I go...and the month will go fast...we will get through it."

I was apprehensive about everything but had to just roll with the punches.

I leaned in and held his face and kissed him softly. He laid back and pulled me with him.

Once we broke away I rested my chin on his chest and he admired my face repeatedly running his fingers through my hair.

"How about we go grab some breakfast..."

I didn't really have much of an appetite after those news but I had to save face for Noah. I didn't want to seem hung up on it so I sucked it up.

"Breakfast sounds great." I fibbed.

"Alright so we'll go eat and then if you want maybe we can go for a walk on the beach today." Noah was like me in a sense that we both loved being outside in nature when the weather was good. We never liked wasting a day.

"Sounds like the perfect day." I kissed him passionately trying to put the upcoming tour out of my head for now. I needed to just live in the moment with him while he was home, and later on, cross that awful bridge when we get to it.