Hate You, I Love You.

Chapter 21

[Hey girl, tomorrow is your birthday! What are your plans?] Jillian asks as we do a Face Time call. 

"Nothing, I wish you were here though." I sighed.

[What's the problem? Spill it.]

"Nothing," I lied.

Jillian raise a brow. [You're lying. Come on, tell me. Is it about Sebastian?]

"Well, it's about his ex."

Jillian looked surprised. [Shit. I was just guessing about Sebastian.. what about his ex?]

"She's a bitch." I shortly answered.

Jillian laughed so hard hearing my reply. She even clapped her hands.

[Wow, you know now how to distinguish people, Iris. I'm so proud of you.] she joked. [What about the bitch? Is she flirting with Sebastian?]

"I don't know, we had a short conversation yesterday. Sebastian was sick and I told her not to visit him at his room, and she was like blabbering that she was first. Blah.. blah... blah. That I have to defend my self too. I told her that she was the past and that she should know her position."

I sighed, ready to let out all the anger and resentment I was feeling. I didn't told Sebastian about it because I just don't want to talk about it but now, telling this all to Jillian made me feel at ease.

"And also, I've been keeping this with Sebastian.. but for weeks ago, I've been noticing that Sebastian always answers his phone whenever Kim was calling. There was this one time where we are having a date and then he really excused himself just to answer Kim's call."

[Maybe you should talk to Sebastian. You both seem to be not open with one another. You know.. you guys lack communication? You had a summer break together.]

"I know," I sigh as I lay on my bed holding my phone, mid air. "But the whole summer break, Sebastian was busy at the hospital.. and I get that. But I think I've been having second thoughts... I don't know. I feel so distant."

A knock on my door made me sit. Jayse slowly opens the door as he took a peak inside.

"Iris?"

"Yes? What is it?" I answered back.

"Sebastian is here, we are going to play downstairs." Jayse stated.

"Uhm, okay. I'll follow." I answered back and Jayse left.

[Go talk to your man. Clear things with him. Tell him that your not comfortable with his ex.] Jillian suggested.

"I don't know... I'll try."

[You should,] Jillian took a pause. [I gotta go. I still have to meet Benjamin.]

"Okay, see you soon." I answered and the call ended.

I jumped off the bed and walked towards the door. When I reach the doorstep, I slightly open the door but I hesitate to go out for a second.

Sebastian and I have been dating for months now and apparently, I only knew a little of him.

The feelings we had for each other was too sudden that it made us feel overwhelmed... at least to me. I was looking forward to know him more during the summer break but we weren't able to because I was busy working part time and he was busy at the hospital.

I don't know why I suddenly thought of things like this. Maybe because I got intimidated with his ex? Or maybe I was still in the middle of the infatuation phase?

But I love him.

"Hi," Sebastian suddenly appeared in front of me, holding a piece of long stemmed sunflower. "Thank you for taking care of me yesterday, love."