Hate You, I Love You.

Chapter 23

"Didn't you just made a promise to call me?" Benny stated as he positioned the umbrella into my direction.

The rain was pouring hard, like it was having empathy for what I feel right now. As I cry, the skies cry with me. I didn't mind the cold I was feeling while I was walking under the rain because I felt numb because of the pain my heart is going through right now.

Benny was holding my hand as we walk towards his car, parked on the other side of the road. As we cross the road, I embraced Benjamin and rested my chin on his shoulders as I cry all the sadness and ache.

"I'm sorry, Benny. You're already drenched both with my tears and the rain." I stated as I continue to shed tears.

I suddenly felt Benny's hand caressing my back for comfort.

"I'll always be here for you, Iris. Always remember that." Benny responded as we remained in our position.

After a few minutes of just standing under the rain, sobbing... I asked Benjamin to take me home. When we got inside his car, he gave me his jacket that was sitting on the backseat. He made me wear it so that I wouldn't feel cold.

"How about you? You're drenched in wet, Benny." I uttered as I took a glance at him, driving.

"I'm fine, Ale. Just have some rest. I'll get you home."

The next thing I know, I was in my room. The ray of the sun directs into my face that I had to open my eyes. I was surprise that I was in my bed, wearing comfortable pajamas. Then, the door of my room opened and it was mom. She smiled when our gazes meet.

I told myself not to cry anymore but when I saw mom, I shed a tear. Mom quickly went towards me to give me a warm embrace. She didn't said anything and her warm embrace and presence comforted me so much.

"I didn't know that it hurts this much, it's funny." I tried to laugh while tears continue to fall from my eyes.

Mom showed a comforting smile as she wipes the tears on my cheeks. "That's because you have loved,"

Mom then looked at me with hesitation in her eyes. She looked like she wanted to say something.

"What is it, mom?"

"I don't know if I should mention his name right now... but he told me everything." Mom sighed. "He told me that he was the one at fault."

I swayed my head. "How could he do that to me, mom? he told me that he loves me, right? then why would he do such a thing like that? he just didn't lie... he cheated. and what's worse? he kept doing that while he was with me."

My eyes hurt from crying but my tears just won't stop.

"I was so stupid enough to let my feelings overrule me. I should've just take things slow and not to be carried away with what I feel... cause this has got me." I pointed my swollen eyes and laughed.

I feel shit right now.

"Then cry, curse, or punch your pillow, Iris. Release all the hurt you are feeling right now because I can't tell you when you are going to be fine." Mom took my hand to hold it. "Only you can tell when you're going to be okay. We'll just be here for you. Jayse, Jillian, and Benjamin."

A knock on my door made mom and I turn our attention towards the door. Jillian entered with Benjamin behind her. Jillian rushed to give me a hug and Benjamin was just standing near the door.

As I look at Benjamin, he was already looking at me with empathetic eyes as he faintly smiled at me.

After they had comforted me, I asked them a favor if I could, for a while, be alone in my room. They were about to leave when Jillian paused at the doorstep to look back at me.