I Hate California

thirty

"Mom?" I said into the phone right when she accepted it. It was 3 AM in the morning and I couldn't sleep from how achy I was feeling. Joe was still fast asleep, so I decided to step out of the bedroom, into the office. 

"What's wrong honey?" She asks in a raspy voice, guessing that I just woke her up. 

I sat down in Joe's chair and sighed, "I need to tell you something, feel free to call me stupid and all sorts of things because I deserve it at this point".

"Taylor, what's going on?" She questions in a much more worried tone. 

"Mom, I'm pregnant" I tell her, holding my breath, afraid of what her response is going to be. 

I heard her gasp on the other end, "Are you serious? Joe and you already had sex?", she questioned. 

I shake my head because I knew I needed to explain the whole situation to her. "Mom, come on. I'm so stupid, before Travis and I broke up, we had sex and then I also had sex with Joe. Mom, I don't know what to do", I cried. 

I held my head in my hands as I heard her breathing on the other side of the phone. I was disappointed in myself. "Okay, well first of all, don't over think it. You need to stay calm and not stress the baby out. What are you planning to do? What about your tour?", she asked.

"I'm going to continue, I have months in between of breaks, so I'll rest as much as I can. Joe and I are planning to get a test done in a couple weeks when it's available to know who the Father is. Mom, I'm so stupid" I say again. 

"Well... okay. I trust you Taylor, I trust you to do the right thing from here on out. How do you feel about being pregnant? Does Sage know?" She questions. I shook my head, Sage still doesn't know, but Joe and I actually talked about telling Sage next. 

"I have mixed feelings about it right now, but I bet it will change soon. As for Sage, she doesn't know yet, I'm scared for her reaction Mom" I confess to her. 

"Just stay calm, I know you and Joe can handle this" She tells me and I feel a little better on the whole situation. We continued to talk, changing the topics, and then we said our goodbyes since it was still so early in the morning. 

When I hung up, I just looked around the room and swiveled back and forth in Joe's chair. When I looked at the time, it read 4:15 AM. I carefully stepped out of the office, turning off the lights and stopped in front of Sage's door. I slowly pushed it open, and she was laid out across her bed, on top of her covers, cuddling Piggy. I gently got her situated under the covers and tucked her in, leaving her one arm out and snuggled Piggy closer to her, giving her a kiss on the forehead before I headed out. 

When I stepped back into the bedroom, Joe was awake looking right at me. "What's wrong?", he asked in a soft voice.

I shook my head, getting under the covers and he pulled me into his arms. "Just got off the phone with my Mom, talked to her about everything going on", I explained.

He nodded and kissed my head, "She okay?".

I nodded my head and just stared into space. I don't think I would be able to sleep anymore. Looking up at Joe, I don't think he had any intentions of falling back asleep too. He turned on the T.V., lowering the volume as low it could go with us still being able to hear and I just stayed cuddled in his arms as his hand rubbed over my stomach.  

After watching re runs of many different shows, we had settled on now watching Frozen for some reason. I looked through the windows, seeing the sun starting to come up. When I looked at the time it read 6 AM and I sighed, thinking about how tired I could be later today. I looked up at Joe who smiled at me and gave me a kiss on the nose, which I returned. That's when we heard movement in the hallway and the door handle began to turn. The door was forcefully pushed opened with a very sleepy looking Sage who was wrapped in her blanket and Piggy was dragged by it's little tail.