"But where should we go? We can't stay here, not after what I've done. " I look at him worriedly, knowing that we're together. Everything will be fine. It's four days until we can go back to Hogwarts. What are we going to do until then? Tom looks around the living room, and he realizes the amount of destruction that's been caused by my magic. It would indeed be dangerous to stay here for much longer, as there is a risk that I will lose control all over again. He speaks to me quietly, and he seems to have a plan to take us both somewhere much safer. "We'll need to leave this house for now, just to give you a chance to control yourself. I have some contacts who can set us up with a safe house where we can stay for the next few days."
"Who exactly are you thinking of?" I say with a serious look and assume it's about his Knights of Walpurgis. As they're called at Hogwarts. "I have some very trusted contacts in the Knights of Walpurgis who can help us here." He looks at me with a reassuring look and he speaks softly "They will be able to assist us in keeping us calm and safe, and they will help us plan out our next steps for gaining revenge against those who caused your mother's death." I sigh and nod gently. Tom's right. Maybe they're the only ones who can help us, and maybe they can help us find my mother's killers. I take Tom's hand, and we set off immediately. We both headed out of the house and set off to one of the Knights' houses that had been arranged for us to stay in. The drive there is quiet, as we both are trying to process the events of the day. We soon arrive at the house where the Knights are ready to welcome us. It seems like they were expecting us already, and they quickly direct us inside. It's actually Evans Rosier's house. But the others are there too, Mulciber, Avery, Nott and Enzo Lestrange is also there. I haven't spoken to him since the Yule Ball and his... fight with Tom. I nod to everyone and don't say a word. Tom greets his boys, and they start drinking whiskey. Barely age, there are already no limits. I join them but keep quiet. Enzo sits down next to me and offers me a whiskey, which I gratefully accept. Maybe it's just what I need because I still can't realize what's happened to me. It was as if I didn't have my magic under control. The fact scares me, especially because I hurt Tom in the process. The boys seem to be enjoying themselves in the company of each other, and they don't seem to be bothered by the fact that I'm not very talkative at the moment. Enzo seems to be very interested in me, and he's trying to get my attention. He probably wants to talk to me or perhaps even try to get with me. Tom doesn't seem to notice this yet, as he is busy talking to Mulciber and Avery. The whiskey seems to be working, and that feeling of rage that has been inside of me all day seems to be beginning to ease. I understand why they spend so much time together. They share the same interests, humor, and goals. But they all have one thing in common, they adore Tom as much as I do. He is the leader, the role model. He shows them the way, and they all listen to his word, his engaging manner has not only captivated me. Enzo tries to engage me in conversation until Tom gives him a certain look, whereupon Enzo immediately backs away and sits back down with the others. I roll my eyes slightly and continue drinking from my glass. Tom obviously still has a strong hold over the boys, as seen by how Enzo immediately backs away when Tom gives him a warning look. The boys all seem to respect Tom, and they all have a strong bond with him. I notice how Enzo now feels a bit embarrassed, and he sits back down with the others. It seems like this is a group of rather tough and fierce boys, but they all listen to Tom without question. Tom's gaze is still on me when I roll my eyes, but he doesn't say anything about it.
At some point, I leave the boys and go out into the fresh air. The house has a small sheltered balcony where no one can see me from outside. I light a cigarette and look up at the night sky. I've never actually smoked, but my mother, I took them of our...her house. After a few minutes, Tom comes outside, astonished by my cigarette, and gently puts his arm around me. Tom seems surprised to see me smoke, considering I have never done it before. He seems a bit shocked and concerned, but he tries to put on a calming demeanor. He gently puts his arm around me, and he looks me straight in the eyes with a soft and comforting expression. "You shouldn't be smoking...why did you start? Are you trying to calm yourself down?"
"It doesn't matter anyway. You guys smoke in there all the time." I shrug my shoulders and take another drag. Tom grins slightly and seems amused by my manner. The cigarette seems to be helping me in some way, as the feeling of fury and rage within me is starting to calm down a bit. He chuckles slightly, taking a deep breath as I take another drag. "You have quite an attitude."
"Like that's something new," I say, pulling up slightly and grinning briefly. Tom seems relieved that a smile can cross my lips too. "I saw the look you gave Enzo." He answers my question about Enzo, and his tone is slightly annoyed."Of course, I was annoyed. He was trying to flirt with you, and that pissed me off. I'm glad that my look put him straight back into his place." I shake my head and turn to him."He wasn't trying to flirt with me." His jealousy annoys me, and at the same time, I know he'll always be so possessive of me. I think for a moment and breathe the smoke into the cold air.
"He wasn't trying to flirt with you?" Tom's voice is full of disbelief as he looks at me. His jealousy and possessiveness have clearly been triggered by me talking to Enzo, and it seems like he doesn't believe me.
"It doesn't matter anyway, you know I don't want him." I stub out my cigarette and look at Tom,"and yet it's difficult between us, I don't even know what we are. Not friends but not a couple either... nevertheless, I'm grateful to you for saving me from myself."
Tom's possessive and jealous attitude is clearly showing, and he's still having a hard time believing what I had said about Enzo. His face softens a bit as I mention that I'm grateful. He smiles and replies softly. "We've always been something more than friends. We're like a couple, but without the title. We'll never be just friends. I care way too much about you to see you that way."
I nod in agreement because I know that I could never see him as just a friend either. Even now, in all the pain and despair, he has an incredible attraction. And yet, a lot has happened, and my feelings are incredibly mixed up. I take a step towards him, and my heart races. I'd love nothing more than to be his again, but I'm afraid to get fully involved again. We stand opposite each other, and I can feel his breath. Tom's own feelings for me are still very strong, and he feels drawn to me in this moment. He realizes how close we are, and our hearts are beating in sync. He can feel my breath as I stand there in front of him, looking deep into each other's eyes. The silence is deafening, as neither of us is willing to speak and ruin the moment. My eyes sparkle with pain and sadness, even though I'm also feeling an intense attraction towards him. I turn around and walk towards the balcony door to go back inside. Tom quickly grabs my arm and turns me back towards him, I look at him in irritation, then he pulls my head towards him with his hand and kisses me. It feels like it's been ages, and we both know that we belong together. My whole body is filled with a rush of pure adrenaline and the feeling of pure passion as he kisses me. It feels like we have been disconnected from this world, with nothing and nobody else but each other. It feels like it has been ages since I've felt this close to Tom. He breaks the kiss slowly, looking at me as if he wants to say something else. Our hearts beat together, and my breath comes quickly. Tom gently breaks the kiss when he realizes that objects are floating around us. Everything that wasn't nailed down on the balcony is now floating in the air, and when I notice it, I don't dare take my eyes off Tom because I can't understand it. He has triggered such intense emotions in me that I have lost control again. I take a step back, and everything falls gently back to the floor. "I'm sorry..." I say quietly in a trembling voice.
The intensity of the moment was too much for me, and it triggered my abilities. Tom seems to quickly realize this, and he looks at me with an intense expression of concern. He moves closer to me as I take a step back, and he speaks softly. "You don't have to apologize. I'm impressed. "
"Really? Doesn't it scare you?" Tom looks at me fascinated, as if he's proud of my power and fascinated at the same time.
"It doesn't scare me. It amazes me. Your power is so powerful and incredible, and...I never would've imagined that you could cause such a strong reaction within you. It's almost as if you become completely unhinged when you get those kinds of feelings. All of those powerful emotions were causing you to lose control, but I'm honestly fascinated by the power that you have" He speaks softly and he's now looking at me with a sense of intrigue and admiration.
Then he says, "You have no idea what we could create together. What we could achieve. Our powers combined...this could be something big. " I look at him with wide eyes. This man... he's just something special. Determined and passionate. At the same time, he looks at me as if he adores me, and my weaknesses are his strengths.
"Imagine the power that we could have. Both of our abilities combined would make us an unstoppable force. No one would be able to stand in our way. It would be something truly remarkable and something that would change the world as we know it, " He says with a serious tone and a passionate look in his eyes. He's not only talking about my powers, but he's also talking about the two of us as a couple. How strong we could be together and how unstoppable we would be. A true pairing of power and passion.
I don't say anything, because I don't know what to say. He wants to be with me again, tell everyone that I'm his..but I'm not ready yet. Tom doesn't seem to notice that I'm not ready yet, and he seems to read my silence as more than just indifference. He speaks again in a passionate and eager tone. "We'll be unstoppable. The two of us together will change the world. It's like we were meant to be, together, as two halves of the same whole. Our abilities combined would be truly devastating. I want to be with you, and I want us to be powerful together." He seems to be filled with ideas and possibilities about what the two of us could do together.
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Tom Riddle - Downfall
Fanfiction"The monsters were never under my bed. Because the monsters were inside my head. Because all this time the monster has been me." This is the Story of Tom Riddle and his life in Hogwarts when he was 17 and Lucia Grey, a popular girl from Slytherin bu...
