Knowing Asher

Chapter|69|

I winced as I tried to get up from the floor. My whole body aches, and the painting was the first thing that caught my eyes. I scanned my surroundings, realizing I slept by it.

That explained the pain I was feeling.
Then, the void in my heart, which made everything that happened yesterday replay in my head.

I really did break up with him, I was hoping it was a dream I was going to wake up from. I got up with so much difficulty and stretched my body. I craned my neck to the side to relax the muscles.

I walked to my wardrobe to choose an outfit for the day. I chose a black hoodie and leggings pairing it up with a black ankle boot.

I walked outside and headed to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and glanced at my reflection in the mirror. I looked the same, but my eyes displayed the sadness I felt inside. Nothing has changed, but my emotions were all over the place.

It didn't help that I also felt a pain in my lower abdomen.

Just my luck!

I stripped down to my baby suit and turned on the shower. The water cascaded down my face, and a thought came to my mind.

Nobody knows we weren't together again.

I was the one that's going to tell my friends.

I was the one who would suffer the mockery from our peers.

They will go on and on about how they predicted we wouldn't last. I was the one who would be made fun of.

I was the one who would suffer humiliation because they would not believe I actually broke up with him.

This just got worse.

I turned it off and didn't even bother washing my hair. I dried myself and went back to my room. I grabbed my tampon kit and applied it. I put on the outfit. The braids looked good on me, and I still couldn't pinpoint why I wanted that. I was just eager to change everything like it would make this pain go away. I so badly want to skip school, but I already missed a lot of classes. It will be so unfortunate if they actually remove me from the list.

Making all this be for nothing!

I headed to the kitchen, grateful I didn't have to face my mom so early. I grabbed an apple from the fruit bowl and sauntered back to my room. I forced myself to eat the apple since I had already lost my appetite. I grabbed my bag and closed the door behind me. I walked to the bus stop with my AirPods plugged in. I took my seat on the bus and tuned out of everything. I let the heartbreaking song envelope me, and I felt another wave of tears coming up. I blinked it back and put the hood over my head.

I got down from my spot and walked to school. I hope I don't have to face my friends now because they would surely ask questions. I didn't want anyone to find out.

Why did you break up with him?

It was the most logical thing to do, or so I thought. I approached the entrance and made a beeline for my locker.I couldn't fight the urge to release a grunt as I saw my friends standing right by it.

Why can't I just not do this today?

"Hey girl," Amanda greeted, and I responded with a wave.

"We didn't see you or Asher yesterday. Did you guys go somewhere private?" Angela asked, wiggling her eyebrows, and I scoffed internally.

"I have to tell you guys something," I started. "Can we go to an empty class?"I asked, and they nodded, plastering a worry look on.

We entered a class and I leaned on the door. "You guys should not freak out, but I have got bad news," I said.