Knowing Asher

Chapter|55|

I wiped up the sweat building up on my forehead and kept pushing forward. I enjoy running and it helps me calm my nerves. Since I couldn't really afford the gym training, I do this instead to help me keep my shape. I love listening to music when I do this. I stopped to catch my breath for a sec and gulped down a bit of water from my water bottle. I glanced around my familiar neighborhood and smiled.

I checked my map to see I was thirty minutes away from home. I started sprinting again and wiped the sweat on my face. I am already dreaming of the shower I am going to take after this. My wet hair kept slapping against my back making me cringe. I was thankful for the small breeze blowing in my direction.

Love Yourself by Justin Bieber came up and I sang along in my head.

I love this guy because his songs always touches the heart. This was the perfect way to spend my Saturday morning.

I settled down on the grass overlooking the small park. I watched children playing around with their parents even though it was still a bit early to be doing something like that. A smile creeped onto my face as my memories replayed in my head. I was once like that, you have that innocent mind and don't know how bad the world is. To you, life was a bed of roses but when you grow up. The bitter truth of life kicks in and you learn to survive. You build yourself up from experience. You find out that fairytale is only common in movies. Life is far from that. You face a lot of problems as you grow up but it is good to learn from your mistakes so you don't make them again. I was traumatized when I was young because I always behaved like Miss know it all. Teachers loved me but my classmates hated me for it. Calling me names but I was glad when I transferred to Starlight High.

I remembered I was scared that it was going to be no difference and might be worse. That is because I wasn't even in the social status of the people attending the school. I love my friends to death! They showed me what true friendship was. I learnt to not let people walk over me. I don't show them my fear even though I was shitting inside. That confuses them and makes them think twice before approaching me. I loved how I talk back at Katrina and always having the last word. I learnt to stand up for myself so that history wouldn't repeat itself. Some people take pleasure in making other people feel bad about themselves because it makes them feel good. Some even go as far into body shaming others so as to make them lose their self esteem. You lose yourself and start feeling bad about your body.

Believing you are all that they refer to you which messes with someone's mental health. The best thing is to always feel good and stand up for yourself. Katrina does it all the time but I make sure to give her a better comeback.

I love myself the way I am and no shitty person can make me feel otherwise.
I stood up and started the jog back home.
Feeling more refreshed because I haven't done this in a while. The shower sounded good right now and I couldn't wait to get home.

I was surprised to see who was standing on my front porch. "Ash?"I called making the person turn to me.

"Morning cupcake"he flashed me his million dollar smile which was too much for my poor heart.

"Uhm. What are you doing here?" I asked and wiped my face. I am sure I look like a mess right now. My hair sticking to my face and my pores releasing sweat at a fast rate. "Can't I come see you again?"he said crossing his arms over his chest looking at me with amusement evident in his eyes. "Nope! I wasn't just expecting to see you right now. What am I saying? Just come in" I said stopping myself from blurting out more embarrassing myself.
I moved up and quickly unlock the door.

"I need to take a shower" I said and headed to the bathroom.

I brushed my teeth and took a long relaxing shower. I washed my hair with my strawberry shampoo. I wrapped a towel around my body and my hair.
Oh no!