Not Me!

House Visit

Edward's POV

"Edward!" Alice slammed the door to my room open and stormed in. Jasper followed behind her like a lost puppy needing her aid.

I couldn't care less for what she had to say. Right now, I felt like my soul had shattered in two. Actually, more than that, there are more pieces than I can count.

(Y/N) had abandoned me on that field to suffer. They left to study. I could hardly understand that at all. We had been studying together every time that we needed to since we got together.

They even said that it would help them focus on being apart. My salvation, my paradise, has been ripped from my hands like it was never mine in the first place.

I could make myself leave my room for days since the dreaded incident. I would rather discover a way to rot in my room before hearing them say that ever again. They would come back to me in due time.

It felt like agony to be away from them now even. But I held myself together like taped-up glass shards.

"Edward, are you stupid?!" Alice started up with me.

"I'm not," I muttered. I couldn't find it to want to argue that much. Leaving Forks would make me even farther from (Y/N), and I couldn't do that.

I would die for sure. If I had any hope for salvation, to live happily, I wanted to be by their side.

"You might be the dumbest vampire that I have ever met. Do you not think about living at all?" Alice glared at me.

"I'm not alive without (Y/N)." My voice sounded far away, even to myself.

"Okay, Lover boy." Alice pulled on my arm to force me to stand. "Pack your stuff." She shoved me into my shelves of vinyl records, CDs, and books. The shelves crashed down, with my things toppling out like an avalanche at the force.

"No, I'm not leaving." I stood firm with my decision.

Jasper's POV

His emotions for his lover are still as strong as ever. My attempt the first time didn't work. But I will try again to get it to work.

I focused on him, bringing my head down slightly and tampering with his emotions to make him feel guilty for his actions and feelings.

I tweaked with his love to go down a peg or two. I could feel it working on him. A grin grew on my face in my success. He's as stubborn as a newborn out for human blood with his devotion to (Y/N).

It should be enough to get him to come along with us so that we could go without causing any harm. I will win this battle.

Edward's POV

"Do you want them to die, Edward?! What if people find out that they know? We need to leave!" Alice yelled at me. She grew more frustrated with me by the second.

That struck me; I never expected those words to come from anybody. I didn't even expect that from her, of all people. To see or know that (Y/N) is gone because of my hands felt like someone carved a hole into my chest. I wouldn't want them to get hurt in a million years, not again.

"Fine, I'll go. Just leave my room, and I'll pack up my things." I admitted defeat to Alice and Jasper.

Alice gave me a long, silent stare as if she tried to see into my mind for lies. After a second or more, she twisted on her heel and left the room with Jasper. Jasper glanced over his shoulder, too, like he was a drill sergeant ensuring that I got things done.

I watched him go as I wrapped my mind around how I cracked. Alice's words were profound to me. The thought alone brought me dread. Pain and Illness are something that I hope (Y/N) doesn't feel for a long time.

Packing could wait for now. I wanted to visit (Y/N). My feet quickly moved until I got to their house. From the last I heard, they were studying something.

I knocked on their bedroom window when I climbed up. The curtains were closed with the lights off on the other side. Did they not study here? Why were the lights off?

They did not open the window for me. It felt peculiar not to have them opening their window for me.

Remembering what Alice said to me made me worry. They could be hurt somewhere in the house and not able to respond to me. It would be hell on earth to see them that way.

I have failed them with James, and I swore to myself that I wouldn't do that again. My death would be more relaxing than to see them suffer. I would do it over and over again for them.

I needed to search their house from top to bottom. The savage attack against them played repeatedly in my mind like on a reel.

They lay unconscious in the mud with blood trickling from their shoulder. Rain washed the dark red blood into the mud below. James had been nothing more than a savage, ravenous beast that night. 

I knew the pain that they must have felt. Even while unconscious, they convulsed and screamed in pain. It echoed in my mind like an alarm.

It felt like a wake-up call. I could never leave their side, especially in moments like that. They needed me that night, and I came to them late.

My life would be meaningless if I didn't notice for a while longer. They would be dead, and Carlisle would say it's an animal attack on the police force.

I tore him apart limb from limb. Anger is all I can feel at that moment. He suffered as much as I could get him to, but it would never be enough.

It would never happen again. They will not feel pain at the hands of a vampire ever again.
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