Shattered [Niall Horan]

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

// Brianna

As the warm water stream emanated from the shower-head glided down my body, I stood there still with my eyelids sealed, trying to rid my brain of all the strain and memories from the past day. That certain face never left my thoughts, repeatedly reminding me of everything that had been happening between us starting from the night before. A flood of memories conquered my brain, as I guided my fingers across my lips, a flutter arousing in my stomach at the mere remembrance of his touch.

Those illusive flashbacks were finally beginning to sink in and I was starting to realise it had all actually happened. He really did kiss me.. twice. Like, fighting with my affections everytime I saw him wasn't enough, now he seemed to be determined to make everything even worse for me.

The glint and the emotion in his eyes when he said he didn't regret anything, made me want to believe him. It made me want believe that he felt the same way about me.. felt all that I felt. But I cannot get carried away, nor can I get blinded by this new attire his behaviour has put on. He can never be mine, and I have taught myself very well, to live with this fact.

He was supposed to marry her, be a Dad, and have the perfect family. Where do I fit in into all this? 

That's easy - Nowhere.

Pushing the shower tap close, I grabbed a towel and dried myself before wrapping it around me and stepping out of the wet tub. I had wished to wash away all the thoughts of Niall in that long shower, relax my mind and not stress about anything anymore, at least for a while, but I could sense very well how I had failed in achieving any of that.

Frustrated, I made my way to the closet to grab some comfortable clothing to wear. I had yet a phone call to make to that guy, who had me completely muddled and helpless since the last day, and let him know I wouldn't be going anywhere with him tonight. Hurting him was the last thing I ever wanted to do, but this was something I had to and absolutely needed to do.

As I put on the clothes and plugged in the hair-dryer to dry my dribbing hair, someone rang the main doorbell. Dread and nervousness enveloped me entirely as I glanced at the desk clock on the bed-stand. It was only 6.02 p.m. Why was he here already?

My reluctant feet carried me down the flight of stairs to the door, my heart shrivelling at the thought of upsetting him. Breathing in an air of courage, I swung the door open, all prepared to witness his hurtful expression when I'd refuse his offer to go anywhere with him.

"Niall I-" I stopped speaking the very second I started, because the person at the door wasn't the one I was expecting. "Lilly?" I was in fact more relieved than surprised.

"Yeah, seems like you were expecting someone else.. Sorry 'bout the disappointment." She smirked.

"Oh c'mon Lills, get in!" I brushed her remark off.

"A date with him, or what?" She questioned, following me into the kitchen.

"I'm not going anywhere." I answered. "You want coffee?"

"Sure," She chimed.

I placed down two mugs on the counter and started filling them with hot water from the kettle.

"Oh my gosh, did you make these?" She suddenly exclaimed.

I turned around to see her nibbling from one of the chocolate cupcakes I had made earlier that morning before leaving for work. "Yeah I bake whenever I'm free." I told her.

"Really Brynn, you should've worked in the culinary industry! This has got to be one of the most delicious cupcakes I've ever tasted! " She exaggerated, whilst munching on her chocolate treat. "Niall must love them," She added, giggling to herself.