The Forgotten Black

Fear and Torture

The next day

Estrella pov

After my classes I head to the dungeons with my two new bodyguards - Sirius and James. I stop in front of the entrance to the Slytherin common room.

"What are you waiting for, let's get this over with," Sirius says.

"You know I can't let you in, it's the rule that Dumbledore himself told me on the first day last year, no telling the other houses about each other," I say.

"I know I know. I just really don't like the idea of you being alone with that asshole," Sirius says.

"Yeah, same here we could just sneak in with my invisibility cloak," James starts but I am already shaking my head.

"You don't belong in the Slytherin common room just like they don't belong in the Gryffindor common room beside Snape has never hurt me, never tortured me," I say slowing down towards the end realising that he never hurt me or at least never hurt me intentionally.

"Just because he hasn't done it before doesn't mean he won't start now, you now how they are thinking they are all mighty, fucking filthy Slytherin's," Sirius says.

"I happen to be one of them and believe me no one knows better how they are than one of their own me, and us snakes protected each other don't you dare talk about them like that now, leave," I say.

"You are as much a Gryffindor as you are a Slytherin, don't forget that, there will come the time where you need to choose between the two," James says.

"Choose between the two," I ask in a whisper tone. There is no way I could choose. I belong in both houses in both worlds, I love doing mischief with the Gryffindors but I was born and raised in the Pureblood world.

"Yes anyway just be on alert with him," Sirius says dismissively, not noticing my inner dilemma.

"Alright I'll see you tomorrow during breakfast, lunch and dinner," I say.

"Oh yeah you're in Slytherin house tomorrow," James says.

"Mhmm say hi to the rest for me," I say.

"Will do," Sirius responds and the two of them walk away. I say the password and enter the common room to see Snape already waiting.

"Took you a while," he says.

"Sorry it was kind of difficult getting rid of my new bodyguards," I say, being polite for now after all he agreed to teach me occlumency.

"New bodyguards?" he questions.

"James and Sirius," I say.

"Should have known," he mutters.

"Alright follow me," Snape says and I follow him to his dorm.

"Firstly do you know what occlumency is," he asks.

"Yes, it's a skill that, when probably mastered, can stop people from entering your mind," I answer and Snape nods in approval.

"Now to master the skill of occlumency you need to discipline your mind and control your emotions," Snape says.

"Control your emotions, I can do that," I say, I mean it's what I basically do on a daily basis in the Pureblood world.

"Legilimens," Snape casts. I fight him off concentrating on concealing my emotions and it works but he keeps putting more and more power into the spell until it starts to become painful to keep him out of my mind. All I want to do is let him in but I fight against that and keep him out. Finally he stops the spell and that's when I realise that I'm sweating and breathing heavily.