how could you help me ..

tw 16

Han was lying there on his bed, not knowing what to do. It's been twenty minutes since he had dinner with his mom, brother, and her date. His stomach still feels full.

He was scrolling on his phone when he saw a video on TikTok that caught his eye. It was a video of someone's weight loss. The video wasn't that viral and had only a couple of likes. Han looked at the video, and his eyes widened. The person lost so much weight in such a short time. It makes him jealous, really jealous.

At the end of the video, there was a link to a Snapchat group. Han hesitates for a moment but then clicks on the link and is transferred to a group. He checked it and scrolled to some previous chats where people did body check-ups, and oh my god, they looked skinny. Like literally skin and bones.

It wasn't the best thing to look at but it gave him a bit of comfort...? he tried to ignore it and looked at the 'healthy' tips they wrote down.

While he was reading some chats, he got a friend request. Han accepted it, and the person started to write to him. He saw that it was a person from the group.

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hey there                                                                   

Han 

Hii

I'm from the weight loss group.
just so you know, it's  an unhealthy one

 yeah, it's okay. i do weight loss, unhealthy, but I started new 

ohh so do you want to be wl buddies?

wl buddies?

Yeah, just like we do weight check, body check up, meal prep etc.

 We can do that, of course 

okay. do you do like p/rge? 

p/rge? what's that?

Purging. you know with the fingers

Oh yeah, I've heard of it... Doesn't it hurt?

No, and it's actually simple. calories in calories out

Han chatted with that person for what felt like hours, which was ten minutes. He won't go into much detail, but the person has taught him many many things to use while losing weight. He told him about mechanisms he can use like chew and spit, water fasting, purging, etc.

It was a bit unusual for him, but having a wl buddy gave him the motivation to lose even more weight.

Han told him that he ate dinner even though he didn't want to. The person, whose name is Mark, told him he could try to purge. Han didn't know what to do. It seemed like a scary thing to do, but Mark assured him it was nothing big to worry about.

After some time, han stood up and went to the kitchen first and ate a bite of a banana. mark told him you can't purge easily after 30 minutes of eating nothing and just to make it less painful and fast, he should eat a bite of something small.

trigger warning purging!!!

He did as Mark told him and went upstairs to the bathroom. First, he turned on the sink water, so his mother to not hear him gag, then knees beside the bathroom. He stared at his hand, which was shaking.