how could you help me ..

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"Explain now," said seungmin as he crossed his arms, looking at han.

And han, who was looking really nervous. He hid his arm behind his back, trying to think about a lie, but nothing came

"I..i im...this is uhm...its just some sauc-"
He tried to come up with anything, but seungmin interrupted him.

"What are you telling me? Some fucking sauce? Han jisung" he came close and held his wrist. "I Fight with people and have seen blood multiple times in my life. This is not any kind of sauce. This. Is. Blood."

Han flinched when seungmin held his wrist. It didn't hurt at all, but some memories are spiking up. Bad memories.

And before anything happens, han had tears welling up in his eyes. His throat was getting itchy, and he couldn't say anything.

It hurts really

"Han..." seungmin just took han in his embrance, hugging him tight. Seungmin felt his shirt getting wet, probably because of han crying. He slowly let go after some minutes and looked at his eyes.

"Come on... let's get you another hoodie and well talk later." Said Seungmin as he let go and looked for a hoodie in one of the drawers.

Han stood there, just sniffing and trying to calm himself down. He hid his arm behind his back, scratching it through the hoodie.

Oh look what you have done you dumb bitch. What is he going to think now? That your a fucking baby who slits themselves open because of some 'small pain' ? You disgust me really.

But alteast felixs hoodie fits you.

Han was just starting at seungmin, biting his lip, letting his thoughts torture him by every following second.

"Here," seungmin handed han a hoodie and turned around, respecting his privacy. Han dressed up fast and put the hoodie in his bag when Auntie called them.

"BOYS WERE LEAVING COME DOWNSTAIRS!" she screamed, and seungmin went to open the door, holding it open for han.

Seungmin looks at han as he walks downstairs beside him and caresses his hair. "It's going to be okay, I promise."

Han only nods. He was happy for seungmin to carry for him but was scared about how their friendship was going to turn into.

Is seungmin going to be like really protective from now on? Is he going to ask him a million questions? Or is he just going to drop it off and play as if nothing happened.

No, seungmin wouldn't let something drop and never talk about it.
Doesn't seem like this seungmin.

They all three got into the car. Changbin on the left side seungmin in the middle and han on the right. Changbin starres at seungmin as he puts on his seatbelt.

"Ayy seungmin...don't you hate to sit in the middle? Like I've never ever seen you sit there, " asked Changbin as he put his small bag under his feet

"Changed my mind. I don't care. And those rules only apply when we both bicker around who sit in the middle or window seat." Answered seungmin who put on his own seatbelt and did it for han, even though han didn't ask for it. Maybe he saw han struggling, but whi knows what's happening in that brain of seungmins.

It was a long drive. Aunty was driving and hearing music front. Changbin was writing in his diary (about felix). Seungmin was holding han's hand, caressing his own thumb over han's slowly drawing patterns or only nugging it over and over.

Han had his head rested on seungmins' shoulder sleeping. Sleeping from the hunger and sleeping from being scared about seungmin. The way he was mad, angry, concerned, confused, sad, and much more emotions that made han cry inside

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"Han, wake up were here,"

Han was slowly woken up by seungmin shaking him. Han wined and tried to nuzzle on seungmin, but when he realised what he was doing, he sat up straight and opened his eyes widen.

He looked around and saw that they were on a big parking lot. He remembered that place, and with that, he got out of his car and rushed inside with the others.

Han was nervous and anxious. He will meet Felix again. Oh God.

Everyone went to the waiting place as lots of people came out and in. Han even remembered some of them, and they looked happier than before.

Han waited impatent. He was biting on his lip that it was bleeding out, but he didn't care. He was walking back and forth. He didn't care about the people thinking he was weird since his thoughts were already doing it.

Han felt someone touching his shoulder. It was changbin. "Calm down he is not going to fly away or something,"

Han chuckles a bit, and that when he heard it. His friend felix called him from the end of the corridor. Han runned to Felix, not carrying about other people, and hugged him.

Tears rolled down his cheeks. He couldn't handle it anymore. He was sobbing and couldn't control it

"Han. Hey Han, it's okay it's okay, " hugged Han tight back and walked him to the others. He gave seungmin and his mom a small hug, and when he stopped, he gave him a really tight hug blushing.

"Hey," said changbin

"Hi," answered felix with his face turning red.

They looked really cute, two boys blushing while hugging each other.

Han then suddenly was being held by seungmin from behind. He tried not to care, but then some memories came, and he flinched.

Seungmin realised it and let go fast from the hug. He looked at him but saw the discomfort in his eyes and didn't ask much about it.

The rest of the day was heavenly for han. They went out to go shopping and went eating, and han, of course, didn't let it all in his stomach (purged it) and tried to enjoy the time together.

They let hyunjin go with them, and he was really kind to everyone, and of course, lots to seungmin. They spend most of the time together talking and laughing together.

As they all went to the elevator, it stopped, and there was a maximum small alarm. Too many people were on the elevator, and hans mind went crazy.

He was the one who made the elevator stop because of how heavy he was. It's all his fault.

"I'm going out. I'll take the other one it's okay," said han as he stepped out of the elevator, and surprisingly, it closed.

Han stood there holding himself together, crossing his arms. He felt all eyes on him. It was wierd Really wierd

That's when he felt someone beside him. A present beside him. Han looks slightly to his right and, surprisingly, the handsome nurse from last time.

He didn't change much, but he was still a bit muscular since he last saw him. He wore the usual while outfit, and his hair would sometimes still fall on the way of his eyes.

Han probably starred at him for quite some time because the man cleared his throat, which made han flinch and look down.

Tye elevator door opened no one was inside, and han was with him alone. Oh, how lucky he was.
/sarcasm .

Han avoided eye contact as the elevator started to move up. Itvwas wierd but han really wanted to get out of this asap.

But he really didn't plan for what to happen next.