how could you help me ..

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"Ohmg han, I missed you. I missed you so damn, " said Felix as he was literally squeezing han

"..Felix...I cant breath..Felix..." han was punching Felix's back softly trying to make him move, but fails sadly.

It needed two people to take Felix apart from han, which were changbin and seungmin.

"Felix'i calm down there. He isn't going to die," said changbin as he held felix from behind and not letting go.

They were arguing for a bit. Han looks behind, trying to find someone. But that someone was already away. He was sad since he thought he wasn't going to see him again.

But he only thought

"I'm going to miss you all... please come visit me again," said felix in tears as he hugged everyone.

Some were crying, and some were really sad. Changbin didn't cry in front of Felix (but he did in the car)
Seungmin didn't cry in front of Felix (but he was in a bad mood)
Auntie cried in front of felix
And han cried infront of Felix and in the car.

Han cried for two hours. Two. Full. Hours.

What a lucky boy he lost over 150 calories for crying.

"Han... Han wake up were here,"

Han whined, "Five minutes.." he snuggled himself more into that soft pillow beside him, and it even smelled nice...it smelled like

Seungmin

Han opened his eyes as fast as the wind and pulled away from him.

"I-im sorry omg I-"

"Don't apologize when I didn't ask you to. Now go out were at my place, " said seungmin as he pushed him out of the car.

Han went out confused and stood there, still half asleep.

"Huh?" Why are they at seungmins place? Why isn't han at his home?

Pulled him inside, where he took off his shoes. Seungmin looks at him, seeing the confused and still sleepy face. He starts to chuckle a bit.

"You're staying at my place. I talked with your mom, and she said yes, so hop hop go upstairs. I'll come later with some food, " that's what seungmin said before going to the kitchen.

Han was still processing things but still went upstairs to seungmins' room. His room had a chill vibe and was really comfy. He flops on the bed, not having any more energy to do anything.

After a while, seungmin came with a tray that had two bowls of noodle salad.

Noodles, ew. Thought han as seungmin put the tray on the table and sat beside him on the bed.

"You look dead,"

Han mumbles something unclear.

"Speak up, I can't understand a word," said seungmin as he got himself a bowl of noodles.

Han sits up and looks at seungmin, then to the plate. He really didn't want to eat that. "I said I am dead,"

Seungmin starres at him and gets the other bowl, handing it into han's hands.

Han looked at his plate but didn't try one bit, only staring at it

"The food isn't going to jump into your mouth by staring at it... you need to hold the fork and nom nom," said seungmin as he continued to eat.

Han still starred at the food, not even saying anything. He was trying to estimate the amount of calories in had in it and oh how much it does.

Finally, seungmin noticed han not really eating and put his bowl down, looking at him. "Hey, earth on han. Why won't you eat?"

Han went back to reality and looked up to seungmin. "Huh oh ah..I im not hungry, you know.."

Seungmin just starred at han. "You're joking? I hear your stomach growing all the way here. Han, you make me worry. "

Han chuckles nervously and starts to eat a bite slowly. The bad thing is that it tastes so good it makes han feel like throwing up.

As han was eating (trying to eat), he felt stares at him. Starres that would drill holes into him.

"Can you not starre at me..please?" Asked Han in a nice way, not trying to be pissed.

But seungmin only starred at him. He was checking him out and looking really suspicious about something.

After han finished eating, he asked to go to the bathroom and was about to stand up when seungmin held his wrist tightly. He wasn't letting go and not planning to.

Han looked at him a bit sweaty. "Seungmin, i need to use the bathr-"

"No, you don't. Sit down, we need to have a talk, han."

Han froze for a couple of seconds but did sit down immediately. He knew seungmin would talk with him about it one day, and he couldn't push it away anymore.

Seungmin sighs and tries to find eye contact with han. He still held his wrist and pulled the sleeve of the hoodie.

Seungmin wasn't the best with words nor touch, even though he tried his best, but something would fail. There are small gestures that he would always try to do and make the others' moods slightly  better than it was.

"Can I see?" He asked his voice softer than before. He is trying his best to be as calm as possible.

Han here is trying his best not to have a breakdown. Some of his scars were fresh, and he didn't know what to do. He trusted seungmin yeah ofcourse but what will he think of him?

When seungmin didn't get an answerhe still tried and pulled the sleeve up, slowly searching for hesitation from han.

But han didn't hesitate to remove his hand. He was just frozen, waiting for what to happen. Han closed his eyes, waiting for seungmin to Finnish off.

Seungmin pulled the sleeve up and saw the scars some old some new. He tried to hide his concern, but it was too much to handle.

"Han...oh God this...wait," seungmin stood up and went to open a drawer. He looked inside. He got some bandages and a scar cream.

They didn't talk at all. Seungmin cleaned his wound without hurting him much and put the bandages around. He wasn't going to ask him much about it. It would be too much for han at the moment.

But they continued to make the day still less comfortable than it was. They played video games and did homework. 

Before they lay down to sleep, seungmin asked something, "Those scars...something happened han. If you need someone to talk to, im here. Even though I can't find words, I listen well. "

Those words hit han hard, and he just nooded. He really wanted to tell him, but not now. It was too much to handle.

"I will...I promise... just wait, and I'll tell you everything. I trust you,"

And with that, both of them went to sleep.