It was the second day staying at nanaa's and appa's place, and to be honest, han enjoyed it, really. Talking with his grandma and helping his grandpa. Like old times .
It was a day when naana had the party for the anniversary. People who were at an older age were attending it. Han didn't recognise all of them but only a few from the past.
He helped his grandma clean the place,and of course, yonwoo helped a lot and wasn't lazy all the time, but good for han, he can help and burn extra calories.
His mother put some small snacks like nuts, chips like crisps, of course fruits, chocolate and a big cake. But why does his grandma need a new cake they already had one yesterday, except for han, of course.
The place looked clean and had a lot of cute decorations really pretty.
As time went on, han went to the bathroom. He finished up, and when he was about to leave, he saw a scale . It's been a long time since he weighed himself.
He pulled the scale and stepped on it.
Oh
My
God
57.kg.
He was shocked. Since when did he lose that much?? Was it because of the restrictions? Maybe the walking ??
No, then it hit him. The purging. The purging made him loose...loose so much weight.
Han was smiling so much he couldn't stop. He was getting skinny..this was his first goal weight.
But when he looked at the mirror... no different, he still looked fat .
The scale is broken. You need to lose more weight.
Lose more to be skinny, really skinny, and really pretty.
You fatty didn't even lose any weight. Be ashamed of yourself.
Han couldn't swallow properly. A big lump was in his throat. What was happening? He did lose weight, but where was the change?
Didn't he really lose any weight? Not even a little? What about the clothes that weren't tight anymore?
Han, you streched them out
You got even fatter. Just die. What did you do.
Han stepped away from the scale and pushed it back away. He clocked for the toilet to flush and went out ad if nothing happened.
He went upstairs silently and looked through his weight loss book.
"Your goal weigh: 57 kg."
Han closed out the thing he wrote previously and wrote something behind it
"Your goal weight: 5̶7̶ ̶k̶g̶ 50 kg"
He smiled a bit, closed the book, and went downstairs like nothing happened.
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"Welcome aunty welcome" han and the other were welcoming the guests that arrived. Older people, men and women, all smiled and came inside.
They all chatted, drank tea and coffee, made photos together, and had much fun.
But something that was making han nervous was when there was an older man but not too old, something between 45 and 50 years old.
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Fanfictioni don't understand then let me make it understandable. how can you like it. i don't like it. i adore it, han. and i don't . then I will make you love it how will i ever love my body? tw -self harm -eating disorder .contains calorie counting ,weight...
