how could you help me ..

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Han, didn't you say you wanted to get as low as possible?

Didn't you tell me that you didn't want to cover?

You said you would go as thin as possible

You promised it to me

And you broke it

If someone breaks a promised he breaks the trust... I've lost my trust in you

Hans thought on a daily event, killing him every second when he wanted to est something, when he didn't want to do his workouts or just to live his life.

Always the same thoughts every night.

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"HAN FOR FUCKS SAKE COME RIGHT NOW"

"I SAID I DONT WANNA I DONT WANNA STOP MOM STOP"

"Baby please your making me loose my mind if you don't step on that fucking scale right now I'll make you"

"I SAID NO. PLEASE NO MOM"

those were the last words han said before his mother pulled him by his wrist and pulling him.to the scale.

He tried to move, tears rolling down his face but it was too late. His mom saw it

46.5 kg

Starring at the numbers made han absolutely hate it. He hated it so much sosos much

"Han...oh...my baby" hans mother was crying. She couldn't hold it in any longer. It was just too much seeing her son weight that little.

The held her mouth and falls to the ground, still holding his wrist firmly. She didn't want to let go. She didn't want her son to go.

Han let himself get fallen down with his mother. They both were crying. What a mess.

"M-mom...please look at me please...please" han couldn't even say a normal sentence as if the air was cut off . He couldn't speak without sobbing so much.

He just hugs his mother. Hugs her so tightly. He hated it. Han hated seeing his mother like this crying in the bathroom and so sad.

He wanted to stop. To stop the weight loss, the purging, the pain he has caused his friends.
The pain he has been carrying on his back all those times. Just make it stop.

It went like this for 20 minutes, han shaking his mother trying to get her off the ground his mother but didn't. She just couldn't.

She failed as a mother to not protect her baby from this awful illness. She couldn't rescue him earlier.

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"Han...mom is sleeping. I finally managed to calm her down" closed the door behind him sitting on the bed

Yonwoo moves closer and closer then pulls han into a tight hug. He was caressing his hair, whispering all kind of soozing words.

Yonwoo kissed his head "im all ears han... you talk, you cry, you punch and I'll listen, wipe your tears away and stay still. Just talk and I'll listen"

And that's what han did. It took him a pretty one and a half ours to tell him everything.

He told him about the first thought for the weight loss, the comments from.the bullies, the magazin, Mark, purging, incident at naana's and aapa's, the self harm, his thoughts his feelings. Basically everything from the start till now.

Han did talk, han did cry and did punch

And Yonwoo dis listen, did wipe his tears away and didn't move away as han was punching him. Even if some were hurting he didn't care. He would anything for hia little brother. His brother who was suffering.

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"Han... Are you ready?" Said his mom as she held the phone and put it on speaker

Han took a deep breath in and out. "im scared but ready,"

*peep* *peep*

*peep* *peep*

*ting*

"Hello, here is the eating disorder clinic from the south morgan. You're talking with yuana. What can I help you with?"

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Helloo

I'm sorry for this chapter being really short, but I'm ill, and my head is killing me.

I actually wanted to make the, going into the clinic and everything around it much more "dramatic..?" (I don't know if it's the right word) but don't have the energy to fo anything these days.

I may delete this story and post the other one since im not reeealyyy happy with it. But only if i even have time to write the other one.😭

In the meantime, take care of yourself.
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